If I could turn back pages maybe I would
rewrite some history
although what use would it do
I would be right here
upon a rotting piece of lumber
hundged over
staring into the flames

If I could show you what I see
when I peer into the thickets of brush
when I teeter on the edge of what could be
a halt to all that I know, or we know

If I could lend you some advice
take what you will
that this path led
was contructed on broken hopes
repaired by fallacies
continued on by what appears to be good will
although I peer through my windshield inlayed with insect

If I could splatter the worries upon translucent glass
under hard force I would
watch it shatter, explode into a million little specks
let it peel away with sunlight and rain

Maybe that is what I will do,
let everything decay like this log
set a blaze
may they ashes blow and wilther away
But who I am kidding,
it will be awhile before anything changes.

New moon
paves a way through darkness
washed up by waves of years past
you don't see the truth until you stand beside your shoes
nurture your passions
set down the bottle
set fire to your addictions
wake up sober
look in the mirror
be honest
you no longer need to run and pretend
mend your heart strings
come to terms with your weakness
tomorrow is another day to try again

You fight
I scream
What is this all for?
Why force another person to believe they are not worthy?
Why make them look at themselves less?
It is no longer funny
when I stare and question my identity...

it is meaningless all that pours from your lips
never  has it occured to me
that the words you speak are poison
that the life you lead is dead

I am not here to judge
I hate to fight
I want to fall asleep at night
knowing you all are at peace

but how can I love when I hate what you've become
how can I believe when your fallacies lead destruction

no one controls a single soul

you may label
you may grieve
but my fellow friends
what you decide may lead me to leave
I hate to say goodbye
but its the only justice I see

May you be you
and let me be me
with or without you
I will be free
I have learned this life I live is too short to care about your beliefs

Is it possible that the emptiness is alright
that the darkness that we fear the most
holds the most light
that the days we count hold no weight
that the relationships we share are fake
that the love we give is endless
that the smiles we show are a reflex of conditioning
that the lives we lead are reflecting nothing
that what we live for is meaningless
that what we seek may be worth nothing in the end
that who we depend on the most are as brittle as castles made of sand
what is there to expect
we make it what we make it
we create what we create
we do what we do
with or without others
we carry on
you got to
you got to fill the gaps with some kind of meaning
you got to drown the grieving
you got to carry on
when things change
it is just a reflection of how uncertain everything is
stop worrying
we cannot predict the future
just hope for the best

Dearest world
the one I call home
the place I wander
and squander my time
watching fawna and flora
in the midst of rain at dawn
where misty haze meets the clouds of grey
my eyes tempered to the meeting gaze of stars above
the dew brushed upon my brow
the silty runoff stinging my burnt skin
stories that sleep on the beds of my nails
the tiredness that hangs below my pupils
oh cometh sweet winds of summer
let you linger within my soul
carry me away within your gentle arms
set my heart a blaze
let me seek what I desire most
cast away
float away
my dear world
keep me nomadic within the depths of your untouched landscape
keep me lost within your lonesome charm

In the midst of night
Comes the hail of rain
The fog wallows in the atmosphere
how I wish you were here...

These days are short but feel so long
Within the maze of trees, I carry on
Im proud of who I am and what I do
Ive compromised
Lived within a veil of sorrow
Gave in to what could be
Instead of what is

Whos there to say that love cant find a way
My love id give anything
To  see your face
To lay beside you with grace
But for now we'll wait

For I have dreams to chase and as do you
But soon my love, our fingertips will collide
And all our worries will have subsided
I have no doubts with you
Because you have shown me what love is

In the end when your in love with someone
No distance imaginable can seperate the connection
Because when in love
You are two free beings within one entity
Whether I am looking at the stars or wandering the forest i know that i am not alone
Because somewhere out there in the world your there and always will be
It is just a matter of time before we      
Are together again