Far to long you have suckled from the vein of my
extreme existence.
Draining vessels of gold while leaving the decay
for the crows.
Climb on and ride the old bones that have
betrayed me...free will some say.

Fear, point blank I have to break up with you. I just don't
get off on getting off anymore.
It's the real things that turn me on...like scent,
passion, fire, water, and sky. And lips, sweet succulent lips.
Bliss fills me up with absent gold and I get high...so ******* high.
Carry on.

The car crashed
...the lights made the crackling glass look magical

The blood on my lips
...tasted of you and it was then that I knew

I’d never waste another life moment
... on you and your lies

Instead I’d forever taste the sweetness of my own divinity✨

The magic was tempting but fate jumped in and saved me.

There is this memory of you and I; a time when all we did was graced.  All that was said was gold and all we felt was the blood of the earth and the sky pumping through our veins  
:Simply meant to be  
  
Now the lines are blurred like the ripples in the water.  I can't see clearly anymore I can't see the defined lines.   I don't know the rules and I'm tired.   I want to know your love and I wish that you could want it as much as I do  
But the blood of the earth ran dry and the sky is covered in grey.    
:Simple rantings of the forlorn    
  
Time has stolen the youth on my face.  It is taken away moments that can't be recaptured. They say hope will heal that.   I'd like to believe that hope still existed, that there is a higher purpose to be found in these moments of solitude and void. I want to believe...so very bad .  
:Simply my belief lands on you    
  
Sadness is irrelevant here. The madness of letting go of the wants and needs of the mind and the heart; leaves me in shallow water  wandering constantly.  It's the memories and dreams that  make me sad. That's what takes me into that dark night of the soul where I question everything.    
:Simple renderings    
  
Ankle deep in shallow water; blurred, ripples cascading with each movement.  I doubt if I could drown here even though they say it only takes a teaspoon of water.    
Where I feel my air getting cut off from my body is in the moments when I think of our future.  The one we can't have because it's been blocked by fear.  
How foolish can two people be to let go of those kind of dreams? Maybe we're just the kind of people that like to feel pain, that like to drown in sadness while pretending...that we are ok.  
:Simply it's not ok  
  
So today we turn another blank page; while the pen has run dry. The words have all been spoken and within that the heart and the voice have fallen asleep...shh

There is a constant that runs through my soul
better and clearer than any other dream.

The river; she harbors my wants and desires within
her constant ever-changing being.

Release of all the unhealthy ties that have kept me
bound wash away into the depths, twist and turns
setting me free.

All freedom has a cost. I have paid the price like so many.
Now here on rivers edge in the light of the sun I erase the debt
and feel the hope, joy and love like never before.

Here in this place, I don't beg, borrow or fear. Here in love,
I receive for the very first time...my joy filled time~eternal.

It was no care package.
It was the lies you sent to me.
Poor woe is you and all the people you hurt.
No remorse...no sorrow.

Take what you've dished out.

An accidental whisper moved through
a soul thought to have been sealed; stone cold.

Yet there it was, alive with a warmth that
engaged; reawakening so many memories.

Laughter was born in those moments with a
gentle grace and ease; while fires burned in whispers.

A heart forever drifting in a space in time when
love existed in the purest form.

Forever grateful to feel that whisper move in,
making the heart of grace beat just one more time.

Dandelions in her hair
mists of Avalon dance
within her soul

And for in this moment
this one moment
she believed in love one more time