I destroy myself with every word
That falls from your lips
The blood spilling over your chin
Once dripping, now gushing
The handprint outlined on my cheek
(That matches perfectly with your hand)
Stings less than what you tell me
And i believe im not better off alone
Because at least you tell me the truth

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I broke the window
I didn't want anything shielding me from reality
I'd rather face it head on
I felt the cold wind on my skin as I slept
The heat on my toes in the afternoon
I remembered how I used to watch the wind and rain
Beating upon the glass
And I would look at the way the sunlight streamed through
I still can't decide which I prefer:
Feeling life's beauties and pains
Or watching them while I hide away.

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I set everything on fire that reminded me of you
All that's left is to burn myself
I never knew what Hell felt like
until your arms wrapped around me
And I felt your breath on my ear
As you whispered every word I heard you say to her
I got chills when you looked at me,
but the kind that felt like spiders crawling under my skin
My heart stopped in a way reminiscent of a car crash
I guess thats really what you were
You almost took me to where I wanted to go
before sending me headfirst through the windshield into the debris
You walked alway, unfazed and unharmed
you looked back at me
And took her in your arms

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It's one of those nights
I'm unwilling to turn off the light
I won't look under my bed
I can barely open my eyes
I'll stack up the pillows beside me
And wish that it was you instead
Every noise makes my heart stop
Thoughts running wild in my head
I have to focus just to breathe right
Wishing I didn't have to breathe at all
I know in the morning that I'll be fine
but for now

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They say my youth is what I’ll look back on
The memories I’ve made
Fondly remembering
Those daring escapades
But what if I spend all this time
Trying to get out
Wishing either forward or back-
Just wanting to get out
Then when I am aging quick
My hair, turning gray
Then when I reminisce
I wonder what I’ll say

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There was a flicker of a flame in my soul
At one point I let it go
Realizing that uncontrolled
It would either burn me down
Or burn me out
And I’m okay with either result

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I love flowers
Who doesnt, really
But they bring along with them
Some underlying negativity
I can't help but think
Soon they'll be dead
That's why
I stopped picking up flowers
And maybe thats what I think
Whenever I look at you
I know that this isn't right
So maybe I can stand
From a slight distance
And look
But not touch
Because I cant feel the pain
Of losing you
If I never knew the pain
Of having you

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