Unknown Existence

The fear of the unknown has settled down on me
My mind and soul both aching
Reaching out to find peace and contentment
As I looked back, the memories scattered

Messes, failures, and joys come back to life
Questioning the existence, I have in this shattered world
I can feel the numbness that scared the hell out of me
Lingering into the darkness that surrounds beneath

Stepping into the unknown is inevitable
Tormented in the pitiful eyes of the lost souls
Today, as we gather in this holy place
I lift my strength and continue to chase the game

On the darkness wraps the cold sound of the night
As I slept while hearing your breathing echoes so tight
Dreaming last night that I’m out and paralyzed
Shouting your name like am scolding my soul inside
A promise kept by waking up to light
Remembering the love, we shout for our lives.

By Tosh A.

Reaching for the stars that blink on top of my head
Going crazy while chasing sleep runs fast dead
My body lays on an empty, bared bed
This guy makes me silly, which I can’t forget.
 
Walking in the street, morning of half past ten
Busy wondering, when another body slammed into me
My whole world goes gray as his hands picked mine
How can I forget those surprising time?
 
Days, weeks, and months had passed
Those memories keep on coming back
One knock and I couldn’t move anymore
Here you are, eyeing me once more.

You left me hanging on the road years ago
whispered goodbye and never returned home
My heart crumbled into pieces as I go along
crying in tears like there is no tomorrow

Never thought that this nightmare won’t end
as the pain floats and no one can mend
Emptiness lies beneath my hollowed soul
until a soft knock touched my door

There you are, standing pale and tall
waiting for my voice who speaks nothing at all
You grab my hand and say “Sorry, Marvy…
Can I come home with you, baby?”

As a kid, I daydreamed of my own childish thing,
like meeting my very own prince charming
Clothed like a pro, riding a horse, and
who will treat me like a real earthly queen

Back when the flower bloomed in May,
ugly duckling referred as my middle name
Then I beseeched and kept my distant
to the faceless man, I cannot have in an instant

Days, months, and years had passed
searching for true love has come to last
when our eyes met once again
I shiver and let fate control what remains.

Thunder strikes multiple pains in my heart
as I slammed my body on the edge of the ground
recalling faces strangely runs in my head
leaving marks of hatred and living dead

Good forces crashing waves and fragments
broken in pieces while dying in wretchedness
fear of the unknown holds my sanity in vain
crying makes it easier to numb the pain

Cruel mouths forced to silenced the ache
like unwanted souls embraced the game
feeling sick and unsure of anything
closes my eyes so harmony flows in

In the midst of the deep blue sea,
someone special became part of me
pondering how we met months ago
while I am still confused and won’t let go.
 
Your spirit lifts me up during dusky times,
when I was lost and could not think twice
Offered me your real and everlasting love
but, I refused and did not come back.
 
Now, I am walking from side to side
wishing we are cruising on the same ride
My world stops, when your eyes meet mine
smiling for me just like the old times.

Established friendship in secondary school
created each other projects in English and Math too
became seatmates for some time, many years ago
until I have developed a thing for you.

Years had passed without speaking a thing or two
until our story began like many lovers do
it started in Baguio while I was working in blue
experiencing your warmth makes the feeling new.

As the sun shines in the strike of light
hallucinations covered the drastic seconds of life
dark, melancholy, twisted heads, now on high
innocent folks shouting in terror, as they walk in line

With trembling hands, as he scans the news online
criticizing like everyone knows what is occurring inside
he prays for protection and just leaves it behind
has faith that goodness will spread around in time

Heart beats strangely as he steps his feet on the ground
questioning, if amity is on the other edge of town
unharmed faces still hope for peace and love,
that is what the spirit of hope is talking about.

Do I look lovely tonight?
Memories of the past hunting my luminous thoughts
Watching colorful dresses, swaying on the dance floor
Suddenly, a man appeared in the dream of magical door

Do I look lovely tonight?
Sitting here eyeing the most beautiful moon in sight
Embracing the cushion that acts as my companion and guide
Still, waiting for the man who is not available to please my side

Do I look lovely tonight?
Candles burning like my patience melting into thin light
Urging myself to hope until one day he will realize
Courting me would be the best thing in his life

Standing in the middle of the crowd
Facing your demons by slashing them out
Holding your brave forces with poise and vitality
Smashing the power that dwells in Lord Almighty

Carrying those burdens deep inside your soul
Heart breaks easily in an empty tone
Praying for comfort and peace to overflow
Kneeling on the rocks in a crooked road

Sweat runoff your face down your spine
Pleasing thyself in this battle behind
Shining like diamond who burst in the light
Sweet victory smells enchanting tonight

A flicker of yellow gold bursts into my joyful eyes
By watching the sunrise with you by my side
So close together that our hearts ignite
Two hands embracing like forever is in the sky

Closing my eyes, I dreamt of you
Fighting in the dark, keeping my troubles too
Woke up alone, feeling depressed and undo
Questioning, if forever in the sky is true

Unhappy memories crack into laughter and joy
Skin lingers wanting to be touch at all
The word I love you speaks to nobody but you
Proving that forever in the sky is true

Dark as the blind person’s sight
Surrounded by shadows that engulf the night sky
Poking questions dancing on my mind
Scared for truth that lays behind

Distress covers the deep of my throat
Shouting back without words to hear in an endless road
Looking for hope in this sinking trance
Forcing myself to wake up in the strike of sun

Dreams became reality one by one
Holding both hands with fears and frown
A palm reaches my shivering hands
Offering peace that sounds like a plan

It was after decision has been made,
simply by getting together to laugh and be saved.
Yesterday was enough to build memories of you
as we all shouted, thought and be thrilled too.

Having all of you made Kat and I smiling with glee,
playing Avalon let our spirit banged like crazy.
Credits to Gwen who had explained the theory
hope her throat would still function sprightly.

Hurrah to the success of this gathering,
each of us rocked the night merrily.
Breathe like there was full of vitality,
cheers ‘coz we were united as one happy family.

Making friends is an odd thing
for someone who is disbelieving
thoughts linger when you are beside me,
‘coz your ruthless mouth welcomes my smacking.

Anger, disgust and disappointment run through my spine
and my heart is pounding hard for what you did inside.
Hope you ever consider others in your life
‘coz you only cared for yourself while trying to hide.

I still pray for you to be happy
even the world is crashing you completely.
Everyone deserves to be loved,
by someone who will cherish them through beyond.

Knees brush the hard ground below,
worshiping the lady whose heart has been torn.
They call themselves the great followers,
who had been ransacked and called to her throne.

Hatred forms deeply in each other’s soul,
acknowledges envy and back fighting rules.
Ignorance permanently numbs the pain,
Like no one can save them from that terrain.

People suffer on the edge of their insanity;
therefore, she must be out of the work already.
However, this evil lady is still eager and persuasive
to claim her own legacy of selfishness and stupidity.

Finding Peace

I closed my eyes, as I find my peace
hazy vision surrounds the path I’m thinking
I don’t want to wake up yet;
but there’s a voice whispering inside my head
Calling my name like an angel.
He asks why I am in the middle of this;
Because I need an answer for this thing.
‘Oh my dear, there are times when you must understand
some things are meant to be changed,
so you can find settlement in your heart.
Go and let your soul be free.’
As I open my eyes, my father hugs me
Like I now know what must be done.

I remember on the far away corner,
Standing still while chatting to each other
Happy looks curve beneath the heat of the sun
while searching for the handsome faces for fun.

Bumping into you is far from being a coincidence
it was more than fate who allows the gift of incandescence,
How did we end up staying together for so many years?
Maybe being loyal, understanding and living with fierce.

Did it cross your mind, like it does to me?
Because I hope our friendship will last forever,
so our promised will not be condemn by the wicked,
Grateful for the love of friendship, now and forever.

Your mouth curves like a ship stand by the dock
Through those majestic clashes of sea and rocks
The fire in my eyes melted from the bed of clouds
Hearing alleluia in my heart that thump so loud

When those pleasing eyes looked mine
I forgot the bitterness and fear that blocks my mind
When you whisper, the birds chirp with happiness
That goes beyond the bottom of my soul

Is it good for you to enter the cave of my heart?
Because it’s deeper than you think
You could be drown, if you’re just a sweet revenge or a spell
But if you’re real, dance and sway with me until the end of time

The ball from the sky has risen
birds chirping and mouths trembling
with familiar voices
I pause from where I’m standing
to figure out what’s happening.
I close my eyes to make it better,
Wish that when I open it again,
those voices will shutter
My mind spins like a coin,
struggling into every word that comes to my ear,
Expecting for a fall,
those breaking pieces of information,
rolling back and forth.