Enticing tongues
Craving senses
Of un-daunting caresses
Trying to get rid
Of the bitter taste
In their throats

Unexpected paths
Of countless processes
Never resulting
In accomplishment
Though never fully lacking
In satisfaction

my
chest
aches
for
you
like
my
stomach
after
missing
another  
meal.

out the window it is a still night
and I am alone, in bed,
reaching for you with every part of me.

The warm and inviting luster of your deep brown eyes
Whose gaze pierce directly into mine so perfectly
So beautifully

My heart melts

Fixed on your gaze
I fall into a trance
And get lost in the feeling
Everything around me disappears
And you are the only thing I see

My heart lets out a peaceful sigh

Standing in the presence of your magnificence
I realize I am so vulnerable to how you make me feel
What you do to me
How you affect me

My heart beats slowly

Without my consent
My eyes are always searching for yours
My body forever longing for yours
And my heart endlessly reaching for yours

What is this unending and intense connection between us?

without You here i can't see;
i may as well be blind

You called Yourself Light
and it seems i've crawled inside a cave because all i see is darkness

(i am so so so sick of myself)

when You look at me,
what do You see?

do You still feel the love You've had for me
when You were dying on a rugged cross
at Calvary?

i've touched the holes in Your hands
and i ran away in fear because i finally understood that You are who You said You were

and i am a mess, i am a mess, i am a mess
and i let go of my Maker's hand to dance with a world who wanted nothing but to **** His Son

Jesus Christ, will You still believe me if i tell You that i love You?
after all of these things that i do?
i feel like i can't keep up;
my sins are swallowing me whole

Jesus Christ, i want to fall in love with You
i'm trying to grab a hold of Your cloak
but the crowd has trampled me under their feet and i can't get up from the ground and it's getting really cold

Jesus Christ, i know You love me
and sometimes that can be so hard to believe, but i know that it's true

because even when i was drowning in iniquity
You were still holding out Your hand and whispering that You still love me and Your love is unchanging and faithful and full

and when You saw me at my worst—
You still chose to bear my sins
upon that ***** jagged wood

in this darkness, Jesus Christ, it can be so hard to see,
but i believe You when You said
that You have never, not once, left me

*You love me,
You still love me,
You will still love me,

i am still Yours
and You are still mine.

i look out windows a lot
and read books than go out
and i think people are crazy
but i also think they're alright

is it weird that i've got friends i can count with one hand
but i've got fears that go past numbers i'm too lazy to pronounce?

here goes,
me trying to put my thoughts
into words

i have to be sly and slick and kind of quick,
because my thoughts tumble over one another
and get jammed somewhere in the middle of my brain
and disappear without a warning,

so i try to capture them at night
when they run by the multitudes
and are more prominent in my head

sometimes i catch a lot of bad ones
and sometimes it makes me want to hate myself
but i catch good ones too,
and that balances it out for a while, i guess

maybe i should get up and take a walk to breathe in fresh air

or maybe you should come here,
and i could breathe you in instead

i think that would be much better for my head.