It’s hard to know what’s real and what’s merely just a game
I don’t want to play
I don’t want to waste another day
There must be another way

Oh that smile
that smile you smile at me
The one where I can feel the warmth and feel the love you have for me
But it’s not real it’s a game you play to see how far that you can push me
Over the edge to a place where I can’t see

It’s so quiet now
The world so sill
Almost as if I could simply disappear

I open my mouth
but words don’t come out
A silent scream inside

I am numb to the pain
Or at least used to the way it feels
It’s comforting .. it’s normal.. it’s insane

You play this back and forth with me day by day
And I give in because it’s my heart that can’t see.. but my mind is who’s to blame

Starring out a window, a light begins to shine, breaking through the clouds, I see a smile that's mine, no need to run away and hide, for time is standing still, the moment that I've waited for is just beyond the hill, a few more jerks and turns, is the most I will endure, the happiness I've waited for is comming, of that I am for sure

There’s someone out there begging me to let him love me
I can’t open up again my heart is locked away .. there is no key
I can’t deal with that pain again I can’t set myself free
I don’t wanna fall in love again
please move on find someone else to be your forever.. it’s not me

I’d hoped you’d come back home again
I’d hoped you’d somehow see
This love we have does have mistakes but the love is all we need
I knew I’m my head what your answer would be
But that doesn’t ease the pain it’s causing me
I’d hoped our love was strong enough to withstand the raging sea
But instead it washed your heart away and far away is where you’d rather be

He gave up again.. he threw his hands in the air and walked away .. nothing left to say