I dreamed a dream
but forgot as i woke
and the remnents linger on in my soul
I grab hold of the snippets
the small little pieces
Weaving them to make it seem whole
but quickly i see
its not meant to be
my patching and sewing’s in vain
Closing my eyes
walking in faith
Hoping the dream will live again.

For though I have not seen your face
Etched in my heart you are.
Ingrained within, no common place
A face in a million by far.

A face in a million
Yet not a statistic
In courage you raised your voice.
Opportunity came
You shied not away
You spoke, and gave each of us a choice.

"Remember my face!"
Your pain commanded attention.
"Remember my face!"
Your abuse in full comprehension.
"Remember my face!"
No good deed is compensation.
"Remember my face...
I represent a hurting generation."

Nine going on ten,
Your voice was heard
Arrows to complacent or misguided views

Your boldness and truth
Silenced excuses
To the call I surrender, to remember, I surely will choose.

Let me attempt,
to simplify why I wont relent
Why even if there’s no consent,
my heart cant be changed or bent.

See, this life I live
not mine to take but mine to give.
No rights to claim,
No power in this world i hope to obtain.
To live is Christ, to die is gain.

But before I found understanding,
my life in shambles fading
in shame I was quickly degrading,
in a hopeless waste-filled land i was wading.

In my sin i was caught,
but with a price i was bought,
and in the truth i was taught
i stood and i fought...
Only to find myself falling once more,
i found myself in a downpour
confused not sure,
stuck without a plan or open door,
with little faith i fell to the floor.

I cried and cried,
poured out everything on my inside.
I wondered why,
why i was feeling so dry...
why answers seemed to hide...
if His peace again i would find...

But before hope is gone,
He reminds me of the cross
how He came for the hopeless and the lost,
my life surrendered the only cost...

So I lay down my pride,
my rights,
my will,
my life,
I take the nothing that i have,
and follow His plan.

Everyday i choose.
The lies i refuse.
I pray to be used,
for His glory, not abused.
I pray for His light,
I pray to be made right,
I pray during the night,
to walk by faith and not by sight.

Now, I’ve lost count
all the times He came,
rescued me again and again,
changing me never to be the same.
He never reframes,
in giving me the grace He bore in pain

Spiritual I.C.U
revived my soul and made me new.
Me, without a clue
Him, showing me what is true...
I decided my obedience was long overdue.

I live.
I breathe.
In Him I have my being
By faith I am seeing
His love is redeeming
Everyday Im believing
New mercy Im receiving
No longer am I bleeding
I received His healing
Now my hearts revealing
the passion I’ve been concealing

but fear no longer leads me,
PERFECT LOVE SET ME FREE

Inward change
Outside remains
the same
How to be an element of change
Now that I’m on a different page?
All I feel is tension
Between what I see
And what could be
Faith the substance
Hoped for
Despite that things are not so clear anymore
So what now
I have no clue how
To move from here to there
Without entering the maze of despair
How to stay with head held high
Not in pride
But when new life’s come by
When everything wants to scream
Because inside its all clean
Yet outside threatens the dream
Hope. Hope? Where are you?
Come rescue me again.
I need you to show your face
Remember me your old friend?

The alley way seems dark
Secluded little place
And some might even say
Here danger lurks with its evil face

Yet somehow I’m not scared
Though the light is dim
Knowing morning comes after night
Keeps doubt to a minimum

So here I am
Alone I stand
A shadow in a distant land

At a peculiar time
There’ll be sunshine
All the light in the world will be mine

So in this moment
The alley way and I
Will exist in a common place

I might contemplate
In the quietness of night or
The complexity of our human race.

I want my heart to beat
But synchronized to Yours.
My inner being all wrapped up in You

My heart is raw
Emotion exposed
I need to be alone with You.

I need to feel your tenderness.
I need to hear You breathe.
I need you.

I need Your life, Your love
Take hold of me
I need to feel close to You.

My spirit is weak.
I know You are more.
I need You to Breathe.

I want my heart to beat
But synchronized to Yours.
My inner being all wrapped up in You.

In the line of fire I stand
Blood in a drought filled land
The flesh wound smell
My nostrils are filled
Deaths desperate attempt
The air is chilled.

I reach out to free…
But then the blood is on me.

I can’t stop the gushing red
Shrieking pain, poisoned head
Grasping for a breath of faith
The air is thin, I cry out instead.

A cry of anger
Beyond wounded souls
Interrupted territory
Hot words. Burning coals.

Twisted cry
Mortality advert
Twisted truth
Woven with hurt.
Reconciliation I call
A gut filled plea
Groping dust.
Face down.
I cry out.
“mercy…?”