I always said that I could never fall for someone in one night
But that night I fell for you
Your wide brown eyes
And your mouse brown hair
Softened something within me
Sadly,
You wish I was older
And I wish you were younger
Then we could have fallen deeper
Into each other
The way we want to
To feel a love so pure
It would be impossible to ask for more
But now we have parted ways
Never to cross paths again
Still I think about that kiss
And the butterflies that fluttered within the cavities of my body when you held me
But age isn't just a number
It comes between
I wish it didn't
But it does

Kind eyes
That is how I remember you
Brown beautiful eyes
Heavy
That lit up like the night sky
With an eternal array of starlight
But it is what I felt when you stared into mine
An emptiness lifted
Accompanied by the warmth of you
I so wish I had longer
To gaze back at your marble earths
To see through them
To feel your deepest cries
But I barely know you
And that's the saddest thing

Trying to disappear
Scratch myself from the page
Relieve this constant sting
A chaos I can't conceal
It will be my likely demise
You see,
The thing is that you can't, see
See me
Or my pain
Moving, in slow motion
Keep it to a minimal
I need don't need the scars
Left behind
**** my pain
Trying to disappear

Touch me
Love me, or at least tell me you do
Lie to me
And let me disappear
In this moment  
Craving the touch of a stranger
In the night
Pain, with pleasure as my relief
I know I'm mistaken
But I need him to numb me
Numb me enough to get through my days
Because this shallow sting will remain
And I will bear the stains
Of a secret lover
Who I will only be there for, in the sheets
And him, for me
In the night
Returning to the cold of mine
Oh, how bittersweet
This shall be
Love me, In The Night

Nostalgia ridden thoughts of you
Run through my conflicted mind
What path they lead is a mystery
Waiting to be solved
But how -
How do I contain such heavy thoughts
Weighing down my dreams
Get lost in me
Or pass me a knife
To cut out the memories

He told me that I'm achingly silent
That it torments him
He stares, he waits
But no answer
Just watered black eyes gazing back at him

I said
That's because we don't mean anything we say to each other, anymore

I've watched you for many days,
Many hours,
Many minutes.
I thought that maybe you'd notice by now,
The inescapable infatuation that possesses me when you pass me by.
I know that I could love you.
In a way that takes every little grain of tenderness within me.
From the bitter depths of my past,
To the hopeful shallows of my future.
Maybe you could feel the same,
Only if you let me.
Oh tall boy with brown eyes,
I know this may seem strange to you.
I see beauty in your lanky exterior.
Your rose stained lips
And the jagged edges of your cheeks.
I see beauty in these simple things,
They're what mean the most to me.
One day you'll see what I see,
And maybe you'll let me.

He always thought that he could save me
Save me from life
From myself
But the truth is
He couldn't
Nobody can
Nobody ever will

Don't make me
Make you
Fall in love

I can get you there, baby
Believe me

Don't make me
Make you

I saw life in her glazed emerald eyes
Gazing back at me
She spoke through them
Spilling her secrets
Resting her broken heart for a while

I didn't know
I couldn't foresee
How much I would hate you
Each word that leaves your pale lips
Grinds into my gritted teeth
Pinches at my unwanting ears
And pulls at my unspoken tongue
Willing me to conjure a flame ridden truth, your way
But I will hold back
As you will only make me feel crazy
Crazy for feeling
Crazy for not wanting you near
Insane for stating your presence now makes me sick
But that is the truth
They are my feelings
And you will invalidate them

I thought I could grasp it
The washed out blue life of it
The tainted shadows that live among it
The other side of it
But it, is something that cannot be foreseen
It is something you stumble upon
Once you fall into the bottomless pit of it
Never to come out

Insincere smile
With sad eyes
That's how he described me
Lifeless laughs
With silent thoughts
And desire to be free
He said,
You give
But you can't take love
Odd, for someone who needs it
You touch,
But you can't feel
You hear,
But you don't listen
You stare,
But you can't see
What could be,
If you just let me

It hurt
It hurt to touch him