I’ve always wanted to play chess with you
But I never thought it’d be like this.

I never thought you’d bring me onto this battlefield
As your Queen
Promising to shield
Me. Promising to wield
Your ponderous power
Any day, any hour
I needed you.

Never thought I’d be fighting this war
Alone
Giving up everything I owned
For you

Never knew I’d have to battle other queens
On this chessboard.

Never guessed you’ never budge
From your square

You sit comfortably on your chair
Without a care
In the world
(But yourself)

It’s just a game to you.
I am just game to you.

I always thought
You’d have my back
Any attack and I swore
You’d be
At my side
I thought this was a ride
Built for two.

But there are too
Too many
Knights
Bishops
Rooks

Pawns

That I can count on
Before I can count
You as
The One
Who truly loves me.

But one day it will hit you
Hard in the face
That my place
Is empty
On this black and white field
When the real
World smacks you straight in the heart
I won’t be there to be a part
Of it all.

One day my King,
I will not be on your board
And what a twisted twist of fate
When there’s a white King standing stately
Before you
Shaking your hand as he says

Checkmate.

I watch the stars dance above like fireflies on a summer night
The breeze takes my cares away and I am left with an awe that rustles  in the willows
It brings a scent that lingers like the warmth of a lovers embrace and a reflection which looms on the pond
And I stare for much too long knowing it will go away
Dancing among the grass the wind carries the chirping sounds of crickets as they converse their secrets to the night
And my heart swells with joy at sight of the radiant smile the moon shines down my being
A dancing memory on the shores of the cedar pond

I guess I am feeling blue.
And I don't know what to do.
I want to cry but there are are no tears.
I want to scream but there is no sound.
My body feels numb,
My heart aches, so unwanted and unloved.
I feel so lost in the darkness and stillness of the night.

The day is bright. The sun is shining high in the sky.
The birds are singing so sweetly.
The children's laughter fills the air, making the adults smile.
But My puzzled mind cannot hear.
As I am so lost deep in this world of my own.
But in this world, there is no where to hide.
There is no where to run.
i will die alone

Searching for what isn't obvious.
Everyone has a story,
That they'd like someone to listen to.
Searching...
Looking...
When I look into their eyes,
Who is really looking back?

I miss the days,
When I couldn't reach the cereal,
When I couldn't see out of the car window.
I miss the days of simplicity.
I miss the days,
When I was a princess,
When I was an astronaut.
I miss the days when I could be both.
I miss not having to make decisions.
I miss when stress and heartbreak only happened,
On TV shows that no longer exsist.
Oh, how I miss the days,
When I didn't have to care.

I like you.
Or at least I like who I am when I'm with you.
When I look into your eyes,
I'm on a different planet.
I've always liked you...
Even before everyone else did.
I still do...
And I don't know if its worse if you know,
Or worse if you don't.