"did you **** them?"
- **** is a strong word dr. nice legs, i prefer the term sent back
"sent back?"
- yes, sent back - they were at one place so i sent them back
"so you... sent them back? back where?"
- oh it's a place that doesn't exist, not to me, not to anyone
"heaven?"
- oh no, gosh no, why are making up words dr. pen in mouth?
"hell?"
- if you mean h-e-double hockey sticks then you're sadly mistaken
"underworld, olympus? give me a clue or something."
- ah ah i said it doesn't exist, how do i give you a clue for something that doesn't exist dr. frowny face?
"describe your feelings towards it."
- home

you have a 2.5 gpa
you don't have girlfriend
you just got back from suspension
you don't get spending money to get food after school
you shoot like you're blind
you write poetry
you have to beg your teachers for extra credit
you have hand-me-down clothes

i have everything you don't
so why do you look so happy?

mashed potatoes
poached eggs
beans
and some homemade garlic sauce
but no meat for the
princess's sensitive stomach

"I'm full," she said

"No, you are not," said mother. "Eat up. Finish
everything from your plate
and trust me, it's been calculated. It's
the right amount. Now eat up."

Father agreed. Being a step-father he
didn't have much of a say in this
matter or any other

It took the princess another twenty
minutes to finish the
food from her plate
and then stood
and went to the bathroom but
it wouldn't be that simple. Mother had to go in
with her

And she did
and both of them came out and
the princess went to her
room
and mother started cleaning the table
always just one step away from
bursting into tears
which gave her new husband some work
with emotional support and all

A princess doesn't steal
but this was a desperate princess
she locked the door to her room
and pulled out from under her
shirt the
roll of plastic bags
took one
opened it
sat on the bed leaning forward
elbows on knees
face before the bag

and she didn't even have to
put the fingers in her mouth
the ***** just came
every bit of mashed potatoes
and poached eggs and every pea
and the homemade garlic sauce

She tied the bag
it felt very warm in her hands
placed it under her bed
got her phone and sent a text

in twenty-something minutes
he was under her window
and she threw him the bag of *****
and he walked away with it
carried it to a trash bin far from her home

He was such a sweet guy for
doing all this for her
He was her prince
Except he still kept his frog form
even after all the kisses and *******
after school

but well,
when you're desperate...

i remember that one story
of the kid, finch
theodore
theodore finch & violet
he stood at the top of a bell tower, i think
and proclaimed his suicide plans
the people below either took it as a joke
or something else
i can't remember which
i liked that boy, so did violet
so did violet
so did violet
so did violet

yes i understand
how in the world can your straight a & b student
your oldest child
your only girl
want to play video games rather than read?
because in video games i can verbally curse out my enemies
and boy oh boy will they respond

while i watch my girlfriend sleep
through the phone i hear her parents argue
she clutches her sweater -
the one i gave her weeks ago -
closer, i whisper
"can't they argue in the driveway like real parents
for [REDACTED] sake"
you smile, and drift back to sleep

you can't light a fire while it's raining
it'll instantly go out once you make a spark
so why, oh why
do you keep trying to light me?

i understand i'm easy but i'm no longer taking it anymore
taking YOU anymore . . .

i'm so tired
i don't have the strength to push you away right now
do what you want and leave right after
don't come back okay?

i'm tired, so [REDACTED] tired
do what you want and leave
don't come back

i'm tired, so very tired
do what you want

i'm tired