Ignored by the ones you love, I feel so cold
This game we play is getting old
When you're the one I want to hold
Keepin distant from my heart is what I'm told
Falling in love you wouldn't chance it
Even though I'm a hopeless romantic
My time with you is sinking...titanic

Happiness is a feeling that passes through magnetic waves
We can feel the reverberation of positive energy as we pass each other by was there more to it?
Is there a spark, my feelings became electric
My mind became its source of power but otherwise useless
Just tell me that when we passed eachother by you felt this?

Hold your head high soldier it's not over yet
Our journey is just begun so embrace the ****
And I'll keep this smile on my heart
Because web you start to doubt and start to think
Is when this ship will begin to sink
Sturdy out minds needed only necessary
Thinking traps are our adversary
We can make it through this endless endeavor
One day at a time instead of forever

I'm just trying to fit in so I don't fall off
No one to catch me only to toss me around
It's feels good for a bit, till it turns into spite
Sorry and sadness all inside with a smile to sit upon my face
My thoughts race not to finish but to collect themselves
Taking turns and burning out
These thoughts I've been having need to take a different route
So why fit in anymore?
Don't fit in just fit
The world is our puzzle we're just trying to fill it

Dejavuu, it's a sign
When you have it your eyes go blind and you enter a premonition in your mind
You live the moment, memory, foresight
In awe you don't say a word
What do you think?
Are you headed in the right direction?
Is that what this means?
Is it a warning in disguise?
Or a bitter sweet surprise...

overwhelm me if you can
gravity has already got it covered
Got a lump in my throat
Full of words too big to get out
we can't read lumps and I can't read my mind
Consider me alliterate
Doing fine I never could consider it
I know I'm slow
But I'm so smooth my mistakes don't even show
Tasks piled miles high on my plate
Let's just say my eyes are bigger than my stomach, too much to chew
It's Friday, I'm ecstatic this week is through

its all fun and games until someone gets hurt that explains this distance between you and I My eyes could never leave your side but besides that I was all yours Enamored like a high school love A curse and a blessing from above A twisted person with selfish intention Intervention; I thought we knew what it meant to be happy and i couldn't see a future without you Now you're something I need to fix, a loose *****

Could I just be a cancer? Just waiting to strike
Taking the ones down with me that would have been Better off
I've not leeched but corrupted them
A process charm and wit can fix but does the opposite
I want your happiness, bottled up
For me to drink out of your decision cup
It's too easy stay far but near
Better off to not see me here...ever?

Have you ever took th time to really know someone?
Know who thy really were? Not just by presence?
To talk to analyze to share the laughter
Take a chance maybe you could live happily ever after
It's too easy to push a weightless object called a relation-ship away but harder to have it come in closer
All aboard or all forgotten either way this ship is sailing
Come sail away with me, on these waves, our friendship to be

Could you smell like ciggarettes one more time?
It's cancerous taste brings me back
To a time of youth and rebellion
The feelin of invincibility would take over control
Inhale; time feels as short and thin as the air in my lungs
The taste oh the taste, a bitter remorse, hint of curiosity
The only taste I ever knew, ****** lungs
Could you smell like ciggarettes one more time?

Heart on a pedestal, a prize, someone's claim to fame
So high up, it beats no ones name
I throw my own at it, yours beats to another drum
I want to hold it so close, too high to reach
On display like the sword in the stone
Could I be the chosen one?
Could we be and make history?

A fool could see this from a mile away
Still I let you get close
Your love, like espionage for future endeavors
For me to give out all my love to have it scattered across the walls you built up to keep me out
Still I was outside your solitude of isolation
My fair Juliet, misjudged and ruthless, how I like it
Blinded by mistreatment, I want what's bad for me
Like sugar to your teeth so sweet but risky
I'd fight to suffer the slings and arrows of as they say misfortune with you could never come my way..

No one said anything about sticks and stones

It's never easy;it
It, like learning how to walk again;time
Take some, but sparingly, hurry up
A cut above the rest, we have to be
Super human, against our will be we will be
Step by step, won't ever turn back
Fortitude of a train we're always on track

                                        SOLDIERS!

Laid my eyes on you to rest
This feeling inside takes control and precedence
You've seen the clues hints and evidence
Can you want me? Can you need me?
My twinkling star my diamond in the rough
Appraised every time I see you smile


Priceless

Those eyes and those hips
Icy stare snake like motion
Modern medusa

You're hurt and only I can see
Your emotions and scars internally
Now I've been pushed so far away
So distant you can't hear me say
A battle I have to fight everyday
Just so I can have you stay
In my thoughts, my eyes, my arms all day
Can you see? You were never invisible to me

To love and not be loved that is deception
Wether tis harsher in mind to deceit
Or suffer for someone else's sake
And to hold another down while you're walking 2 steps ahead and try two to the rear
To get away with disrespect and falsehood
Kick someone while your down till you find the next best thing

Lost in translation
Perception of reality a mess
What seems right one day like the days reset
Unsaved data
Hours wasted
No money but time spent
Time waits for no man
Our hour glasses disappearing
The sands fade away in the waters of life
It gives but mostly takes
But make no mistake
Your life is only right twice a day

Competing with smiles
All thirty-two contestants
Faceless deception

You're dead longer than you are alive
Which serves a better purpose?
Insane it might seem but imagine
Like a world with magic and dragons
The impossible on the "other side"
Waiting for out truly vacant imaginations
To store the over flow of what cannot be seen
And continue creating the unthinkable

Goodbye to rules hello society
Where freedom seems free but isn't at all
You take the time to create perfection
Just to corrupt the manifestation
Good luck

Being an adult  on the fast track called life
We rush to grow up but not understand
Choices and responsibility in life
Happy beginnings would thy be nice?

No tie downs I'm livin free
Girls on my mind straight animosity
With females around I don't feel alone
A little bit or love on the rocks to take me home
Home is where your heart is
Where do I reside?!
Away from my past life by your side
Anchor me down but keep the fun
I changed when I realized you were the one

It's all fun and games till someone gets hurt
That explains this distance between you and I
My eyes could never leave your side
But besides that I was all yours
Enamured like a high school love
Make me sick to the core to know you're a..twisted person with selfish intentions
Intervention I thought we knew what it meant to be happy and I couldn't see a future without you
Now you're something I need to fix, a loose *****

Remember the times we use to share
Nights by the fire, I'd stroke your hair
We laughed we loved we braved the rain
I'll never forget this sugar coated pain
I was so young I couldn't see
A love too real, fantasy; imaginary
I held your hand but held it loose
In the other a tightly knotted neuse
Now if you asked me back I could only refuse

Mixed feelings up late
Stupid fights; that love hate
We fight to keep the flame alive
Give no less than all I got
Remember where we first met?
Forget that better yet
Remember where we first kissed
Time with you will always be missed
Your love to me was always worth earning
And cannot bare our separation I'm learning

I wasn't programmed for this
To feel, to need
What doesn't fit, and what I can't see
In my mind it's soft to the touch
Yet hazy and misleading as the night
Shadows dance, but not with me
Emptiness even after sun down

So red, out of sight!
Talk about the cold shoulder
Is it summer yet?

You can't sit there looking at yourself
When you're standing there wishing you were somebody else

Don't change your shoes, until they've been filled
Years of experience takes time and effort to build

The the comfort we all felt inside a pillow fort
Like motherly foundation, call it moral support

Looking in the mirror unable to see yourself
It's okay you're still looking for that book on the shelf

I'm up all night to have fun
Way late and passed the sun
For great times not just one
You want them too? come get some!

It's easy to do, and easy to make
Memories for old times sake
All the opportunities we could take
Our bounds grow stronger and harder to break

My life's been awake at night
I've always been afraid of the light
Now things are clear and everything's alright
No one can stop us without a fight!

An innocence not seen by these sinning eyes
A style, swagger if you will not appealed until I glanced
Never forgot the day my presence was overwhelmed
A sense of all things good in you, evil could do no harm
Like an angel from heaven
Sent to test me, or cast me away
Either way, I was being judged
Unsure what to say, I appeal to your sense of humor
A little dry for my taste, I got us both a drink
Religion, it is what may keep you sane
But for me, the lacking of it, making me unsteady
Testing me at every turn I could see it coming
How in this day and age a girl so sweet so pure, humming
Not a care in the world yet one for you remains in check
What you do is not for you but for the man, you sit and wait for his call and beck
You tempt me with purity, does that make you a sinner?
Even good things can be bad in the right light
But I would not accuse such a "******" with silly accusations and assumptions
I would only prove to fail the test, and he already knows it
Giving second, even more chances
I'll see you in the future

Nervous, like the first day of school times ten
Innards shaky from what's to come
I don't know if I'm ready, what have I done?

One chance to do this, will I seize the day?
Am I smart enough am I strong enough?
Am I trained physically and mentally tough?

I've set a trap, but where has it gone?
Removed and detached with the help of technique
I will uphold my values along with physique

I'm goin' gone mamma can't you see
There no stoppin' now I've gone too far
I'll be smiling at you from the rear view my journey's car

Could I be holding on to something deeper
Fishing with the wrong bait
I always knew emotions would be the end of me
Not the beginning but overtime its taken a toll
The smell of your hair doesn't phase me anymore

When the wind bellowed it hit me
not the wind but a whim
I went on it and was in search of the answers
Like a word search my minds scrambled with the right thoughts
The words just don't come out

Talk is cheap but can you afford it?
Making plans with you is like "Mission Aborted"

Time is money but time is priceless
It all leads back to a very common crisis

The ones you adore turned the ones you adored
You thought it was forever but nothings assured

When silence is communication, that awkward recognition
When all that spark and friendship goes missing

Cat got your tongue? No, but this felines got feelings
Words with no gravity goes straight to the ceiling

I can't feel you do you feel me?
It wasn't easy but now I see

All these clouds raining on my sunshine
Now I know you were never meant to be mine

Change
good or bad
Wish I had the time to
Change

What's done is done
It's time to move on
and change

The way I see the way I do the way I
Change
My perspective my life and my friends
I can't change them but I can change myself

Change

It's been time for the past 5 minutes
Do or die it's what we say
Game time, all the time, no more work, just play
Hands shaking, stomach quaking, mind aching, nerves breaking
Our object and goal clear with the rooms gravity intensifying
Sweating, it's cold, pressure, I'm trying
No time to waste, our time to use
A game where we can all tie win or lose
The crowds expressionless faces their infamous harks
The more I think about it, we're the fishes in the sea of sharks
The pressure they put on me was always provoked
I couldn't overcome it even on my best days
When it comes to the real do I have always choked

Shovel and pale in hand
I'm ready
How I miss you
Our sleepless nights
The longer days with you make me feel so good
Eating ice cream together
Glistening, sweating, skinny dipping
It's all the signs of a good time and a good vibe
All day and all night
I'd fight to keep you any day
Splish splash, salty taste, in the waters late at night
With you it don't matter because when it's time it all feels right

Dreams are made of what you most desire and fear
Reality is made of what is here and what you make of it

So what kind of life do we fear and desire all at the same time to live?
Their dream come true
Even the most perfect of all dreams will have holes poked in them
You can't see it because you cannot accept your dreams reality

We want to live the high life but we couldn't dream that big from a realistic view
The life we want can be taken if and only if you reach for it

Idle hands gather dust and ******* while others exercise their rights
No one can stop you unless you allow your eyes to be deceived

Is there such a thing as perfect?
If not why is it there?
What could be perfect today, suddenly flawed tomorrow

Looking up at the sky, what a perfect view
Now that it's raining I can't seem to see you

Clouds, little pillows of milky white
Paint the sky's canvas but restarts everyday
Perfect sometimes? No such thing as perfect they say

Like your first love and first time
Perfection seems so simple
Within reach, visual view

Is perfect a myth or even a plot?
To keep us going, to make us distraught?
Perfect is never perfect even in it's own sense...

Down the path we dare not choose
Heavily influenced drugs, *****
A sea bad decisions, treading
Not on, but with me, consciously

Just takes the voices of reason, with many reasons
Do it, try it, I'll do it too
Fingers crossed, unable to look back
Your heart races, unsure reaction
Now you can look back, but it's all gone
What you once saw, is now a thing of the past
The innocent can never last

Rich in money, words, and kindness
Never paid attention to me though
All I wanted was a little time spent with you
Not false hope and empty promises

Like a day of catch between father and son
Looking forward to bonding with my old man
It's how I saw you, but not how you saw me
To hear you say I'd see you tomorrow and leave me to say
Pinky promise?

My victory was all but small
It was different with you I wanted it all
We gave each other a shot in the dark
But in the daylight was where I was lost

I couldn't see, the outcome of what we've done
Of my words, and oblivious actions, who would have thought
Not me, trouble came knocking, winded and distraught
Not on my end, I couldn't hear it

I took what's meant for only us to know
And put it out there like a public tv show
For all to see and all to hear
I'm most sorry, can you see this?

My victory so small, boasted, not sure why
On my brain thinking, thinking, wait did I...
I did, it slipped out one too many
I only hope for my thoughts to be worth more than a penny

Think about touching the sky, can you get that high?
If you do before you die you're gonna be the one to catch my eyes
Dreams and goals, all that glitters is gold
Light in my face shining it ain't heaven yet but it feels real fine and
Fitting in ain't so bad, we all wanna do something with our life
If you wanna fit in with me you gotta want it all
We all want what we can't have, but all is smaller than you think
Big pictures, little ideas, it's all too easy with a bit hard labor
Look in my eyes you see the work? Practically that of art
We all do are best to play our role and our part

Pregame a few ounces no one will notice
It was a bit different when I sneaked that kiss
Wasn't for sure wasn't out of confusion
Just the truth in liquid for turned and fusion
It was all alright, a feeling in my chest
And it felt so tight, bumpin' bumpin'
A knock at my heart, someone found their way in
Come but don't make yourself at home
Because when you leave I know I'll feel alone
Stay a while spend the night
The beat of my fast pacing heart feels all alright

I smile for the world to see
There is always someone who can make you happy
It's someone you know better than yourself...or even the same
It was always you smile because I knew
That special person inside of you, yeah I do
Your body smiled at me but your eyes wouldn't let you gander
Afraid you may have to ask for directions
You were lost but you have to to be found
Music a tad too loud not for all to hear
But for me to share, I want you to listen
Not see what I see but feel what I feel, it's real
It's all easy just go with the flow
A river couldn't do a better job if you feel me
No application necessary just enjoy what comes our way
Happy tomorrow because I'm happy today

The feeling, I couldn't explain
It's like I've been with you all these years
Like I've been going through the motions despite my fears
Of being alone, you make me feel ok, ok right at home

All I wanna do is look up at the clouds
Let the days float by with a chance of rain
If I could have you on this rainy day
We could wash away our problems all our pain
Just look up at the clouds and start a new
A new we knew could come true

We can live forever
It's only a matter of time
What you do with it and what you don't
Handle with care, poke holes to breathe
Time waits for no man child or woman but carries on for all
I want to do it all live my life like a boss
By the time it's over, if you never heard of me it's your loss

We all take chances
some more than others
We all want what's bad for us
candy, drugs, a lover(s)

Why do opposites attract?
Why must good always find bad?
To help? To stop? To change?
Why must we always want what we wish we had?

Isn't it easier to take what is within our grasp?
Would we stoop so low to get a free pass?
Would a little hard work **** us all?
We'd all rather just spend time and money at the mall

Socializing, sitting on our *****
Why not go online and take a few classes
Does it hurt to learn or try a little?
I wish the world could be just a tad more civil