Tiffany

Tiffany Aug 2017

complete

i had convinced myself
i couldn't live without you
that i was incomplete

it wasn't until you left
that i realized
you were a puzzle piece
i never needed

Tiffany Aug 2017

Untitled

you were taught your body
was a tool
so when they came to use it
you laid it down
your mind be ******
and allowed them to abuse it

Tiffany Aug 2017

call to worship

he calls me goddess
prayers dripping from his lips like sweet nectar
as he sinks between my legs
and shows me how he worships

Tiffany Aug 2017

growth

i think it's both funny and sad
you assumed i'd come running back
the way you manipulate the truth
expecting my will to bend to yours
like a tree bowing to the winds of a mighty hurricane
i learned what it's like to find a love
that flows steady and strong like the river
and now i can look back
at the girl who used to be
and know the woman today
is too strong to fall back
into arms so much like the rose
- beautiful and tempting to the eyes,
but concealing rows of thorns
that stab into the mind body and soul

Tiffany Aug 2017

70 days

i count down the days
until your embrace
the days pass s l o w l y
like the leaves that fall
...drifting...
gently,
nonchalantly
downward
announcing autumns arrival

Tiffany Aug 2017

silence

there is no shame
in asking for help*
but the obligation instilled
by a society that dismisses
mental health
forces me to remain silent

Tiffany Aug 2017

Exhaustion

I am tired.

I am tired of not being able to trust my own mind.

Anxiety ravaging my psyche, building walls I worked so hard to tear down.
Depression developing like cancer in my soul, blotting out the love and joy from life like thunder clouds suppressing the sun.

I am tired of my body working against me.

Fatigue forcing me to stand back as I watch life race ahead. Migraines that keep me locked in the darkness like a long forgotten memory.

I am tired of the necessity for a never ending list of drugs.

The harsh light of the doctors office as we discuss our options. Adding pill after pill to keep my mind and body above water.

But mostly, over everything else, I am tired of being tired.