I'm done
Trying to make
Everyone else
happy
When I'm
Not

Life is a card game
You try to play by strategy
You make the best of the cards
That you have been dealt

But sometimes you are given
One too many cards

And with one missed movement
What was once standing
Will tumble down

Gazing over the ledge
I hear a splash
And something blue appears
Watch it swim by

Gracefully
And yet so natural
Not sure what I see
Is real

The sun glares down
Sweat drowns my face
As the dolphins put on a show
Then freely swim away

what do you see when you look in my eyes,
do you see darkness,
or do you see light

do you see an angel,
that soars high in the sky,
or do you see the devil,
hidden in disguise

do you see the nightmares,
that awaken me at night,
or do you see the fantasies,
coated in a bunch of lies

do you see the person,
that I dream to be,
or do you see the person,
that is stuck here in reality

my hearts being pulled-
in many different directions
piece by piece- it breaks

I wonder how I'm staying strong
how I survived for this long
I know that they deserve better
then me
and if that is the way this ends
then let it be

I'm in this battle
It is me vs. me
my heart points me towards something
then my head drags me back
into what might be reality

I can't take much more
my soul is soaring
but my body lays lifeless
on the floor