Your disease pushes people away
while you try to grasp them all the harder
with querulous tone and haranguing words -
your paranoia knows no bounds
and bulldozes through all my good intentions.
When will the light begin to glimmer in your brain
that people can love you
without you trying to force it ?

Big beautiful face
Bursting with color
Earth's shining star captured in a flower
spreading smiles in alI directions
Gently waving in the slight summer breeze
With warmth and invitation
To enjoy this moment in the sun

Some people crash into your life
like waves in a storm
while others slip in
with the rising tide.  
Some leave
like water slowly receding
stealing the sand under your feet
and some
are just suddenly gone
like the ground beneath you
when you step off the ocean ledge
into the abyss
where no light penetrates
and there is no direction,
where the pressure of your grief
is unending
and drowning
is what you are doing
every second
and those seconds are all you know.

A big monster dog
with a floppy smile
rippling muscles
and a silly hop
Huge teeth
and fuzzy fur
who has thunderous barks
and the whiniest of whines
how do you embody terror
and nanny dog
in one ?