If time was the ocean and we were the sea
I’d let our waters trickle down to the willow tree
seeping and flourishing its roots
Making our connection ever so absolute

A face to see, a face to meet
The sun to shine, I feel the heat
Let it slip, like sand in your palm
Let it settle, make yourself calm

Lead me to your darkest door
Let me feel the same as before
Whisper all your secrets
I’ll share my regrets

Leave behind your trail of fears
If lust is blinding, help me to see clear
Make note: the sins of a man
Try not to understand

I’m a broken creature you see
Cursed and scorned way beneath
I get high off chemicals
Like liquid gold and convertibles

In another life, I wouldn’t have thought twice
But a gambling man knows when to roll the dice
These are the last words I’ll write
Blind my eyes before you leave my sight

There’s a place in my mind where I go to dream
A place where all things feel so serene
Worries and stress cease to exist
And everything else is nothing but a wish

There’s a long hall that leads to a reflection
I’m greeted by a stranger, a cold face that shows no affection
He looks me in the eye, then whispers
Thoughts and feeling as if I miss her

It doesn’t take long for the glass to crack
I find myself lost on finding the way back
The darkness engulfs all the light
It attempts to let my fears take flight

I can’t help but let out a scream
As I feel the collapsing of the beams
A cry for help will do no good
I lived a life that no others should

The lights above me keep getting dimmers
My chances of making it out are looking slimmer
I attempt to reach my hand to the door
But instead I find myself bleeding out on the floor

I look out on the sea
The colors reflect those of my eyes
The same ones that always make me feel free
For out here there is no ties

It’s just me and an empty vessel
More than a question, but less than an answer
A quiet place for one to nestle
A saving grace from those who banter

It’s a quiet life out here
But there’s a peacefulness that comes with
The kind the brings forth no fear
Almost as if its a myth

I fear that I fear no man
I fear that I have become what I oppose
For this place there’s nowhere for me to stand
Just throw me in the river, let me rest with the crows

I don’t recognize your face
Even worse I feel out of place
There’s so many words to say
But that would take more than a day

Freedom is a burden
I choose to live in sin
By the choices I make
And the feelings I fake

Some point the world will get even
At that point I may start believing
I am who I am
Nobody else can give a ****

If I do any wrong
I’ll still be strong
I won’t feel guilty
I am the one who built me

I want to belong somewhere
Where? well I guess I don’t really care
Just a warm spot to soak in the sun
Somewhere to hide when the day is done

With the freedom of the wind at my back
To atone for all the good, I lack
It seems there’s more wrong than right these days
I find myself mostly in the grey

Let me be easy on my brothers
Kind and patient like none other
An inspiration for those to dream
A guiding force just as a support beam

So, when it does become my time
Convict me of a victimless crime
For I don’t want to live forever
Just let me enjoy the harsh weather

I play my cards close to the vest
But I make sure to do my best
So, when I do start to feel like less
Lay my body down to rest

The city lights never fail
I smile as I walk down the street
Picking up a quarter, on tails
I have nothing but time to beat

A field of lavender on my right
I can’t resist to pick a few
The smell itself is a delight
Pretty enough to bring home to you

The railyards are all abandoned
Simpler times it seems it was
That’s not what the world demanded
I lay my head to the track… listening for a buzz

I’m getting closer, as I can make out the dock
It sits right on the edge of Plum Creek
There with a sign that welcomes you to Castle Rock
It has an answer you may seek

You greet me with a smile, that reflects the stars
I hold you close, as you hold my heart
Our lover itself is a memoir
I knew it was you from the start