We held each breath
as though it were our last
woven from a loom  
designed with regret;
born from the fabrics
we had been spun
as if we would never run out
and we'd never be done

I'm still falling
from when I hit the wall
My lifeless body
had forbid me to crawl
Still quite the punchbag
but not quite the son
Taught the lesson
to know when to run

Pounds are at stake
when we stare in their faces  
Gathered around the fires
in our final graces  

Before we're all turned to ash
and we're put in our places
Little do they know
That we tied all their laces

looking so regal
but chain-smoked and black
with a jaw that would cut
he's addictive as crack

tailored as tall
as a high famous tower
with time on the clock
for only an hour

my grazed feet flood
across early floors
blank stares flock from
wide open doors
cellular hearts seize
at bridges centuries old
like cast iron barricades
never done as I'm told
             heart is young
but brain is so old
if the wires don't cross
             that's why it is cold
you can finally blame this
on my every word
as if it's always my fault
and it's never quite heard

head against the pillow
            floating off my bed
to find a place to meet you
astray is where you're led
                    i'll be your little secret
     in this land of make believe
because if this is just our fantasy
      it is not so much a thieve

I bend at all your ridges
And you fit at all my seams
        You're lay right there beside him
But it's me that's in your dreams

        It's becoming quite so apparent
That you belong with me
But the problem with this story
        Is that it has it's folds
So let's just keep our distance
To keep it at it's close

I'll belong to a summer
That will welcome the nights
Where there's flames that will flicker;
All the way to The Heights

When a love comes to call
Is when I'll lay down my head
And I'll sleep until winter
With him in my bed

It's almost morning
And it's cold outside
I'm walking home
From the club, I cried

There's a silence
            I can hear it
And it feels so loud
But I saw you dancing in the crowd

If only had I listened
To the things you'd said
Then perhaps I would not
End up alone in bed

I find it much harder
To now catch my breath
         My lungs truly broken
When you tore out my chest

You see now that it's over
         My body runs colder
And time moves more quickly
                      Now that I'm older

Grasping the fabrics
Where I lay down my head
I'm pressed up against
The wall of the bed

There's a fog in my ears
But a warmth there inside
Draped deep within me
Is the place where you hide

It does not matter
What is under your vest
But what's inside your heart
Not what's bulking your chest

You see that's the problem
With the laws of attraction
Laws can broken
By a deeper connection

I'm just a river
That run at unease,
Clouded in the winter;
With a formidable breeze

Jagged at edge;
Just to burst at the seams
I'll sweep you right under
My gathering streams

There's a silvery moon
That is guiding the night
A constellation of stars
Webs a beacon of light

You said that you'd give
Everything to me
But I'll give it to myself
Everything single little thing

If you could see
The things that I've seen
Then you'd never feel
Entirely clean

And if you could feel
The things I've felt
You'd also have a heart
That would not melt

Put your pennies
In this empty well
Make me some wishes
And I will not tell

Wrap up inside
A place that I can hide
Then float me slowly
Across the melancholy tide

You need to see the light
How it beams in my eyes
The way the green changes hue
Like the mystical skies

How a sadness runs through me
Like a nail in a wall
When I cracked at the surface
But I never could fall

I climbed up inside you
In a way that would weave
A heart to a heart;
With all the tricks up my sleeve

When you left in the morning
I lay there in bed
Slowing dying
From the tears that you'd shed

Put together this thousand piece puzzle
I've got cities in my head
And I build them from rubble

time
is mother nature’s sewing machine
and it will fix you
right up

A galaxy of spindles
An indefinite of life
Behind a curtain of web
Lives a hidden
   blinding
            light

we shift our bodies
when we're all coiled up
our salts are now dripping  
tied around lips bitten at dusk
          arched is my back  
we meet at a cusp;
a flame grows inside of me
until we finally **combust

Please go harder
        Now faster
Then stop
If only enough time
    To keep our eyes
        On the clock

I am what you need
When you don't want anything else
You are what I want
When I can't find it somewhere else

I cannot replace
what I lost in you
but watch me now
that I'm not with you

running like water
a call at the the lips
love locked in
air tight
a kiss

When I was made of stone
I bruised some hearts
And piece by piece
I tore them apart

Now that I'm feeling
It's my heart that's bruised
And piece by piece
I'm falling apart

Even since November
It's been a cold December
And all the things you said
You can not remember

There beneath the surface
A clock-face there in two
Time forever broken
A darkened saddened hue

Your mother won't approve
because I've got bigger thoughts
and your father doesn't like me
because I'm not into sports

When I'm set aflame
I'll burn through the night
     and I’m afraid
the fire burns
     so hot and **so bright

My garden                
is filled with flowers
flowers and **thorns

stitched into the fabrics of the moon
our love passes by like shooting stars
and like a needle to the sky
           so close to your heart
           that it pierces your soul

and into oblivion I lose you
            to the relativity of time
but alone into the night I walk
            no hands in hands
            not tonight

I want to see it all
through the brow heavy flicker of others
before we burn the whole house down

I want to see it all
             up in the lights;
before the lick of flames **ignites

biting down
on a gum lined jaw
a lash powdered scent;
a white floured gore
a bitter sugar
to mask the sour

of a never
     ending hour