Faith,

Such a simple word,

It can change people,

And even the world.

     But you,

     You are different,

     You took this meaning,

     To be God’s Agent.

Now,

You begin your journey,

To spread the faith,

To children overseas.

          I am blessed,

          To know you,

          Loving and caring,

          And always know what to do.

With God’s guidance,

I know you’ll be safe,

And next thing you know it,

It will be already May.

               And I’ll be here waiting,

               Praying for everything to go well,

               And I’ll be ready,

               For the stories you’ll tell.

But for now Goodbye,

Until we meet again,

I’ll miss you,

My friend.

—Thomas James Written on March 28, 2012

The feeling I get,
When our bodies touch,
Sends me into a trance,
That is just too much.

We may be going to fast,
But who’s going to stop us,
It’s not like this is real love,
We both just do this for lust.

—Thomas James Written on March 20, 2012

Upon this very earth,

  Darkness has fallen,

    Yet,

      No one has forgotten.

          As the light descends,

            Only time will tell,

              Whether,

                Heaven has arisen or Hell.

—Thomas James Written on March 17, 2012

Imagine yourself holding a gun,
Pointed to a love one.

Not on a family but a friend,
Someone you knew way back when.

Now Imagine you pulled the trigger,
That bullet made you a killer.

—Thomas James Written on March 11, 2012

Remember when we first met,
You wore that blue sundress,
And that white oversized hat,
You had me quite impressed.

I would never have imagined,
You and I would end up together,
Just another summer fling,
By the Harbor.

—Thomas James Written on March 5, 2012

I may be over my head,
But it’s so cliche,
“Don’t wait for the storm to pass,
Learn to dance in the rain.”

It’s like people have no new idea,
But I have something say,
Just wait, the storm will pass,
And there will be a brighter day.

—Thomas James Written on February 29, 2012

The name of a doubter,
How ironic in some ways.
Others don’t even bother,
Mainly on what he says.
Anything doesn’t matter,
So long as he lives his days.

—Thomas James Written on February 29, 2012

I miss those days,
When we we’re all together,
I just wish and hope,
We’ll always have each other.

I love our family,
And everything we do,
We laugh and fight,
And love each other too.

I just want us all,
To understand each other better,
Because we now never get along,
It’s as if we are going farther and farther.

I know though,
That as we all grow apart,
We all still love each other,
In our Hearts.

—Thomas James Written on February 21, 2012

Life’s a *****,
But so are you,
You don’t believe me?
Ask Everyone, it’s true.

Life’s not always fair,
But so are we,
So you better listen,
It’s best not to test me.

Life’s wonderful,
Just kidding,
You’re here for awhile,
To do all our bidding.

—Thomas James Written on February 20, 2012

His past broken,
His present shaken,
His future taken,
His life forsaken.

—Thomas James Written on February 19, 2012

The world continued,
And left nothing of me,
No one realized,
How I was to be.

—Thomas James Written on February 19, 2012

I had this after thought,
A couple of weeks ago,
I haven’t met him,
That *******.

Maybe it’s best,
To leave the past alone,
And the other part of me,
I should have never known.

—Thomas James Written on February 18, 2012

Today I overheard an old man say,
“Let your imaginations free,”
It made me smile and think,
Of my worst enemy, Poetry.

—Thomas James Written on February 18, 2012

Maybe it’s time to stop,
Poetry isn’t my thing anymore,
I’ve lost some sense in it,
And it’s not something I adore.

Maybe it’s time to start,
Something creative and fun,
Like photography or write a book?
Nah! I should just stick with one.

Maybe it’s time to rewind,
Go back and see why I started writing,
Well, It was because of a girl,
Whom I was about to be leaving.

Maybe it’s time to go forward,
I should just forget the past,
It was then and this is now,
I can’t always hold on to “us.”

Maybe it’s time to pause,
And let it play through,
Who knows?
I might someday find you.

—Thomas James Written on January 18, 2012

I’m done being Mr. Nice guy,
I’m not fit for this role,
I just wanna live a little,
Who gives a **** if I’m an *******.

No more cliches,
Done with this perfect world crap,
Been fed with too much drama,
It’s like a big death trap.

Never again will I go on,
Running like I’m somebody,
But in truth,
Nobody even knows me.

Done feeling sorry for myself,
I’m done with you and this ****,
**** all of you,
I am who I am and that’s Legit.

—Thomas James Written on January 9, 2012

You guys have been together,
For 35 years,
So much has changed,
With lots of Laughter and tears.

You guys have struggled,
You guys have persevered,
As your children,
We had this growing fear.

That we could never satisfy,
That our goals were unclear,
But you guys guided us through,
As our role models through all these years.

And now another milestone,
35 years in the making,
Of love and happiness,
And we are here celebrating.

All apart,
But yet together in your hearts,
Happy Anniversary Mom and Dad!
-Tj, Inday, Toto, Nene

—Thomas James Written on December 30, 2011

I have something to say,
But I keep on holding back,
It’s nothing wrong or offensive,
It’s just a slight courage I lack.

I have this feeling I’ve been keeping away,
Sometimes I feel like I have to scream,
But I don’t know how to do it,
I just can’t decipher what these feelings mean.

Now I’m running out of options,
And things aren’t going our way,
It’s not you but rather me,
I just don’t love you anymore, babe.

—Thomas James Written on December 29, 2011

You’re violent to yourself,
You always put yourself in danger,
It doesn’t matter how deep you cut,
So what if I’m a stranger.

I don’t know you,
I shouldn’t even care,
I don’t know how you feel,
I was never there.

To live life in your shoes,
So who am I to say,
To stop all this *******,
That you’re going the wrong way.

Well I’m just a stranger,
Willing to be your friend,
Just stop and listen,
I’m not here for pretend.

I’m here to help you out,
Out of this life you hate,
I want to show you,
That life can be great.

—Thomas James Written on December 6, 2011

If only you know,
These feelings I have,
You might think I’m crazy,
But I’m in love.

—Thomas James Written on December 5, 2011

I hate you,
I hate how you act,
Shut up and listen,
Pick up your slack.

Stop being a ***,
Get out in the world,
Be social and live a little,
Meet that special guy or girl.

Go on,
Get in that car,
Show them,
Who you are.

—Thomas James Written on December 5, 2011

Let me be that guy,
You know,
The one that will,
And forever be by your side.

Let me make you my girl,
You know,
The one that has,
And forever will rock my world.

Let us make this vow,
You know,
To love each other,
Forever and now.

—Thomas James Written on October 16, 2011

Physically I'm ready,

Been waiting for awhile.

Mentally I'm worried,

To never see you smile.

Emotionally I'm prepared,

For us to start this mile.


—Thomas James Written on November 2, 2011

A rainbow that stretches far and wide,
A river that flows through and through,
An ocean that’s vast and deep,
Are all ways to describe my love for you.

—Thomas James Written on October 20, 2011

You pointed that gun towards me,
And looked me in the eye,
“I loved you!”
“But you cheated on me, now die.”

—Thomas James Written on October 22, 2011

Let me be that guy,
The one that will,
And forever be by your side.

Let me make you my girl,
The one that has,
And forever will rock my world.

Let us make this vow,
To love each other,
Forever and now.

—Thomas James Written on October 16, 2011

You had me by your hand,
I did everything you want,
I was just too stupid,
Your nothing more than a ****.

I thought we were both in love,
I though that this was gonna last,
But it is all a lie,
You started this for lust.

Now you’re starting to use me,
I was too stupid,
I can’t believe myself,
I was fooled by cupid.

—Thomas James Written on October 24, 2011

You got me hooked,
With those beautiful eyes,
This might be it,
True love that can’t be denied.

—Thomas James Written on October 10, 2011

In the beginning there was one.
But in the end there is none.

Why are we so easily deceived?
Who is to say what to believe?

We were taught right and wrong.
We all knew this all along.

Yet we don’t do as we act.
That right there is a fact.

For life is all about grief.
In the end the sadness turns to relief.

—Thomas James Written on May 24, 2011

I lay here in my bed,
Thinking of you in my head.

Trying so hard to sleep,
But can’t instead I weep.

Slowly I began to cry,
Saying in my head “why?”

Nothing is at it seems,
Hoping this was all a dream.

Slowly it disappears,
With it are my fears.

My fears that you might come,
And yell at me “You’re Stupid and Dumb!”

I deserve everything you have to say,
For everything I’ve done that day.


I drove to that bar or club,
I drank like I couldn’t get enough.

You told me to stop,
Even said there might be cops.

As I drove you back in my car,
You and I started a word war.

“Stop! You’re Drunk, you’re not fit to drive!”
Then Crash-I’ve just killed my beloved wife.

—Thomas James Written on June 2, 2010

I’m sitting in chemistry,
I’m dying to ***.
I raised my hand,
But the teacher couldn’t see.

I broke beakers and spilled chemicals,
But he still couldn’t hear my plea.
If I take a ****** on a cylinder,
I’m sure he would notice me!

—Thomas James Written on April 7, 2010

I wish I was famous,
Instead of being shameless.

I wish I was a star,
With an awesome car.

I wish I could fly,
So I can touch the sky.

I wish to be,
Something greater than me.

But I don’t have fame,
Not even a little flame.

I’m no cosmic matter,
Unless it meant fatter?

I can’t fly,
I’m barely even five-five.

So I wish to be,
More of a real me.

—Thomas James Written on June 1, 2010

Here I sit.
On this great view.
Saying in my head,
“I love you.”

Here again I sit.
Thinking of some way to say.
This three words,
That can brighten up your day.

Again I sit.
Thinking of you.
Wondering what you would say,
When I say “I love you.”

For the final time I sit.
Knowing what to say.
Then you came by and said “I love you,”
You just brightenned up my day.

—Thomas James Written on February 22, 2010

Can you please stay?
I don’t want you to go.
I got something to say,
Something I want you to know.

I wrote this poem to make you see,
That you and I are meant to be.
To tell you how I really feel,
That my love for you is oh so real.
So c'mon take my hand,
I’ll make you understand.
That I’m the perfect guy,
To always have by your side.

Each night I look up at the sky,
Wishing that you and I,
Would always be side to side.
Cause you mean so much to me,
I want the whole world to see,
That you and I are meant to be,
That this is our destiny.

That’s why I wrote this poem to make you see,
You and I are meant to be.
To tell you how I really feel,
That my love for you is oh so real.
So c'mon take my hand,
I’ll make you understand.
That I’m the perfect guy,
to always have by your side.

But you never seem to stay,
You always go away.
I could never understand,
Why you wouldn’t take my hand.
Did I do something wrong,
Is it because I wrote this poem.
Maybe you and I aren’t meant to be,
Maybe it was just my fantasy.
To have you in my arms,
To protect you from all harm.

Maybe I wrote this poem to make myself see,
That you and I could never be.
So I tell myself how I really feel,
That I’m stupid for thinking it was real.
So I looked on my hands,
I finally understand.
That I’m just a guy,
Who wants to be by your side.

Then the next thing I knew,
You were in clear view.
Walking your way up to me,
I thought this is just a fantasy.
So I turned around,
To go away from this town.
Then I heard you say,
“Can you please stay,
I don’t want you to go.
I got something to say,
Something I think you should know.”

“I wrote this poem to make you see,
That you and I are meant to be.
To tell you how I really feel,
That my love for you is oh so real.
So c'mon take my hand,
I’ll make you understand.
That I’m the perfect girl,
To complete your world.”

—Thomas James Written on September 7, 2009

Maybe it’s me, or Maybe it’s you,
But hopefully we can get thing through.

I don’t know what to do, or what to say,
Cuz’ I’m lost without you today.

I know you’re sorry, I am too,
But knowing me, I’ll still love you.

—Thomas James Written on April 23, 2011

I’ll let you go,
So I can catch you again.
I want you to know,
I’m here as your friend.

I’ll be here everyday,
Waiting for you.
Cuz’ I don’t know what to say,
Or what to do.

I’m lost in a thought,
Not of you or us.
But instead lost,
Of what it was.

—Thomas James Written on March 13, 2011

iLive to see another day,
iLive to know you’re okay.
iLive to yearn for more,
iLive to idolized and adore.
iLive to show what life can be,
iLive to teach of what we can see.
iLive to help those in need,
iLive to enrich my deed.
iLive to live each day,
iLive to insure I’m okay.
iLive to make what I require,
iLive to inspire.
iLive to tell my story,
iLive.

—Thomas James Written on April 5, 2010

Things have changed,
We are not the same,
We cannot stop our changing ways.

It’s too late to believe,
We have been deceived,
By this life we want to leave.

We try to understand why,
But it is all a lie,
About our world and this crazy life.

Now it’s our time,
For us to shine.
To show this world what it means to be I.

—Thomas James Written on August 2, 2011

Are good things always right?
Is it wrong to put up a fight?

There are gray areas that exist,
In fact there is an endless list.

What if an old man stole bread?
Is that not better than him being dead?

There is good and bad,
But the truth is always sad.

Don’t think of only wrong and right,
For there is sunset before every night.

—Thomas James Written on April 7, 2010

I was once told
That
Poetry is just a
Simple
Art.

—————-

        I was
Then told that
Life…      Well
Is boring, that
It is…       Sad.

—————-

I was
Also
Told that
Everything is and
Will always be a lie.

—————-

I was then again
Told
That I should not
                Worry?
About my future.

—————-

I then told myself
That
Everything I have
Just
Learned is false.

—————

—Thomas James Written on August 13, 2011

It’s nights like this,
That gets me thinking,
Thinking about nothing.

It’s nights like this,
That gets me dreaming,
Dreaming about thinking.

It’s nights like this,
That gets me wondering,
Wondering about dreaming.

It’s nights like this,
That gets me contemplating,
Contemplating about wondering.

It’s nights like this,
That gets me deciding,
Deciding about contemplating.

It’s nights like this,
That gets me nothing,
Nothing about…

Deciding
Contemplating
Wondering
Dreaming
Thinking

Becau­se it’s nights like this,
That thoughts cannot be greater than a wish.

—Thomas James Written on August 11, 2011

What to do, what to do?
Should I sing? Or maybe write a poem or two.
Maybe something about a girl.
Or maybe something about our crazy world.
What about dogs and cats?
Oh, I can even write about the 9/11 attack!
But those dont seem to fit right,
It’s so hard to choose on what to write.
Is this what it means to have a blank mind?
Or am I just not using my time?
Why am I asking questions to myself?
Ugh, there I go again, I think I need some help.
Maybe I can write about how I’m bored,
Also it should deal with swords!
I love to hack and slash,
The sound of iron going clink and clash.
Like back in the day,
Where everything was okay!
Playing make believe,
but now we know, we have all been deceived.
About this thing we call life,
That is always full of strife.
It feels like everything looks bad,
This is making me kind of sad.
Ugh, I should go back to what I’m doing,
But I don’t have a clue and,
I’m really bored,
Oh, is that a sword!?

—Thomas James Written on August 18, 2011

I once remember,
When you were so young,
Like a caterpillar,
Playing in the sun.

So active and small,
You looked like you wanted it all.

And then during a beautiful night,
While everyone’s eyes were fixed upon the moon,
You went missing,
You have hidden yourself in your cocoon.

So quiet and shy,
I asked myself why?

Next thing I knew you came back,
All magnificent and flying so high,
You grew wings!
You became a butterfly.

All that time you kept to yourself,
You wanted no one to give you help.

You wanted everyone to know,
And everyone to see,
That you are beautiful,
Like a Butterfly; as happy as it can be.

—Thomas James Written on August 20, 2011

Why did I even care?
You were never there.
I loved you,
But you never followed through.

—Thomas James Written on August 21, 2011

Being so close to a goal,
You never intended to reach,
Now all those hopes and joy,
Turn to misery.

—Thomas James Written on August 24, 2011

I may be evil,
Or Demented
But all the things I’ve done,
Are all intended.

I may be sweet,
Or kind,
But the memories of you,
Are in my mind.

—Thomas James Written on August 27, 2011

My whole life I just wanted to cry,
Though no one would ever know why.

I’ve been waiting for a change,
But it seems like things are staying the same.

So many things I want people to know,
Just not enough courage to show,

The truth about my life,
How I had to lie.

—Thomas James Written on August 28, 2011

If we all see the world in a different view,
If we all walk in someone else’s shoes,
Will we feel any different?
Will we feel any regret?

What if you saw your parents die,
What if you walk into a world of lies,
Will you feel like the world is against you?
Will you feel like there’s nothing you can do?

Now stand for yourself,
Because no one will give you help,
This is your life to live,
Understand what to believe,

If someone helps you along the way,
Take it, it will lighten load for a day,
But never be dependent for too long,
Show the world you are strong,

You can be a better person,
And all you need is a reason,
To achieve this peace,
It can all start with a simple wish.

—Thomas James Written on September 3, 2011

I don’t know how to say this,
But it’s really hard to deny,
You look beautiful today,
Especially with that little smile.

—Thomas James Written on September 17, 2011

You’re like a princess,
That never found a prince,
Like a little girl,
That hopes and wishes.

—Thomas James Written on September 27, 2011

If life was simple,
I would be happy,
But it isn’t,
That’s why I worry,

So many choices,
Which one to pick,
Seems like nothing works,
It makes the soul really weak,

Maybe it’s time to let go,
A few changes would be nice,
Just have to learn from the past,
Hopefully this can make me wise.

—Thomas James Written on September 23, 2011