This is the list of reasons I cant write
You

I'm running out of things to say
I'm running out of songs to play
I guess I'll have to face it
You're the only thing coming to my mind

I didn't mean anything
Nothing I said mattered
I could lie and say I hate you
But it would hurt me more than you
Forget it now it's done
Now no one is what you've become

No one knew how I felt
I smiled till I was by myself
Didn't see the tears I cried

Bullied me
When I didn't talk
Never said a word to them

Scared of my own friends
The few that I actually had

  Run to bathrooms just to cry

And you say I wouldn't understand

I can remember
smiling and laughing
though when I'm sad
its not what i think of
even if it should be
still smile when you can
and don't make yourself suffer
you can't chose how you look
so be proud you're yourself

I want to find a place

Where I can be alone

Where I don't think of you

                                                 but  

I don’t know where it is                

I would look but i can’t

It’s somewhere

                                                  I

Wonder where it is                    

How far away                                                

If  someone finds it                                                  

                                                  Would

They let me know

I wonder how long

It would take me to

                                                    miss

My life                                        

My home                                    

My everything...                          
                                                   You

Somewhere lost
is where i lay.
Words just go away.

When your walls crumble
you build them taller
you build them stronger
so no one can break you
then when you do break
you have no one to blame
other than you
but when you reject yourself
it's rejection just the same
no one loves you
and no one can
because you build
the wall up again
but a reject is all you've been

Sometimes the dark haunts me
it makes me fear it
Sometimes it calms me
and relaxes me to sleep
But every so often it taunts me
because sometimes i want
to disappear into it