when i look into your eyes i can tell im dulling down.
my edges are rounding,
my color is dimming,
im not as shiny.
im trying to be perfect,
but maybe im not perfect enough.

i uttered those three words.
gently, softly spoken.
it was 3 am and the only sound that drifted through the room was the rasp in my i's.
i remember you looking at me and smiling,
only to softly whisper them back to me.
thank you..
thank you for loving me.

its been awhile since you've heard from me
                              
                                                  ive missed you.

its like we're stranger now, just walking around with each others secrets.
                                                i wish we werent.

maybe ill see you around sometime. we can get coffee if you want.

                                               i wont. but i can hope so

i miss you. come back to me.

                                              i love you.

*the number you have dialed is no longer in service.

i can hardly remember the days i spent with you.
i forgot your voice,
the ways your hands felt against mine,
the way your giggle sounded.
i forget the moments i once lived for.
im forgetting you.
or maybe this bottle ******* away the memories too.

i colored inside the lines my whole life.
than came you, and now my colors are reckless about their lines

lay me down in the middle of a field, covered in primroses and lavender poppies.
let the sun wash me over and the clouds cover me gently.
allow the bugs and birds to sing me their simple songs.
cover me in the simplicity of nature till the sun falls.
i want to be one with the earth and live ever more.

that song plays.
i see you, your face as your hair blows around sticking to your lips.
i see him, his fingers tapping along to the drums on his steering wheel.  
i see her, her fingers intertwined with his, screaming the lyrics out his window.
i see them, nodding their head looking at you with the sweetest eyes. not knowing the song but enjoying the energy.
then you see me, our eyes met.
and for the first time in forever, i felt at place.
the song ends.
and so do the worn out memories of you. my beachboy.

you cant water dead flowers,
itll only drown them.

never in a million years did i think i would meet an angel like you.
with silky hair, and devilish blue eyes.
i couldn't get enough of you.

but as time went on i realized you were a fallen angel. something deprived of the devil.
your kisses were lukewarm, your heart was frozen,
and the only thing you ever did with me was tear my heart out and rip into thousands of threads.
you were once an angel, fallen from grace.

so now, i hope you rot in the depths of hell for all of eternity.

like the devil you've become.

i feel like im drowning.
in unsaid words, unwritten poetry, unvoiced thoughts.
i can feel myself sinking into the bottom of this pit.
with my hands in shackles and my ankles tied.
im sinking.
everything echos down here.
im almost gone.
every thing is so cold.
imgone.
dont
       forget
me