if
you're not
going to jump
into the fire
with me

if
you don't feel
this burning

if
it doesn't eat you up

if
i'm not enough


then
please
go
away

should i feel special
because of your attention?

should i feel special
because you said you care?

should i feel special
because of your words?

because they are

words

and
nothing more

sad truths
waiting
in plain sight

finally
sink in

words
are
just
words

you aren't
here.

so

i don't
care.

i don't think i can do this.

deep breaths.

he's making it hard not to hate him
he doesn't even see me
he is a stranger now
his eyes are dead

deep breaths.

he makes me
scream
cry
hate

he is turning me
against myself

deep breaths.

i can get through
i can resist
i can keep aiming high

i can achieve
my happiness

deep breaths.

how many times
are you
going to leave

without
saying
goodbye?

my heart,
now full
of hate,
needs somewhere
to release

because
even though
you
****
i don’t want
to hate you

and
i can’t
keep it
inside

like
i used to