for him it began all at once
like sometimes it does
when you lose your fire

but often when you fall
you say to yourself
-at the end of this
i'll be dead or a liar-

that's the way sleep walkers do it
just like I did in one time and space

and when you're gone
remember me
and what we should have done to this place

just like one year-five months ago
when a poor soul fell and didn't rise
and you remember
how you water that plant every day
but it still dies

thats the way sleep walkers do it
just like I did in one time and space

and when you're gone
remember me
and what we should have done to this place

its 9:22 and here I am
I could be drunk or tired or dead
just too much happened and sleep wont come
I drank and wooed and hurt my head
and cared too much and threatened lives
9:27 no help arrives

she cant do this to me again
I spent so much time running from dark
but Saturday night to Sunday night
memories and new things have left their mark
and anger and alcohol and absolute things
9:37 an angel hets his wings

it's not the first but more acute
showering alone despite my wishes
unconscious friends and nervous twitches
sometimes it's very hard to be
the one you were before the fall
9:44 I'm still alive but now I'm sure my world's too small

as you required, I will do
I sit beneath this tree for you
neither victim of society
or standard for false piety
my sweet though I know not your name
I remain for you


desire, wonder, merriment
mankind's heart perhaps is spent
diluted maybe from over ease
you and I apart from these
I have not loved since life was fair
go to the tree. wait for me there

and I will prove to you
what someone changed can do

reinvented....time and time again until it lost its sanctity
just like saying the word- love- broken from overuse by lesser men
keeping composure in the worst and losing it in the best
you asked for this side of the fence
you chose it
you love it in a sick way
it is now time to reinvent the reinvention
and instead of trying your very hardest, weak one
you will become
all the poems you draw your power from
all the strange daydreams that championed your thoughts until they were melted in the forge of complacency
as a reinvented man cowardice has no place
in any form
self control is most painful when you cant see why you are controlling yourself.
but you shall
and you know why
and you will never ever forget.
and then when you find for yourself the answer to why you act this way
you will have the peace of mind enough to communicate with others about it wont you?
don't forget