with you I finally knew joy.
i smiled until my cheeks hurt,
and i laughed until i can laugh no more -
it was nice while it lasted.


with you I finally knew peace,
i looked at you and and everything disappeared,
one look and everything became oh so crystal clear -
it was lovely while it lasted.


with you I finally knew love,
the kind of love that is radiant from afar,
the kind of love that you can feel though apart,
the kind of love that drives you insane,
the kind of love that jumbles up your brain,
the kind of love that gives you that adrenaline rush,
the kind of love that makes you constantly blush,
that kind of love that gives you reason to wake-up in the morning -
it was mesmerizing while it lasted.

i'm hoping;
that someone will care for you in the ways i couldn't.
that someone will show you all that i couldn't.
that someone will love you like i couldn't.

is it just me or is it easier when she's not there?
when she's nowhere near me - near us.
it's as if without her i can breathe, like i'm free.
she's the type of person that makes you feel like you're choking.



best friends?
i think that term is overrated. i think it's more life frenemies,
more like she commands me and i must respond,
but no more. i'm done,
the hell with her and her ******* morals.



she makes me want to push him away,
to lose him and there's no way that's happening.
but if she has a problem with it, too bad.
because sure, jealousy is a *****, but then karma is one too.

i say this with tears in my eyes and a shattered heart,
i have to push you away - it's for the best.

i love you,
so i'll let you be.
and yet, i still hope that one day
the tides will bring you back to me.

he's begging her to let him in, to let him fix her. he loves her and it hurts him to see her hurt.

he saw the scars on her body and it pained him. he kept running his hand over them, not believe his eyes.

he leaned down kissed her scars, and in that second it took all of her being to keep her tears from falling. she froze in place, her blood gone cold, and her heart skipping beats.

why did he just do that?

i feel stupid missing you; because here i am feeling as if my heart is about to fail and as if my lungs are without air and you're probably home watching Netflix or something.

''I hope you feel better and get well soon." She says, her insides squeezing tight. She misses him.

"I honestly think being away from you is making me worst." He replied.