i wish the man pulling all the strings would pull mine a little harder
just a little harder until i break

guilt is a debt left unpaid
it grow by each waking day
and the longer it sits still
collecting dust and others feelings
it takes more in its wrath

guilt is an infection
it spreads to every bone in your body
takes over you immune system
until it is all what every cell in ur body feels

guilt is a mindtrick
it fools you into thinking it’s over
then it wraps you around it’s finger
and like a serpent it strips you of any air you have left to breath

oh guilt
i stay a victim to your actions
a slave to your thoughts
unable to climb myself out from a hole of my own creation

you were so much but so little at the same time
and so when asked
i reduced you to a singular feeling
that feeling of water dancing along your fingertips
of light catching you by surprise in the space between two clouds
of the specs of salt falling on your face along the shore

the tunes of song weren’t enough anymore
i tried to drown myself in the rhythm
in the lyrics
and i still felt the same
the music playing in my head
was so much louder than anything i could play

i was drowning and you held me under water

there’s something about the way your nose creases when you smile
the way your cheeks light up a bright red
and that subtle highlight on the right of ur eye glistens that much stronger
i hold my breath when i look at you
not wanting to miss a second of your beauty for something as insignificant as a breath of air
i stare at you like art
you are art
with your delicate intricacies
your presence so captivating
and i’ll keep staring until i run out of air to breath