It felt like the sun
had left the ocean dry
the way you left me
without saying goodbye

it felt like the sky
had fallen down to ground
and suddenly you were everywhere
and all around

it felt like the thunder
had broken the sky
when I heard you jumped off
the building believing you could fly

it felt like the rain
wouldn't stop to fall
just as my tears
wouldn't stop at all

it felt like the sun
couldn't shine the light
when I stood at your funreal
and turned to the dark side.

(l.p)

Dear Sarah,
Why are you so sad?
You shouldn't let people tell you
whether you're good or bad

Why do you feel like you're about to drown?
You shouldn't let your friends,
or even your parents drag you down

Why do you feel drained of energy all the time?
You should be full of life
remember, happiness is not a crime

Why can't I see happiness in your eyes?
You shouldn't let people convince you that
the whole world consists of lies

Dear Sarah,
Why aren't you a happy girl?
You're sweet, thoughtful and one of a kind
don't be fooled by your mind

(l.p)

I have killed every second, every minute, every hour
Waiting for your love to rain like a meteor shower

I have killed every morning, every evening, every night
waiting for you to fill me with inner light

I have killed every day, every month, every year
waiting for our future to reappear

I have killed every intro, every verse, every song
waiting for you to take me to the place where I belong

I have killed every word, every chapter, every book
waiting for you to give back my heart that you took

I have killed every root, every petal, every flower
waiting for you to save me from my zero hour

I have killed every birth, every life, even death
longing for you with my last breath

(l.p)

I met a woman with thoughts so loud
that they killed the silence
and became a crowd

I met a woman with a complicated mind
that left her alone wondering
if she had left herself behind

I met a woman with a soul so frail
that she didn't share it with anyone
so she turned out to be a mysterious tale

I met a woman with words so strong
that whatever she said to you
you knew it wasn't wrong

I met a woman with a heart so good
she didn't share it with many people
but when she shared it with me I understood
that she liked me all along.

(l.p)

She told me about her happy childhood memories
About how she used to wrap up in her favorite blanket
And sit beside her father on the bench at night

It fills me with a certain kind of hapiness to see her eyes light up
when she  tells all about those nights at the bench with her beloved father
But all at once it makes me miserable too to realize it's all memories
It feels like she has realized it too the way she sounds when she tells me about it

It hurts to picture her sitting all alone on the bench at night
Wrapped up in the same old comfortable blanket
Thinking about the old times and how they can never return
How I wish death couldn't touch the people we love the most.

(l.p)

I'll wait for you 'till the ashes hits the ground
'till I won't be able to make a sound

I'll wait for you with the gun against my head
'till I'm standing alone to face my death

I'll wait for you with the knife against my skin
'till the knife cuts so deep that it makes my head spin

I'll wait for you with the noose around my neck
'till it gets tighter and turns me into a wreck

I'll wait for you in the death of night
'till I've given up and lost the fight
I'll wait for you until the day
I take my own life

(l.p)

My longing for you
is wider than the ocean
deeper than the sea
My longing for you
is everything I'll ever be

My longing for you*
is greater than the universe
lighter than the sun
My longing for you will grow stronger
until the day I'm gone

(l.p*)