Was it all a game?
Did you ever love me?
Did you ever mean what you said?
So many promises.
"Forever and always baby."
"We're getting married."
"It's just a break so I can find myself."
"I still love you and I always will."
"I just don't want a relationship."
So many ******* lies.
Did you know you were breaking my heart?
Did you know you were adding onto my pain?
Did you know you were stealing that last bit of light in my soul?
You had to have known after everything I told you.
"I feel so hopeless and empty."
"I've never felt so alone."
"I just need some answers."
"Please just give me a reason."
"Be here for me like you promised please."
So many pleas that fell on deaf ears.
Do you care that you broke me?
Do you even notice that I'm gone?
Do you ever think of me and wonder if you made a mistake?
I guess not, because you're still gone.

Hate
It trickles in slowly;
Subtle like a robber in the night.
It fills my body until I can feel it vibrate in my bones.
It makes a stranger look back at me in the mirror.
I hate me.
I hate her.
But most of all, I hate you.
Hate
It takes over me.
It threatens to bubble up at any mention of you.
It makes me want things I never have.
It ruins my life.
You ruined my life.
I hate you.

I was lost in a cold, dark place wandering around, never quite sure of anything or anyone.
  Then he came into my life so unexpectedly,
making me question everything I felt.
  With him came so much light in my life,
like the sun coming out after a rainy day.
  I tried to pull away and stay unattached;
the only way I know how to protect myself.
  I was so afraid of getting hurt I almost missed out,
but he pushed his way through all my walls.
  With every smile, kiss, and sweet word, I fell deeper,
until there was no denying the truth.
  I didn't know how deep I was in until it was too late.
  Now he's all I think about and everything I want.
  I tell my heart to stop needing him so much,
but the time to not care has passed.
  He's already ingrained in every part of me,
and I need him as much I do my next breath.
  I'm scared to death he'll leave like everyone else,
but I can't help but come alive with his every touch.
  Deep down I know I don't deserve his love,
but I'll take it as long as he gives it.
  I'm in way over my head and I savor every moment of it,
because ******* this boy is my happiness.
  I love him.

You say how happy I make you, but I'm still scared.
How happy will you be once I open up?
Will you still want me when you see my flaws?
Will you judge me when I tell you my mistakes?
Will you leave me when I've become too much?
How can I trust you when I've never had love from a man?
Can you make me forget all the bad before you?
Can you show me you're not the people who've let me down?
Can you prove I'm worth something to you?
I hope you can, because I can't help but fall.