See everything...


With your mind.


Nothing seen with the eyes is real.
Judgement isn't worth it.

Most are incomplete and misjudged.
Faceless and empty.
Broken and scarred.

All because of this impossibly physical reality.

Break your eyes
And reveal the true world.

I feel the pull,
The enlightenment the moon gives me.
The energy radiating from it.
A beacon in a dull world
Full of ignorance and blindness.

If they knew the power,
The knowledge behind it,
The world would change.
People would change.

All because of a new found
Inspiration.
Clarity.
Intuition.

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I am a deck of cards.
Each part of me has a different meaning.
Sometimes, I'm shuffled and get confused.
I struggle to put myself in order.
And other times,
Pieces of me fly everywhere.
And I cant pick myself up, because
My order has shattered.
I need someone.
These cards wont pick up themselves, you know.

Exotic, ******, yet so normal.
And so right.

I only crave the feeling of you.
And somehow I know I'll get it.
Someday.
When we're ready.

Until then, I'll just dream.
Every night. Our souls entwined.
Sharing our fantasies.

All because I love the fire
You feed me.

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Knowing and thinking are two different things.

I didn't think I should love you.
I knew.

It was all intuition.
A vision of what it would be like to be happy for once.
And logic played no part.

Lets see how skilled you are as a poet. Comment ONE word that means something to you along with an explanation. That one word will then be the title of a new poem and the explanation being the subject. Does anyone want to try? I will.

Intuition. Following logic in most circumstances is not really my thing. I seem to follow my instinct and do what the energy around me guides me to do.
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As the sun shines through the leaves,
The colors brighten.

But if it attempts to shine through us,
We are left blackened and hollow.
The light is behind
And we are walking away.

Or maybe leaving the darkness behind.
Emerging from our silhouette to show
Our true colors.

Have you ever Just
Sat and wondered about
Random things that
Runaroundinyourmindatthespeedoflight.

Barely understandable.
But somehow the clearest explanation.
Why things happen.
Why the world is the way it is
And why life is most important.

Why the "Powers That Be"
Seem to take over peoples lives and
Cloud them from reality.

Why people are consumed by lust
And constantly feed their desires.
Hungrily.

Why healing wounds itch and
Get scratched open again.
Bleeding invisibly.

Why government agencies lie to the people
And gets its citizens killed.
Leaving the rest ignorant and begging.


These things just, sometimes, happen.

And sometimes life's a *****.

This isn't a crush.
It never really was.
Somehow,
Somewhere in my minds eye,
I saw it.
Us

I saw your colors
And I confirmed what I wished.
That you liked me.

Its been almost four months since then,
But, based on how much we've grown,
It could be eternity.

This isn't a schoolgirl crush.
And this isn't anything I've felt before.
This is real.

I think... This might be true love.

I'm having the nightmares yet again.
And I've changed the word because dream implies
A good thing.
It used to be, but...
Now I have you to look forward to.

Texts every morning
And every night.
Poems that show me you.
And you constantly telling me I'm cute,
And tickling me to embarrass me
Because my laugh sounds like a goat.

You saved me.

I told you I've tried.
The second time...
Only a few days before this began.
And, after that,
I never wanted to try again,
Even if my disease told me otherwise.

Just looking at you yesterday,
I figured out so much.

Like how deep "Us" goes.
And how much I respect you,
Trust you,
And mostly Love you.

There are too many things to name,
But trying and failing is better than never beginning.

But I don't even know where to start....
Your determination
To change the world in your unique way,
One step at a time?

Your gentle smile when we meet eyes and
(I think) you know I'm wondering?

Your distant stares with complex codes that I have yet
To crack?

Your laugh... Where do I begin?
Just that alone gives me goosebumps
Only because the sound belongs to you alone.

And of course your toned body and skilled lips
Are a bonus.

I love you.
There's so many reasons,
And so many unknown factors.
But I don't care.

I just hope this made you smile,
Just like I did when I read it for the first time.

Once upon what seems like so long ago,
We were children incapable of being tainted.
A kiss was just a peck on the cheek
And "*****" was just something that you drilled into a wall.
Boys and girls could be friends, best friends even,
Like mine were, and rumors of *** were unheard of.
When fights on the playground were just childish games,
And we didn't care about other's opinions.
We wondered what it would be like to grow up, never realizing the horrors.
Of the lies,
The drama,
The torture we would face.
Now, we think back, wondering why we ever changed.
Why we wished to be the way we are now.

Today, we are Teenagers;
Hormonal,
Emotional,
Physical,
And undoubtedly stereotypical.
Society seems to think we are incapable of rationality.
Incapable of thinking about consequences instead of pleasure
And who the next girl to "pop" would be.
But, no.
We wonder why.
Why we had to change.
Why we did change.
Why we lost our most prized possession.
We remember the friends we had,
The promises we made.
The inside jokes that everyone knew.
The one kid we wanted to marry,
And then they moved across the country.

We were so innocent, and knew so little.
Until we grew and adapted to the young adult life.
We claimed to be happy, and others believed,
But all of us teens know
We long to be young.
We long to be innocent.
We long to be normal.
Not the perverted freaks people think us to be.
Not the people who judge boys who act like girls
Or the girls who look like boys.

Our innocence and ability to understand was robbed from us
The second we left Elementary school.
Some of us now feel the  need to bully others,
To judge our peers,
To impress the opposite gender by exposing ourselves.

If only we could remember the innocence.
If only we could bring it back like a retro fashion sense,
Yet keep it here instead of letting it die for good.
Could we try?
Will it work?

Could it still be with us after all this time?

When I draw, or write for that matter,
I go into a daze.
Almost like unwilling meditation.
I don't see my own work until it is done
Except for few occasions.

I drew us today.
Or at least the feeling I get
When were together
And you touch me,
Hold me,
Kiss me.

It's almost a portrait.
The girl has wings
And toe shoes.
She dances atop floating ribbons
Which flare to form a heart.

Her head is an eye.
Representing my clarity
And freedom when I see you.
When I see only you.

And She is my masterpiece.

I know you did.
Otherwise, you wouldn't have looked to
Hungry
When you kissed me.

I need to tell you
To kiss me like you mean it
A LOT more often
If that's what will come of it.

I woke up this morning
And my first thought was you.
An image of your face is imprinted
In my mind
And I saw you.

Its happened every morning since
You first kissed me,
And I told you I loved you.

It's addicting.
Your love, I mean.
Your touch.
And the way your body
Reacts to mine.

Our shudders and deep sighs.
Laughs and smiling kisses.
My lips on your skin.

And that face you make,
You know the one.

It all comes to mind and soon
To my body when you
Touch my bare skin.

I never said it.
You thought I did...
You think me a guanophiliac, apparently,
But there is no such thing.
I never said it...
Were on the phone
And you're singing it to me,
Growling,
Whispering.
Over.
And over
And over.
Why?
I NEVER Said it!

I will always be here.
For anyone.
Just send me a message,
If you have my digits,
Just give me a call.
Tell me your problems and seek
Advice.
Or just talk.
About the weather,
School,
Sports tryouts.
Anything.

I will always be here.

Normally, coffee
gifts you with an energy
buzz. I am immune.

I need to relax.
I've been stressed,
Upset,
Over thinking things.
And I need to relax.

A Lavender and Peppermint bath,
Heaven.
A good novel,
Dreamland.
Dubstep to accompany me,
Pleasure beyond imagination.

And finally,
No thinking at all.

If I was a snake,
I'd wrap myself around you
And caresssss your sssskin with my forked tongue.
And love the way you react to
My cold, hard scales.

I'm trying to think of a melody
To describe us.
I cant sing,
Or play guitar (yet),
But I can hum.
And you can, too.

Do you *have a song?

Its hard to find my way.
To realize my mistakes,
My actions' effects.

Everything has an effect.

I always turn to dead ends
And confuse myself more.
Twisting and turning and panicking and...
Breath. Breathe.
I'm thirsty.

I need... Answers.
To my one and only question.

*What should I do?

Now,
My only wish is to prove to you
How much emotion my heart can hold.
Show you that I think you
Are beautiful
In every sense of the word.

And I love looking into your eyes,
My darling.

I want to sleep with you.

I want to sleep* with you.

Your arms around me,
Our legs dancing the entwine.
My lips on your neck,
And your sigh in my ear.

No ***. In fact,
Fully clothed.
Or mostly.

Just us.

All I want is to say my rhyme
In person.
And kiss your eyes as I do.

"Close your eyes. Left, then right. Goodnight, Starlight."

I dream of your voice constantly.
I can't hear words,
Just your voice.

Just you.

The mountains once surrounding me
Were pushed away.
Melting snow leaving puddles at my feet.

You moved mountains for me.

And trekked through the icy lake
To stand by me.

And even though we stood there,
Clouds came down to us
And carried us away.

To a Fantasy?
To a Dream?

Either way,
I have YOU, Darling.

Now, everything is here.

I could feel it.
When you told me,
I could feel it.
And I felt like I could really smile.

Your name rolls off of my tongue now.
It seems
Normal
For you to be a part of my life.
To be a part of me.

This will last.
I know it will.
Because I believe in our ability
To fight for it.

To let my name roll off of your tongue, too.
Because its natural.
*Right.

Its true.
They sting, they itch, they burn.
For everyone.
I cry and I cant stop.
I cant figure out
Who or what
These tears are falling for.
Is it stress
Confusion
Anger
Sadness?
I don't know.
All I do know is

I have eyes that burn.

youalwaystrickmeintosmiling

I'm surprised to find
That my lips and body don't
Ting
When I move.
Considering my face is made of Porcelain
Or glass
Or clay.
Anything fragile.

Its a mask.
A somewhat happy looking one
That's been shattered.
Glued.
Shattered.
Taped.
Shattered.
Remade.
Broken and stolen.

I'm done hiding.

With a single embrace,
A single kiss,
A single stroke
And I melt.
My heart goes out to you,
Belongs to you.
I want to make you happy.
So I gave you my personal set of keys.

When we collide,
Connect when we are alone,
I can feel the beads
Rolling down your body,
Making you wet and slippery.
Your skin warm,
Burning.
And all I can think of
Is how cold I feel.
Chills from how you touch me
Encasing my body.

Fire and Ice.

All I can say is... *Opposites Attract

I've been thinking...
I need answers.
Reasons.
It may be true that you open up around me, but...
You still seem closed off.
I know there's more.
I can see it.
It makes me think you don't trust me.

I tell you a lot.
I've cried in front of you.
And I've revealed my biggest secret
That I thought you'd reject me for.

I need a reason not to think so.
A reason to believe that you aren't
S.l.o.w.l.y backing away.
Abandoning me.

You say "I love you" often enough,
But that's not what I need.
I need a random confession of whatever is bothering you.
Just let it out!
I need you to stop worrying and feel worried about for once!
Because I do worry.

I used to do this
And I've healed tremendously.
It might have been worse
Considering I would tell friends out of nowhere
"I want to **** myself"
But I still let it out.

Even if its not as bad for you,
Or if it is,
It helps to be heard.
And I've given you multiple reasons to speak.

I love you with my heart and soul,
But frankly, I'd like to punch you
In the face sometimes.
Just thought you should know.

Lately, more deep connections are made though poetry.
Right here.
It shouldn't be this way.

Just spit it out!

If you have a problem, Tell me.
Scream at me.
Whine to me.

If you have issues with me, Shout them in my face
And force me to listen to the echo.
So that I may fix it.
And apologize.

Forgive me for worrying,
But you have left me no choice.

You've been through a lot, and haven't told me much.
When in most others' circumstances,
The Girlfriend would be the first to know.


It seems that you always find a way to make me cry,
And spill everything that bothers me at the time.
I can't do that for you.
Its obvious that something is bugging you, but you wont tell me.

Just forget it...
I'm just about done trying...
Just about done fighting
Because it seems like you won't let me.

Are we fading?
I keep getting bad feelings,
But I wonder...
Is this just an aftermath
Of my previous worries?

You seem more tense,
Closed off...

I'll give you space,
But I'm worried. About you.
About what will happen.

I can't see the future,
But you can warn me.

And you can tell me.

I'm like you in that way.
I care more about others than I do myself.
And you are no exception.

Please tell me if you are alright?

I don't care how easy it is to learn,
I care about the sound.

Like the drums,
It's a beat keeper,
Yet has it's own melody.

Deep Pulse
Pulse
Pulse
Resonating
From these simple strings.

And there's so many hearts to play.

Building walls gets tiring, you know?

I've had lots of practice, building
Brick, cement, sheet rock,
All types.
But they all come crashing down.

Someone must have started a
Demolition company...
They RUIN MY WORK!

I quit.
I just cant build anymore...
My hands are calloused,
My head is a jumbled mess,
And I have built the same wall
Too many times to count.

Because you knocked it down.

Since the connection, we've only progressed.
Going further, Knowing more.
Telling is difficult, because of these emotions,
And trying is all we can do.

I've cried around you,
Because of you,
More than I ever have.
Happiness, Confusion, Sadness, Hurt.
Not even that!
I've cried just because I needed to, for no reason.

You have been here for me,
Told me so and made promises.
Held me while i sobbed and left tear stains on your shirt,
Whispered comforting words.

You said you were sure you'd never
Stop loving me.
But I'm scared.  We're so young.
How can you be so sure?

That was my question,
Still is.

"I just am."

I really hope this is real.
I never want this to end.

The mumbling, silencing aspect
Of this Dark Depression;
Nothing can heal me.

I've managed to hold it off,
Just barely long enough.
It's faster than me.

It makes me angry.
It makes me sad.
But also completely
And utterly
Consumed.

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Sorry to bother you again,

But I broke down today... I didn't
Expect to, I just... it started raining...

And he looked at me, with disappointment and concern.
He made me promise not to lie. Not to say "I'm okay."

That made me cry more.

How does he do this to me? I've never felt this much.
Ever.
He told me he loved me and always will,
Even if something happens, it'll never change.

It took all of my strength to speak, just to ask,

"How can you be so sure?"

I believed in his reply.
And it truly hope he's right.


                                                                                                Please aid me in this fight with sadness,
                                                                                                             *~Kestrel~