Oh anxiety how you have a grip on me..
Trying to control what I can't even see.
Reaching and grabbing
Yet all that's left is stabbing
Causing wounds that might not heal,
because hearts are turning to steel.
As I plummet to the ground
drowning never to be found.
Hopeless and so depressed
feelings that can't be suppressed.
Weighed down with the garbage
I have to unload the baggage.
I want to take hold of the door
and see what could possibly be in store.

When the mind is full of fear
the heart can not see clear.
and vise versa
When the heart feels nothing but fear
the mind can not see clear.

She hoped to be held up by you,
She hoped you could be that glue.
She tried so hard to take your hand
as you sank further into the sand.
But the weight drug her down
dragging her ripping her gown.
Try as she might
all that was left was fright.
Then came the fears
and fights left with tears.
Now she is numb
can't even hear her heart's drum.
Of how it still beats for you
and how you still love her too.

Standing up, dusting off, pulling free
All she wanted was for you to see.
You had so much love to give
but you held back and wouldn't live.
All you talked about was getting out
with no mind to what she was about.
You had so much in common
but you never knew....
Why did it have to be so hard?
Why so scared and so marred?
She poured out every last drop
as if it could make you stop.
Giving you every ounce
as if it even counts.
But you needed a savior,
and she had lost all favor.
She had a glimpse of what used to be
and oh how she missed it desperately.

She entered in with great hesitation,
Carefully stepping with trepidation.
As the whirlwind spun her around,
She could feel her feet leaving the ground.
It seemed as if time was standing still,
As she dangled from that window seal.
The air grasping her holding her to a spell,
Continuing to tarry the deeper she fell.
Once she stopped to survey the damage
It took all she had to breathe and manage.
She was drained from every pore,
Bleeding out all over the floor.
Rushing to mop up the mess,
She started dissolving into nothingness.
Begging and pleading for someone to hear
That all she wanted was to be held dear.
But her cries fell on deaf ears…
As she cleaned up every speck of blood
Her heart was now dripping with mud.
Tears could never clear up
the stains on that broken tea cup.
When she noticed how she was shattered
She decided she could no longer help the tattered.
For they would have to find solace on their own,
Because she was now crushed to the bone.
She’s been told that broken bones heal stronger
And that maybe next time love will last longer.
But that doesn’t help the hurt felt now
Or the brokenness in her smile.

You cry wolf as if in danger
But in reality it’s just your anger.
Fearful of what you cannot see
Without regard to what happens to me.
Did you take a minute to see me crying
Or how you left me here completely dying?
So go ahead and run with your fear
Fill your belly with that beer.
For one day you will know you lost
The one thing that left me in the frost.
The only thing that I had left
Was the sound that left me deaf.

You wonder why love runs cold?
There is only so much hurt one heart can hold.
You have this unattainable expectation
That continues to be approach with hesitation.
The death of love will be your insecurities
And your constant accusations of ambiguities
How will the love last you say
When you are forced to go away?
Why is it never enough?
Why do you seek all the fluff?
When you fly off the handle
All it does is blow out the candle.
It's overwhelming at best
I truely hope there is something left.

Just like too much anesthesia
he has an effect that causes amnesia.
The hardest thing is standing by
watching him make you die.
With disappointment at every turn
I see your heart yearn.
Longing to be held and adored,
with all the love I know you have stored.
Get past your own worry
or you will lose her in a hurry.
Your end will be your ego
if you are not forced first with a veto.

When I say I'm having trouble breathing,
why do you start talking about leaving?
When I spin out of control,
why can't you try to console?
When I hit the floor on my side,
why do you run and hide?
All I need is for you to catch my fall,
but now it seems all you can do is slam me into a wall.
I keep trying to catch my breath,
while you smother me to death.

You are a constant reminder of the pain
all the guilt and all the shame.
Why would you think it would ever be the same
after you played your little game?
Are you looking for a reason to leave?
Your heart is completely deceived.
All the reasons and excuses you send
will only make you the loser in the end.
Truer love has not ever been made
and all you want to do is throw it away.

It started off so very romantic
but like a sad story it's becoming tragic.
Turning the love that was made
into *** that will fade.
You're being pushed away
but what's really being tested is if you will stay.
Head keeps spinning all the day long
and I can't seem to stop singing this song
Choices are made day after day
will you dance or walk away?

Like an elephant behind a wall
I feel so small.
Like a bird in a cage
is this coming of age.
Our love was so full of life
Now so full of strife.
Why can't I just get away
All I want with you is to stay.
Will we ever be able to proceed
with everything we dream?
What if this is just a waste of time
and I just get left behind?
Forever waiting for the love
that they say only comes from above.
But you are my everything
nothing else is even worth comparing.

Far away I feel I have traveled
to this place I seem to have unraveled.
Further and further I seem to drift
into a state of mind that's only a myth.
The things that held me together
have become nothing, as if just a feather.
I look around for the glue
that held me together, which was you.

How is it that you still get to me underneath
after all this time we have had beneath?
Deep down low I have buried
all the emotions that constantly vary.
Irritating me to my core
making my entire soul sore.
Why does it have to be this way
with every ounce of what you say?

You are driven by a force way stronger than a gail
I prefer to move at the speed of a snail.
You charge into a space with no regard
which only makes me want to hide and guard.
You over power my senses
making me put up fences.
How should I relax and be at peace
when you can't seem to cease.
But something draws me time and time again
to your unrelenting grip on my heart
even though I know it's not very smart
I can't be without you ever again.

Pushing me into a corner
towering me as if you're my owner.
Crushing me with your presence
causing self imposed penance.
How should I cope
when all I can do is mope?
I know what you say maybe true
but do you even have a clue?
The pressure maybe too great
please tell me it's not too late.

Where do I end and you begin?
All that I am is because of you.
It's not fair of me to put this weight on you.
But I can't tell where I end and you begin.