my feet are trapped beneath  the sand your name is what pulls me under
Like a drug i cant get enough of, I'm addicted to the way you make me feel
Words i wish i could say seem always caught in my throat.
Always stepping on nails my emotions are bleeding all over the floor
Stupid pointless protest really don't make me feel empowered
hot tears stream down my melting face
I look down at my stomach that constantly aches

The reflection in the mirror shows who I truly want to be
separated by a pane of glass which represents my reality
love of life seems like such a great mystery
words flow from my pen as if to speak for me
Only on this page can I truly scream at the top of my lungs I've been trained to remain silent
Everyone feels they know the real me so well but I don't even know my self
mirror, mirror on the wall....is anyone really the fairest of them all?

makeup smudged, mascara runs
down the face of that stupid *****
Canceled plans, teenage antics are now ******* up and forgotten
fooling everyone but her self, she wears her heart upon her sleeve
wrapped up in others concerns, forgotten who she use to be
only comfortable  when not her self, what a depressing life to lead
She is on a leash being tugged and pulled, she knows she has a master
behind the painted nails and the perfect scented perfume lies a ***** at deaths door

its new years eve and what do i have to show
some drunken awareness i don't think so
all the memories of this year are flashing in front of me
all the friends i thought i had gained   all the best friends  lost in the blink of an eye
another year wiser another year wiser?
independence gained, victory made, relationships lost

I look in your eyes and i see her staring back at me
I want to choke on the perfect air surrounding me
I hate that school and what it means
I despise that town with its simplicity
I feel as if i will never be able to grow up
I'm stuck in a rut it has a tight hold
That room has memories that are not me
As you kiss my neck and run your hand up my thigh, i see you pushing her up against the wall in the corner of my eye
I want to spit the taste of bitterness and jealousy of out my mouth but it clings to my throat, it wont go out
I know that you see only perfection in me
When i look in the mirror all i see are my own comparisons staring back at me
I'll never be your perfect woman, someone with dignity and grace
I cling to you for everyone else has sinply gone away
left me alone with you only yo stay
Its been YEARS and I'm still obsessed with the past
get me out of this place, let me have peace at last

So sad that i have to feel this way
I'm drowning in my own thoughts, everything is pounding on my brain and rushing out my eyes
At this point I'm not surprised you have no pity for me
However, always know that for you I care deeply making you run away

Always picking me up when I fall
loving you broke my down my stubborn wall
No longer do I have to wear my mask of insecurity, because i know that you will love me for all eternity
And when i look deep into your blue eyes i see your gentle soul staring back at me
The sound of your voice sends goose bumps down my spine
your always so passionate, so loving, so kind
Your the most wonderful person to be around, I'm completely content in my self because of you, I love all the things you say and do
3 years of love will not be enough for me I have to be with you forever and longer, will you hold me up tight, keep me warm and protected from fright
Let our passion grow wings and take flight
let the candle of our romance forever glow bright
let the softness of your kiss never fade from my lips