oh mother of mine,
storm in my mind,
bring the thunder !
bring the rain !
I gave myself two
weeks of sadness-
that's all I can allot,
I promise;
        I'm sorry...

am I cool or whatever ?
           sweet or something ?
  annoying or not ?
prone to mockery ?
lovely or lonely ?
              clowning or frowning ?
    goodly or badly ?
                     what am I ?
a pink toast bubblegum ?
tough-toothed sleuth under-summed ?

am I smart ?
                                                   am I wise?
am I hurt ?
                                                    am I nice?
am I right ?
                                              am I alright ?
am I dirt ?
                                               or despised ?
am I him ?
                                                    am I her ?
am I sane ?
                                                 or besides ?
am I wrong ?
                                            I wish I knew !
I wish I knew !
            I wish I could know the known !
am I the walk ?
                                             am I the run ?
should I talk the talk ?
                         should I look at the sun ?
would it be that much more fun ?
                                       should I give up ?
should I give in ?
                                          should I let go ?
should I hold tight ?
                                    forfeit to the light ?
or sleep in the dark ?
                                    am I the monster ?
am I the mayhem ?
                                           am I the hero ?
am I the savior ?
                                        am I the friend ?
am I the enemy ?
                                           am I the rival ?
is this tribal ?
                                                is this libel ?
or liberty ?
                                           am I freedom ?
or captivity ?
                               am I love or nothing ?
hate or everything ?
                  is this too long for pleasure ?
too short for knowledge ?
                                           am I the view ?
am I the new ?
                                              am I the old ?
is this gold ?
                                              am I boring ?
too questioning ?
                                  too understanding ?
have you stopped reading ?
                           have I stopped writing ?

I have no idea what some of the stuff I write is supposed to mean,
I just write it to be honest.
It's not my job to find meaning that I've already marked.
Must be there somewhere,
I mean- I mean, don't I ?
Maybe I mean confusion,
delusion,
or conspiracy.
Elusion,
contusion,
or heresy ?
I could hardly tell.
English is fun
and that's all I know,
I speak to be spoken I guess.

I put my uncertainty
  into the paper
      but it doesn't make
       it any less true.
God takes me through
        so much falsehood
    shows me there's not anything
       more new.
take the hint,
there must be a purpose
to follow the truth
             you delude.

to see you hurt left me a terrible unease.
cringeworthy..
wrists breaking,
eyes poked,
or
bruised knees.

eughh..
Right to my core.
please be careful
out there Sprout.