Even the skies are crying for you today,
Beloved soldier.

Hurting and lost
Until I washed up on your shore.

Your past can't hold you back.

Not toe dipping, jumping right in!

Head under water makes breathing hard.

I know why I let go.

Still unsure how to love myself.

Humans
Are the most beautiful puzzles
You will come across.

I wonder what my bedsheets say
When I'm not around.

I try to convince my shadow
That I'm worth following.

No need to wonder what's on my mind:
It's you.

Scars of tear-streaked shame
Or proud tiger-striped strength.
Which are they?
Tonight let's flip the coin.

Forget the air,
I'd rather breathe you instead.
Fill up my lungs with you,
All of the wonderful that is you,
*And forget to exhale.

What I can't say
My racing heart will tell you.

Lucky*
Doesn't even begin to cover
What we are, darling.

There's a storm coming baby,
We can feel it in our bones
Life's waves crash around us
Making me afraid we'll lose balance
In this salty war zone.
But you say, "don't worry sweetheart,
You're always safe with me"
So I sit with you, my sailor, on our lifeboat
With nothing but an umbrella
And the sunshine in your eyes
Flowers between my toes
And the warmth you make with a sigh
That never seems to get lost in the wind.

By the way,
I'm wearing the smile you gave me
(:

One smile
Could be the first-aid kit
Someone needs.

Heart pounding as you breathe in my...ear.
Leg shaking as your fingers brush my...hips.
Mouth waters for the sticky sweet honey that drips off your...tongue.
Fingers trembling from your weight on my...chest.
Mind spinning as you kiss my...shoulder.
Breath stutters as you feel my...*soul.

You are the bravest of the brave
You have the biggest heart
You are stuck fighting another man's battle
You are our guardian
You let us live our lives
You lay yours down every day
You have the strongest family
You deserve so much love
You have seen too many things
You have the admiration of thousands
You catch the tears fallen by a world ravaged with violence
You are not a statistic
You are never forgotten
*You will always be my hero.

I will always love you darling,
To infinity and beyond.

Honey
I
Want
You
So
Badly
It's
Driving
Me
**Crazy

The adventures we'll have together,
Just you and me darling

Trust.
One of the hardest things I have ever tried to do.
Honestly, half the time I don't even trust myself.
Fighting an uphill battle against my inner demons,
But you know that.
I love you so much it hurts sometimes.
I second guess myself
And claw at my chest to see if my heart is still there.
It isn't.
It's with you,
Held gently in hands that do not shake.
Will never shake.
You are always right.
Maybe even when you call me beautiful.
My jaw trembles sometimes.
With you I have given up trying to hide it.
Because I know now that when my faith cracks,
When my knees go weak with uncertainty,
And I decide that I am not good enough
You will pick me up,
Stare me sternly in the face,
And have the confidence to say:
*You are wrong.

I promise to plant kisses
Like seeds on your body,
So in time you can
Grow to love yourself
As I love you

My one hand is enough
To fight against the world
If you are holding the other one.

Don't let go.

All I want
Is for you to squeeze my hand like you did before,
Set these butterflies free,
And remind me that everything is okay.

I want to believe that you have enough love
For the both of us,
Even when I can't seem to love myself.

I will look up to the stars and see them shining,
Twinkling just for us.

Whenever you are around me I melt.
Its hopeless but I will admit to it.
There are so many conflicting ways it happens:
Splashing into a puddle of anguish and insecurity
Or dripping like the sweet honey your words leak into my heart.
I just want to be cupped into your loving hands
And stay there until I evaporate,
Disappearing from the gaze of your eyes like ocean water
Where I want so badly to be washed out at sea.

Perhaps you are the reason
They call them love handles.

Almost everything in the fairytales turned out to be true:
Horrible witches, nasty curses, dark demons, and guarded fortresses.
But princesses?
I thought they were figments of our imaginations.
And yet little girls read storybooks religiously, dreaming of winning over the Prince Charming.
Well ladies, you can keep your pristine and spotless princes.
I know where love and honour truly lies.

It is in the dragon's keep,
Where she is locked away and hidden.
The walls of her own heart blocking everyone out,
Burning everyone down who dared face her inner dragon.

But there is determination running through his veins,
Bravery in every bead of sweat,
A fighter's honour gleaming in his eyes.
Breaking down the barriers to find a damsel in distress, he did the strongest thing:
Held the wretch in his arms.
A soldier with the ability to find perfection in the weakest of souls.

My knight in ***** turnout gear,
The firefighter who discovered a princess.
My love who proved the reality of fairytales,
And found our happily ever after.

Beautiful boy,
Please let me kiss you between your ears.

When you're drowning in a bucket...

Then someone kicks it.

The ocean swell
Makes the entirety of my being swell.

Sirens
Make me want to run to wherever you are.

I love you.
You mean the world to me.
Your eyes still give me butterflies.
Poetry could never explain you perfectly enough.

Except I messed up.
These sentiments are getting lost in a mass of breakdowns and pity parties.
You are the rock I cling onto when the stormy winds get too strong.
But that doesn't mean you deserve to be faced by a stone heart.

I have received a reality check.
I am finally coming to realize how lucky I am to have you by my side.
Its time that I offer some explanation for the crazy constellation thoughts that build up in my head.

"Do or do not. There is no try."
A quote I think you'd like.
So this is my vow to us, darling.

I will kiss you on a regular basis.
I will look up at a full moon and feel your hand in mine.
I will love my freckles.
I will love my body.

I will believe you when you tell me that I am beautiful.
I will sit beside you and enjoy the silence when your mouth is swollen shut.
I will sit beside you and enjoy the silence when the sunrise brings tears to my eyes.
I will share every tear with you, whether they be mine or yours.

I will worry less openly over your safety, as it only clouds the pride in your duty.
I will follow my dreams.
I will work hard until I sweat, because in sweat you cannot drown.

I will always remember that things could be worse.
I will be stronger in myself and be more confident in who I am.
I will hold your hand whenever there is a needle.

I will love every single piece of you.
Even the icky gut parts.
Somehow you make them gorgeous.

I will tell you "I love you" and mean it with my heart and soul.

Because maybe, just maybe, there will be a time in our future that we don't have an expiration date.
I am willing to place my bets on that.

Look at how amazing he is.
He really takes my breath away.
He is going to do great things, look at what he is already doing for the community.
Why is he with me?
You have nothing to offer him.
Nothing important.
He shines so brightly.
He's a hero.
How could you compete?
You aren't even on the same level as him.
He deserves someone better, someone as wonderful as he is.
You are so needy.
Look at yourself.
Melting and blushing and searching for praise.
This is why everyone else left.
You love too easily and too much.
You are worthless and ugly and slobbish and selfish.
Oh look, now you're crying too.
This happens every time Tessa, you always fall in this same hole.
Did you ever completely climb out?
Hang on a second.
Stop it.
You're overreacting.
How did things come to this?
He held you in his arms last night.
Voluntarily.
That has to mean something.
Calm down.
Stop it.
You are stronger than this.
He chose you, remember?
Stop talking to yourself.
Entertaining the voices in your head is how you mess things up.
Every time life becomes kind to you, you search for the faults.
Why should this be so impossible?
Why aren't you allowed to be happy for once?
You can do this.
You deserve this.
These are the thoughts he vowed to help you stop.
It's time to trust a little, and let him.
Open up.
You're shutting love out again.
You know if he were here, he would hug you sobbing
And tell you to
*please, just put down the knife.

I hope to be half as wonderful
As you see me to be.

I don't need much,
Just your hand to hold mine.

Excuse me
While I melt here in front of you.

Broken hearts and broken bones:
Things that never heal straight.

Rubbing circles on your back,
Do you understand me now?

While it thought it was dying,
The caterpillar grew wings.