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Tearani C Mar 2012
This ******* thing
Gripping, ripping tearing,
Worse screaming reeling abused and wailing,
This thing grasping at
My patience. I hate this.
Can’t take it,
I want to make it all fall away,
But I’m so afraid that when,
I escape from this blanket,
You have  carefully placed, tight
Against my angry face,
That you will be nowhere,
Gone like the sound of
The words you say but do not mean.
Fabric tightens.
Now I cannot scream.
Forgive me
For now I am gone.
Forgive me
For I cannot be what I was before.
Forgive me for my inconsistencies
I cannot be sure of anything
Anymore.
I am so angry.
Tearani C Mar 2012
My intuition flashes like a hot flair shot desperately into an empty sky
Where no one cast a seeing eye and I myself can only smell,
The charade a supernova a chemical shimmering sun
What seems to me to be the bitter sweet vapors of the powder of a gun
An empty thrill that builds atop  unspoken words that usher.
Beneath the glare and a quickened stare I take a liking
to the lightning striking, a sharp spike on the wrong side
of the mountain we’ve been hiking, to get that
Panoramic view of you I’ve been lusting so long after,
a ****** addiction for your airy laughter like
the parched summer air with wide banks cradling sensual water
Lapping at the sand, the firm grasp of a hot hand.
You still stand eyes blinking kiss me, mouth unmoving murmur miss me,
Heartbeat quaking behind the curtain of your chest yelling at me
To take a chance. Wearing silence so inviting I sense,
You’re a trap unset to catch, but you don’t know
You’ll love me yet. You step through the doorway,
I turn my head to my feet, I don’t need to see to feel
My intuition flashing like a hot flair shot desperately into an empty sky
Where no one cast a seeing eye and I myself can only smell,
the charade a supernova a chemical shimmering sun
What seems to me to be the bitter sweet vapors of the powder of a gun
An empty thrill that builds atop unspoken words that usher
Beneath the glare and a quickened stare I take a liking
to the lightning striking, a sharp spike on the inside of every vain
You’ve not a word spoken, and yet I know I will never be the same.
Tearani C Mar 2012
The curve of your bottom lip,
The contrast of red on your perfect white teeth,
Under that tilted half smile.
You’re shining at me.
The rough surface of your hands,
And how perfectly mine fits.
The smell of you so sweet,
So different, so perfect and calming.
Your demeanor so charming,
The way I’m pulled to you ,
Matched with the way you never
Ever let me go, never leave me alone.
Never tell me to go.
I’m lost in your big eyes,
Wrapped up in your big arms.
There. Is. No. place. Better. Than. Your. Chest.
Your better than my bed at home.
You are better than all the rest.
And I trust you more than you’ll ever know.
I’ve fallen so far in love, grown so far up,
You have fixed me and you’ll never know
The way your soft skin catches light a
A soft glow.
And I know, better than you know,
That you are everything good.
Love you my handsome man.
Tearani C Mar 2012
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Tearani C Feb 2012
My day full of excitement, contentment,
I think it’s a blanket, warm and soft for me
To hide under and swim in, cloths my eyes
To breath and to forget how my head aches
And I feel faint of late, my day like the warm hands
Of the suns ray. And you are so far
I grin this year, you cannot take this.
I will not be thrown in the snow,
Or under your heavy tears, I will go
Where I go, and I know that this year
My day is my day finally I get to spend
My single day my way.

I wake head ache, highstrung,
Muscles week and pulse to strong.
I know soon my day will come.
My phone rings , it’s you ,
I hope that I’m wrong. And you tell me
To cancel my plans, you’re coming
On Friday, your sharing my day.
If we are both being honest you tear it away.
I have no choice, I have no voice.
So I will pretend to smile,
As you move the miles between us and
Take away my first, last, imaginary
Day that I saved in a heart shaped locket,
From the rain of all the disappointment
I feel because of you.
It’s my twin sisters happy birthday.
I have been invited.
And I have to smile and say
You’re so sweet,
And thank you.
Tearani C Feb 2012
Feathery blond hair and watery blue eyes
That glow like sun reflecting of the bottom of a pool.
Sad orbs humbled by the way life has treated you,
Now that your older , a year or two, you have slowed
To a calmer calculation of the ugly world.
You hold your head up like you need to see,
Not like you are
too proud,
and you speak,Only when you need heard not just
To be loud.
And you see more with your soft glow than
I could ever share
out loud.
We speak more between shared looks
Caught between quickened glances
And a slow pace than words shared
At face to face or hostile stances,
More in your actions
Then in an element more fake, you take
The hard things with me, without a blink
Hesitation or the loss of sleep.
I trust you more than anyone ,anything,
And you trust me the same, I think,
I thank you for being Stone with a soft face,
The strongest and fast paced, the calmest
And well placed, thanks for being the one I save,
And being my little brother  still ,
Long after your old enough, big enough to ****
My fragile dreams.
It seems between you and I nothing changes,
I’ll probably never have you read this , same way we never say it,
Promises are better kept before the day their stated.
But I’ll be what you need,
And today's beast we’ll slay it.
Tearani C Feb 2012
If I say it enough maybe you will get it.
“I Love you more than yesterday.”
If I say it enough perhaps you will see,
That” you are so good, so sweet”
And perhaps if I grasp at the edges
Of everything I can’t quite say, can’t quite frame,
Am searching for am sure remains,
I will convince you of these things.
If I say them enough they will be true to you too.
If I keep finding ways to say
“Nicholas
I Love YOU. “
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