Its in the smell of you t shirt,
Its on my sheets,
It lingers on me.
Your memory.
Captivating, entrancing,
Thoughts of you dancing in space,
The rise of your cheeks,
When your smiling at me.
The set of your face.
The look in your eyes.
The set pace you take,
As you take stride
To walk away,
when I said goodbye.
And your arms moved from around my waist,
Memories, and the heavy weight,
Of missing you came
To take its place.

It’s in the smell of your t shirt,
It’s on my sheets,
It lingers on me.
Your memories.

Under the wings
Of every bird
Of every color
While they fly away,
All missing one another.

All hearing empty things,
Under their burdened wings.
All wishing things were different.
All wishing to sing

Just one last thing
To the birds at the nest.
Before the summer leaves,
And they’ve all left,

Just to get one last chirp
Off their chest.

I am just a shadow.
The real me knows how to say the things that matter.
The real me knows how to smile,
How to free laughter,
After the tears I dry I fix broken hearts.
I’m smart and I knew you.

But I am just her shadow,
Because you look through me.
Tears In your eyes always undo me,
And I cant think of what to say,
nothing matters more than this…
Helplessness
Hopelessness.
My shadow passes through hallways and leaves a trail of tears.
At the end I’m alone forget our earlier years.


Your pain haunts me,
More than you will ever know.
It haunts me and its always there.
A shadow to a shadow.
I find I fall further,
From the truth,
From myself,
As I change.
And I lose you.
And I realize as I call your names
Again,
Again,
Again,
That I am the same.
That I have not lost your names.
You have let go of mine.
While i'm searching you hide.

I am myself, not a shadow.
I dry my own tears.
I know how to say the important things
You don’t want to hear.
I can say the truth,
And what’s right.
And I’m right here,
Calling names after shadows.
Calling,
Calling,
Calling,
Everything about you hunts me.
The real me.
And I know I’m right.
Because under the weight of the world im still standing.
Solid, whole, real.
And as your shadows pass through me,
It seems suddenly the realization hits me,
That in one way
A shadowed you and a shadowed me are the same,
In one way.
I’m still all alone in a hallway.

You’re my slow breath, my fast break.
My earth quake when things need shaken.
When everything’s pilling up and taking
Me with it.
You take it and twist it.
And suddenly I’m dancing with the way you talk,
Keeping pace with the way you walk.
Thinking up lyrics, as I pick out side walk chalk.
And I draw my name , playing play ground games.
Like I’m ten again,
Like the world isn’t heavy because its not.
You hold it up and around me ,
Keep me swimming instead of drowning.
Lithe and light, loud and giggling,
Remind me what makes life worth living.
I see you and my head is spinning.
You’re my sunshine, my playtime.
You’re a silly sentence with a goofy rhyme.
Your that poem I write when I’m smiling to big
And things are to good to find sleep that night.
You’re a hug and a text, the most beautiful mess.
Of all the things you chose to be
you chose’em best.
Honest, your honestly the best thing to
Bring out the very best me everyday,
Every now and then when I’m pinned and I need you,
I just call and there you are.
My slow breath, my fast break.
Im so glad I met you , so glad I’m taken.
Taken by you, right of my feet and into the playground.
Not a day passes , that I don’t want you around.
Not a single day I don’t miss the sun.
Just to keep pace with the way you walk,
Hear the sound of your voice so excited to talk.
Not a day passes I don’t want to be where you are.
Not a sunny day passes I don’t think of the park.

Hold myself together, to afraid to fall apart.
That sound that weeps upon me, the sound of a tearing heart.
I hold myself together , to afraid to see the sight.
I close my eyes and dream through another wary night.
My heart has been forgotten abandoned in the rain, the worse to come from one so young is the tears that fall like rain,
and worse than the empty sorrow is leaving her alone.
Although I know the pain, its worse to see her own.
I hold myself together so she wont fall apart,
I’ve seen the sight before ,like a poison in your heart.
I scream in pain , but all in vain it never goes away.
I wake up in the morning feeling the same way.
I search in desperation, I fight to find a light ,
but its hard to find a little dot in the grate abyss of night.
We wander down into the deep no sound is herd no thought to keep.
The feelings build upon the stage ,through my tears and heart they play.
I hold myself together to afraid of losing hope.
I hold myself together because now its all I know.
I hold myself together so I can trust myself.
I need to believe in someone even if theres no one else.
I hold myself together because she’s by my side,
If she wasn’t her with me I think there would never be a light, there would never be a hope of day , no thoughts of laughter none of play, no reason left to fight, I would Surely sink away into the endless abyss of night.

Hope lies,
It flies to new places and dies.
Disguises the things you want
With dimpled cheeks eyes wide,
They cry, lids flutter sigh.
I see it there but it’s still not mine,
Just out of reach, just beyond my grip,
Fleeting from my fingertips.
Silent whispers fill the air,
Tell my failures I feel them there,
A sudden heartache,
Fear of doom,
Confessions given
To an empty room.

In the dark, the cold air breaths,
And sends a shiver down my back,
In the dark my best friend leaves,
And I’m afraid she won’t come back,
In the dark my heart is marked,
And my sister turns away,
In the darkness I realize,
That I don’t want to stay.
In the darkness I found a light,
And you made my happiness clear,
Your whispered breath and broken smile,
Gently bring me here.
In the dark, your arms are open,
Your skin it cast off light.
Your voice so deep and sweet to me,
Says that I will be alright.