Death and other deities
Tip toe across my bedroom
Awake or asleep they still take my dreams
Hold them in one hand and open the other
Spilling the sorrows of the world
Onto my body
Slipping nightmares into my bedtime tea
And promises of nothingness under my sheets

I wish I could take back what I gave you for Christmas
I wish instead of a calendar for you to mark your days on
I had given you all my skin to carve your name on
And I wish instead of a CD with songs I already memorized
You had given me your voice with words I wouldn't recognize

You said that the last 6 girls you dated chain smoked in winter
But I just wanna chain smoke your laugh in the spring
Ill probably be back on the nicotine by summer
And by the fall, only memories of the smoke will sting

I'm the kind of girl
that crawls into a serial killer's bed
he whispers "I'm going to **** you when this is over"
I blush
But am flushed and confounded
when I wake up dead
"But I thought what we had was special!"

I lay on your bed in an imprint that isn't mine
Left there from the last girl that you found yourself inside
Kick away her ******* that are the color of you
And pretend that I'm something new

Killer eyes, foggy lies straight from my nightmares
You'd never guess that I relish in every scare
Grab me by the throat and silence my screams
Rip apart my resolve with your teeth

Self-delusions are grand but not as bold as the truth
It's screaming at me from my friend's mouths, pouring out of you
I know I'll never be able to take care of you
Because that's not what wicked girls do

I'm so colorblind but I see red so very well
Want to rip into your heart just to see it pool and swell
But when you entered me I saw another hue
And now I see that I'm red, but you'll always be blue

We saw the real light of happiness as children
And as adults we chased impostors
Worshiping false idols we thought we knew

But we wasted our time chasing street lamps
Fireworks, lighting bolts, fireflies
Mistakenly believing it was the radiance from our half-remembered dreams

Not realizing that the candle had been blown out years ago