why does it feel as though i need to share everything with you?
that if i miss any good moment in your life you must love me less
that who ever you're with will steal you away from me

i'm the lowest of people to love but find a burning in my chest that i couldn't be the one to give you happiness
i know i cant think that way
and its crazy and selfish
and i know i'm happy for your happiness however it comes

but still i cant stop my thoughts or my ******* jealousy
it will destroy me one day if i cant stop it
and i'm sorry for putting you through it

It begins as a small burning in my chest
Then the burning becomes a physical ball
I wear this crest
the ball, that is now ignited by flames
as it falls

When it reaches my stomach my eyes begin to burn,
I can't control it
it reaches my face

Put on that fake smile, do it!
but it's too difficult, the pain I feel as my flesh is burning from the inside is coming out of me

My eyes blaze on fire, flooding me with pain and jealousy
I speak to myself in an angels whisper
encouraging myself to stay calm and see what is happening more clearly

But a demon voice tears at me, claw like, and I cant stop my mind from thinking its destructive thoughts
You're not as good as that.
Not as pretty.
You're not anything.
Listen to yourself now, who could want someone who gets jealous so easily.
Look, you can't even hide it, who cares if you don't say anything, its written on your face.

I'M SORRY, I'm Sorry, i'm sorry......i'm..... so sorry

You took my life
You took my soul
You took the person that once was whole

All of you
Spoke too loudly
And
Now I'm deaf

Your bodies left me
After stringing me along
You cut off my circulation
And
Now I'm numb

All but one...

But all of you
Your eyes had teeth
They burrowed through my mind

And now I'm broken
And I fear
I fear so much

Sometimes I won't hear the words
He's spoken

I fear because I couldn't stop
The harm of me
I will lose the man who helped me to see

In silence they walked beneath the night sky.
It shone black and blue,
it glittering with stars.
Their feet carried them down the quiet suburban and up towards a hill with an open lot on the other side.
Their feet were bare and the lot was dusted with cold dirt,
But they didn't care.

They turned to face each other, and the silence was broken...
But not by any tangible sound.
Only the music they both shared with each other.

They grasped onto one another and began to sway.
Slow at first, then faster and in a more skillful way.
It was a dance.
The girl and the boy could only look at one another and the sky above,
as their feet shuffled and slid,
jumped and twirled,
in the cold dust at their feet.

They never wanted to stop. If they had to feel the cold dust of the past,
they would do it dancing
and looking at the sky
and each others eyes.
They wouldn't look at their feet,
but to the future.