Tatiana

Tatiana Nov 2012

Today

Today it was cold,
but I didn't really notice.
Because the sun had come out
from behind the dark clouds.
It didn't radiate much heat,
but I was completely warm.

Today I was anxious,
because I was going to meet up with you.
And after what we've been through
in the past couple of days,
I was a little afraid,
of what could happen.

Today I was happy,
because you seemed to be yourself.
You weren't ignoring me,
we were who we were,
in the beginning.
And that made me happy.

Today it was cold,
but I didn't really notice.
Because your arm was around me
keeping me warm as we walked,
on a rather long path,
step for step,
walking into the dark.

Tatiana Nov 2012

Now Is The Time

Now is the time
to take a chance
even if it's risky
I just have to see
what will happen

Now is the time
to make a move
even if i'm unsure
I just have to be
a bit more confident

Now is the time
to be determined
even if i'm scared
I have to make things better
and that will happen

Now is the time
to stop being afraid
of the response I may get
or may not get
and I know I will be better
in the end

Tatiana Nov 2012

Sleep Is For The Strong

Sleep is for the weak.
I was constantly told,
by my coaches,
who would catch me,
half dazed on the sidelines.

Then they'd put me in,
tell me to work through it.
You don't need sleep,
you need to work,
and I would run in circles.

I remember running,
back and forth,
trying to keep sight,
of the ball,
with my dreary, sleep-filled eyes.

The game ended,
and I was yelled at by the coach.
Why weren't you awake,
you should have gotten more sleep,
you need to sleep.

What a hypocrite.
Sleep is for the weak,
you pounded that into my head.
So now i'll tell you,
one important thing.

Sleep is for the strong,
and don't you forget it.

Tatiana Nov 2012

I'm Confused

No answer,
all day long,
my phone sits on my bed,
silent.
I've stared at it,
for far too long,
expecting an answer,
but nothing comes.
We talk every day,
so maybe i'm overreacting,
but the next day,
you barely talked,
I feel like I did something wrong.
And today again,
you barely talked,
but you seemed a bit more,
like yourself.
I'm confused,
what just happened?
you just seemed to stop,
like I wasn't worth your time.
and I feel like I was stabbed,
with a cruel sharp knife,
and I think I will die inside.
Cause you just don't seem
to care anymore,
when you did before,
and now you have me,
all confused.

Tatiana Nov 2012

Thank You God

Thank you God,
for always being there
when no one else was.
For being my protector
and my guide,
helping me choose the path
that leads to who I am now.
Thank you for letting me wake up
every morning,
and letting me live.
I know at one point,
it was hard to believe you'd be there for me,
but now I know you will.
And I just wanted to say,
Thank you.

Tatiana Nov 2012

Run

Dusk
the darkest hour of the night,
and you're alone,
sitting in the middle
of a huge forest.
You're lost,
a twig snaps,
and a cold breeze blows across
your already shivering body.
A rustle in the bushes behind you
you whip around
so fast,
that you catch a glimpse
of a pair of eyes.
One eye is green,
and swirls with chaotic thoughts.
The other eye is blue,
it looks ice cold,
cruel and calculating.
You jump up
every hair on your body,
is standing up straight.
Goosebumps rip up your arms and legs,
and you hear a voice.
Its cruel monotone echoes all around you,
as if you're in a cavern.
The voice gets louder,
and you feel the glare
of the green and blue eyes,
burning holes into your back,
and that dark presence came closer,
a hand clamped down tight on your shoulder
and you heard a calm, wicked whisper in your ear
"Run."

Tatiana Nov 2012

Little Boy

Little boy
could you find your way out now?
If you could then,
i'll be proud.
Cause you have fallen into,
a giant empty hole.
As dark as it is,
there is light.

Little boy,
I know you are so scared.
But listen here,
there's no need.
Cause you are much stronger,
than you'll ever know.
You just need to,
trust yourself.

Little boy,
You know the way out now.
So just for you,
i'll be proud.
Cause you have climbed out of,
a giant empty hole.
When you thought there was,
no escape.