It's a few days back,
and my life's already change,
I found out ,
something bad,
something new,
something that's unexpected,
something that's to an utter shock,
the words "disaster" scream into my lungs,
drowning me,
flooding me with an echo of silence,
I looked unto you across the cafeteria,
My hearts stabbed with a knife,
A wound  fluttering with pain,
It's unbearable, this feeling i have for you,
So deep,
It's a raging sea of fire,
tumultuous redness surrounds me,
I'm banging the door so loud,
So loud that no one hears me,
My room blasting with loud music,
I'm singing along, crying,
And at last I fell asleep,
And that's just to begin with you.

A wise man once told me,
If a guy likes you,
He will make time
and not find time to be
with you.

"In a sea of people,
my eyes will always search for you."

Be unstoppable.
Be so good they can't ignore you.
Be a woman on fire with passion that glows in your eye.
Work hard and don't give up.
Be kind and exquisite.
Be anything but, ordinary.
Be goal oriented and know what you want.
Don't let any man validate your existence.
You are beautiful so, feel beautiful.
Don't let anyone get into your head.
You are you.
And no one can ever replace you.
So stay you but, always make time for personal growth.
Cause that's how you grow.

You're walking with her,
and it kills me.
You're always with her,
and it kills me.
But, how am I suppose to tell you,
how I truly feel deep inside,
when it's you that I want, but can't have.
Sometime's I feel invisible.
But I guess,
I can learn to love you and not have you.
I can learn to not miss you, when I do.
I can learn to be happy for both of you and wish the best for you,
even though deep down it kills me.

"I really like having you around. "


There, I said it.

I remembered the first time you walk me to my car,
I remember the first time you walk with me endlessly around,
I like having you near me,
Around me,
Beside me,
So close that I find it hard to breathe,
So close that I feel your warmth,
And everyday of my moments,
I would go back to that same day,
where we took our first walk,
wishing that If I could turn back time oneday, someday.
I'll definitely would like to relive that moment ever again.
It's probably nothing to you but it was magical for me.