I'm just supposed to let it go
let you throw it all away
be okay
I can't fight anymore
I've fought enough for myself
so keep walking, close the door
I've been through too much already
I know what I need
can't you see what mistake your blindly making?
I'm sure there will be more tears
but for now I am numb
I have conquered too much already, no more fears
I just don't understand how you said to me,  I love you
were you telling the truth, I don't regret it though
because yeah, at the time, I needed you too
I still haven't said goodbye
I feel I cant, I don't know how
I don't even want to try
I'm sure it will be easy for you to say it
I don't want to hear it though
maybe then the real pain will hit
and I can heal and be done
let you go and be okay
breathe in a deep breath
because you wanted to throw it all away

Shards of glass
broken
my mirror
my page
rage
the critic has won
you're such a *****
so ******* me
*******
yeah right
they are just words
they are just my deepest emotions
my scars
my battle wounds
my story
my violence
their violence
her story
your story
your knuckles are bleeding
by the way
just words...

oh my gasp
how much longer can I last
with out your touch
I am
craving
ca
   ca
       ca
           ca
               crrrraving
                                 the affection
I'll show you the direction
put your hands on me
become a savage beast
bite my lip and feel please
I'm only human, feed me
feed my hunger, my disease
feed me
feed me
touch me touch me
kiss me love me bite me **** me
I need your skin

I have to write
write
or I will fall
take the blade
it will fall into my skin
I wish to slice my chest
rip out my heart
what has it done!
what good
I wish the curb was a cliff
so I could gracefully step off
and fly
my hair whirling around my face
eyes closed
then the end
I wish my cigarette was a poison
I could inhale
exhale toxic lies
be still
be finished
I have to write
write

I let this feeling sit inside me
this sharp emotion
worsening with each breath
anxiety
sorrow
bits of fiery rage

I don't dwell on it
but I let it sit and grow
doing nothing to ease this ache
I feel it physically

the dark thoughts dance
shadows in my mind
you could just....
just a little....
just...

where is this line
they call mind over matter
heart over head
where is this strength
that people see in me

because I feel so weak
so I'll just sit here
and let this feeling grow
I hope the shadows fade
who knows....

it's so much easier to get hurt
to expect disappointment
just show me pain
I know what that feels like
just show me you are no better
because I'm no better
I know how to hurt
I can deal with it
just **** it all up
but do it sooner than later please
it will feel all the same
my heart knows no difference
JUST **** IT ALL UP
I'm scared
because you'll just disappoint  me
you'll just hurt me
please don't
don't hurt me