to feel skin
on my skin
finger tips
trail down my body
follow the curves
lips touch lips
I have such a craving
a need
for human affection
I want to feel bliss
You're rugged hands on my hips
the urgent need to kiss
give me all
fufill my wish
touch me
taste me

love me
somebody...

You are still a thought
a picture
a memory
that crosses my mind

Time does heal but
does not erase
does not forget
things like your touch

I guess I can't let go like you
did so quick
replaced in flash
so it left a sting

I keep moving
on
pushing and waiting
for something better

I look forward to the day
I release all this
open to a new
me

without you
without your 'love'
your smile
without all that kept me holding

Men
are like french delicacies..

I've never understood
them

I have this desire to slowly tear apart
a small sliver of skin
slowly entrancing me
the once blue blood hits oxygen
then turns a radiant red
it trickles down I see

with the tiny piece of metal
that glitters so bright
shaped so perfectly for me
I invite my insides out
come out
I call to set them free

and I never can forget
when I make this choice
I'll have the memory
a beautiful reminder
a faint pink scar upon my skin
shows ever so slightly

I smile
as I hold back tears
I'm silent
cause if I speak, I'd choke
I sit by the fire
even though it doesn't warm me
I breathe
even though my lungs fight it
somehow, there is the smallest bit
of strong will
I can
I am
living with out you