and I heard the song you sang
but  
I never understood the hidden meaning
such a fool, I was
to be decieved
by your lingering voice

You're so beautiful
                                 when
                                           you
                                                   lie

lie here with me
                              tell me
                                         I'm everything
                                                                  you need
lets play pretend
                             love me
                                      **** me
                                                  hate me
tell me
              I
                  am
                         beautiful

I try to control it
I am shaking
my teeth grinding
and something worse than my anger
flows through my veins
it pulses and pushes
tearing and splitting
all that is my sanity

I ******* loose it

even your voice strikes it
like a match awaiting spark
then my lungs need more air
than I can possibly breathe
and my knuckles turn white
wanting to burst out of my skin

I ******* hate those memories

*why can't I let them go?

Forgive me Father
for I am lost
I used to know
who I was

Forgive me Father
I am un-pure
I used to protect
who I was

Forgive me Father
I am ashamed
I used to be proud of
who I was

And you see Father
my actions are cries
I am a stranger to
who I was

So lead me Father
I will follow again
and I will be better
than who I was

all over my body
all these bruises
from falling
in lust
not love

they cover me entirely
every inch of my skin
I can't hide
that I fall
too quickly

and they make those bruises
from love making
*******
it means nothing
I'm covered in bruises

Someday
my prince
     will ***..

and then so will I.

it's a phase
but I feel it's a disease
isn't there something that can cure me?


anything
please