Before the sun comes I see you
not always how I want to

I see her too
she has you

you consume me
even though
you don't want me anymore
even though
I want to
let go

She doesn't know you
like I do


So now I wait
for the sun rise
to close my eyes
but
I still see you
never how I want to

Your words are sweet
like honey
dripping from
your lips

let me taste you

mmm, your lies are sweet.

And I keep trying
to have hope
faith
something
anything

my hands are open
waiting to grasp
you
someone
anyone

but then the clouds come
they
cover me
completely
utterly

then the rain starts
so quickly
haunting
pouring
screaming

ugh, what a cliche
just me
all alone
in the rain
sweet rain

I let them lay me down
take a piece of me
forever-
it is gone

and I am searching
for affection
yeah, that's what I call it

shower it off
like it will rid me the memory
like the shame will go down
down the drain

tell myself, it's okay
maybe it meant something
no
don't lie
shh it's okay, don't cry

I lay myself down
give away a piece of me
I let them take it
it's gone.

Where the **** is my mind?
Am I lost between space and time?
I don't know you-
You look strange to me
familiar eyes but a different story I see
new scars and troubles, new hatred and pain
Who are you-
Have you no name?
familiar mouth but no smile
new memories, same trial
you're a stranger, I'm afraid
you wear discomfort as if you've been betrayed
Where the **** is your mind!?
are you lost between what is you and I?

Why do we grow up..
why do we all change
things were so simple, now they're so strange
high was on a swing
and love had no sting
nightmares weren't real and dreams not so distant
who knew it was like this
hurt was temporary, healed by a kiss
stories had happy endings, never a twist
two plus two was four, nothing more
now one plus one makes hearts come undone
scars and bruises were accidents
never ones own wish
there was only light, darkness
was hidden quickly and forgotten soon
the sun was a gift and you saw the man on the moon
memories never held you back or kept breath from your heart
it was so together, to grow and fall a part
new eyes for this world, a tougher soul
I never thought it'd be so **** cold

How can you forgive me,
when I cannot forgive myself
I'm sitting here
uncomfortable in this skin
my skin
our skin touched, fire
How can I be your fire
when our love has stopped burning
I am alone here
nothing but ash, my ash
the remains of our love
How does my heart still beat without you
I don't know how much longer I can wait
although I'll wait forever
till our forever
you said I was your forever
I never thought one person could change me
inside out
yet my heart is still on my sleeve
while yours, sits in a safe
give me the key please
your key
your heart
my heart is yours
deeply connected forever
perfectly imperfect as we
balance each other
I want no other
ever
ever
my heart and soul will not allow it