I don't know how,
I tried to know why.
But the more I tried,
the deeper I plunged.
Into the war,
within myself.

Tameica Hammick.

Enemies at first,
best friends the second time.
She's so much like me,
a couple years back in time.
Advice i give to her,
i know i should be taking.
for me its hard to do,
i guess cause id be faking.
The things we've both been through,
the feelings and the lies.
the choices that we made,
the times we both cried.
Attempting to help eachother,
get past what has begun.
just trying to get through,
what's already begun.

Always,
              Tameica Hammick.    12-14-09

The time spent with you, was like a dream come true.
You could take a gray day, and paint the sky blue.
Life seemed so easy when you were around.
Being with you, felt like I was flying high above ground.
Loving you allowed my thoughts and dreams to soar.
I loved everything about you, everything right to the core.
Your love was my place to escape.
Your warm arms around me, made me feel so safe.
I always hoped that I could make you see.
Your love, was the best thing that ever happened to me.

What hurt the most...
Was loving you so much,
But that not being enough.
What hurt the most...
Was watching you walk away,
And knowing my chance was ruined.
What hurt the most...
Was having you so close,
But not close enough.
What hurts the most...
Is watching you kiss and talk about another girl.
What hurts the most...
Is knowing I can never have you, but
What hurts more than anything else...
*Is knowing that I had you.

what if forever was real?
what if we could choose to stay.
and watch every one we knew
slowly fade away?
what if every person
who had stabbed you in the back.
you could watch get abducted,
in a alien attack.
what if you could be a monster,
and ripp off people's head.
what if you could change your words,
even after they were said.
what if your dreams came true,
and u didnt have to buy it.
you tell me i have to be smarter,
but the thing is i cant afford it.
what if the world blew up,
i would not think it a big deal.
what if this was an illusion,
what if , what if was real?

<3 Always,
                 Tameica  Hammick

6/ 2 4/ 1 **4

when you're young,
everything feels like its the end of the world,
but it's not,
it's just the beginning.

always Tameica.

When im around you,
I have no regrets.
And the look in your eyes,
I could never forget.
When I said " I love you",
my heart skipped a beat.
My mind went racing,
and I could hardly breathe.
My mind said Run,
but my feet said stay.
When you said it back,
everything was okay.
But, now it seems different,
these past couple of days.
I feel like you're starting,
to push me away.
Writing this now,
feeling ready to cry.
Not knowing what I did,
and wondering why?

Always,
     Tameica Hammick. 11-16-09

It's almost dark,
I think I might burst.
I don't like to sleep,
waking up is the worst.
Ill fall asleep,
thinking of you.
Dreaming of things,
that we would do.
But as I wake,
I shed a tear.
because I awake,
without  you  here.

Always,
      Tameica Hammick. date unkown