I am stupid
I am ugly
I am dumb
I am fat
I am an embarrassment to society
I am unacceptable
I am a waste of life
I am a blabber mouth
I am horrendous
I am the ugly friend
I am the unwanted student
I am worthless
I am a no good piece of human
I AM NOTHING
Don't tell me this isn't true because you're the reason I'm writing this

Yolo?
**** that!
I'm a cat!
Nine lives, *******!
BEAT THAT!

My smiles are fake, but my tears are real
The pain you make is the only pain I feel
You are my reason, you are my course
You are my razor, you are my force
Because staying with you us drags me through the mud
But it saves me the pain
Of spilling my blood
So go ahead
**** me slowly
But surely
Because I've just bled out
Everything
And I'm done
So ultimately
*I am dead

They wish they could change me
All of them
They all wish I was different
They wish they could lock me away
So all there problems would be solved
Put me on meds
As if that would solve anything
They wish I could just see the "happiness" in my life
What happiness?
What is so happy about a broken girl
Who's mom have her away
Who's father just wanted a one night stand
Not a child
Please tell me
I'm done playing the victim
But thats all I'll ever be
And for the rest of my life
I have to face the fact
That I'm just **unwanted

I heard from a little birdie
That you've been talking about me
When I'm not there to defend myself
You're a sneaky ***** aren't you
What were you trying to do?
What were you trying to achieve

I mean
Please explain to me
What you meant by
"Blabber mouth"
"Annoying"
"Needs to shut up"
Because I'm confused
Now this is the part were you deny it
Say I'm wrong
That what you want anyway
But you see
When you're a *****
You don't win
And you don't get what you want

I'm glad I found out now
Or else things might be worse
Because there are so many things you are
2-faced is just one
And you can say all you want about me
I mean you already do
So go ahead and call me a *****
Thats ok
Because Rae
It takes a *****
To know a *****
*****

I just wish you were here
With me
I wish I could feel your warmth
I wish I could wrap my arms around you
I wish I could kiss you
Because you're mine

You're so sweet
And sometimes I feel like I don't deserve it
Because of all the mistakes I made
And its weird to me
That you love me more
Then I love myself

And our relationship is different from the others
Because
We did it
We make it work
We proved to the world that
If you really love someone
Distance is just another bump

I loved the way you talked
About the most meaningless stuff
But yet it was so meaningful to me
How you wished you had wings
So you could travel
See the world
Live

But love you see
Not all angels have wings

You told me how you were going to take me with you
Show me the world
We would be unstoppable
But life got in the way
And we said it would all work
That we would find a way

But it does get hard
And I do miss you
I miss the way you would poke my cheeks
Even when I told you to stop
I miss the constant teasing
When I tried not to laugh
I miss the way you hugged me
When I had a bad day
I miss the way you said I was beautiful
When I doubted myself
But what I miss the most
Is when you would hold me
And tell me you loved me
Because right then and there
I knew that you will forever and always be
*My angel with no wings