#unworthy
Those words you have said
Painting love that I had giving
As colorless
Thunder and lightning
Darkness
Hollow art on a canvas
You loved the idea of breaking me
Changing me into something I am not
Now I am at fault
For being
Indifferent.
Mar 31
Mar 31, 2026 at 3:29 PM UTC
I was good,
but never easy to choose.
Good at holding it in,
good at fixing the cracks,
good at turning jealousy
into silence.
Every time I thought I’d made it,
The goal changed.
Every time I caught up,
I was already behind.
He laughed, and doors opened.
I tried, and hands slipped away.
I started measuring myself
in his shadow.
I was good,
Good at trying harder,
good at fixing myself,
good at believing
The problem was me.
Never enough to stop trying,
never enough to stop wanting.
He didn’t have to try.
He just was.
And somehow that was everything
I kept chasing.
I was good,
but never effortless.
Good at waiting my turn,
good at clapping for him,
good at shrinking
so I wouldn’t take up space.
I was good,
but never first.
Never chosen.
Never him.
Every time I reached the line,
It moved.
Every time I shined,
It wasn’t bright enough.
I’ve always been good
good at standing still,
good at smiling quiet,
good at saying “I’m fine”
when I wasn’t.
Never easy.
Never natural.
Never enough to stop comparing.
And maybe one day
Good will be enough.
But right now,
I’m tired of being good
If good never wins.
Dec 22, 2025
Dec 22, 2025 at 3:40 AM UTC
Thoughts come again and again they never end
Self sabotage cause I'm a broken mess
**** a relationship up faster than it began
Don't wanna get hurt again so I'll keep this charade up til I'm whole again
Sorry to the ones who tried their best to get me to love again
It's me and my head we're fighting again
Got knocked down a time or two but I'm not giving into
The voices that are screaming
Ur ugly
Not worthy
Of anything or anyone
Sorry to the ones who love me I hope u will forgive me
Maybe one day u could understand why I am the way I am
Push people away to save myself from the hurt and so they won't see
I'm dying inide fighting the voices the demons who won't stop screaming at me
Ur ugly
Not worthy
Of anything or anyone
It's a hard battle but I know it's not gonna be this way forever
Sorry for my sinful ways don't mean to hurt u just need an escape
Lying to myself thinking people care
Whispers behind my back spreading like a wildfire
She's ugly
Not worthy
Of anything or anyone
Hold ur head up u got this that's what they all say
If u only knew the truth and u were in my shoes
U would see how far I've come
Sorry I'm not the girl u used to know the old me is gone
Scars from all the hurt I've been through
Made me who I am today
Dec 21, 2024
Dec 21, 2024 at 7:46 AM UTC
Do you ever feel the overwhelming sense of gratitude pinched by an unwelcome sense of unworthiness?
Nov 24, 2024
Nov 24, 2024 at 12:40 AM UTC
Just because you lost
Does not mean you gave up
Being held hostage by your own thoughts
Does not mean you surrendered
Coming undone and falling apart
Does not mean that you are then broken
Finding it hard to love yourself
Does not make you unworthy of love itself
©2024
Nov 22, 2024
Nov 22, 2024 at 4:56 PM UTC
(song)
Dark is older than light so that might be why fright is what I'm accustomed to
Neither vast nor confined, maybe both at the same time, it leaves no clue
I don't know how to get my point across to you to help you to see what it is I go through
It's a nothing that consumes my everything, there's not a thing you can compare it to
Similes only vaguely paint the picture, but it helps to toss in a few
If there was only a wind that blew, even once, maybe it would bring a familiar view
But this void in its vastness brings nothing new, allows nothing to continue
It's the solvent to my glue, everything I've done it's managed to uproot and undo
And it's so quiet but yet this silent surrounding is deafening to an alarming degree
In it I use to find beauty, now it's my captor, one of which I'll never be set free
And it's convinced me, or maybe I've convinced myself that I am unworthy
Of anything else and its that false certainty that cleverly keeps me in captivity
I carelessly embraced this darkness that slowly replaced the old me entirely
I scream, cry then whimper softly as the misery slowly embodies me
Then lay back in submittance, in silence and plea for swift mercy
I can't stay in this purgatory so give me my life back or take it from me completely
I feel numb, I feel numb, I feel nothing, there's just nothing, nothing, nothing...
I feel numb, I'm so numb, I feel nothing, there's just nothing here for me
I had light once, I actually got to hold it
But it was a betrayal, only staying for a moment
In its wake the dark returned to claim what was stolen from it
The door was too heavy, I couldn't shut it
The nothing engulfed my everything, I couldn't outrun it
Panic set like quick cement, begin to sweat, my feet became heavy, I began to resent and regret
All those scary movies I watched 'cause I knew for sure that this was it
But that's just it
Nothing happened, I literally mean nothing was the constant
No up, no down, no light, no sound, I couldn't even pick up a sent
Then in an instant it hit me, before my head hit the pavement, I knew what it all meant
Light, so faint and vulnerable, so young and naive
It didn't stand a chance against the dark, give a **** what you believe
Just because you achieve a small glimpse of hope don't think you'll never grieve
When your life starts to unweave that's when the dark races in like a thief
Every religion and belief labels it differently depending on the way they perceive
They have to cause a mind can't conceive it so it almost has to make it make believe
But please believe this is real, don't mis conceive
Best heed my warning cause once you're here you can never leave
I feel numb, I feel numb, I feel nothing, there's just nothing, nothing, nothing...
I feel numb, I'm so numb, I feel nothing, there's just nothing here for me
©2022
May 8, 2022
May 8, 2022 at 5:03 AM UTC
You do this to me
I was away from all the games of love
Trying to gather my pieces and find me my-self
You came and destroyed my entire wit and will
Proving to me that my resolute was next to nill
And I am left longing for you and fancying you every minute
From the moment you met my eyes, with love infinite
You are a gentle soul with the voice, sweetest
You teach me with the thought, kindest
Full of talent and creativity!
Yet you need my attention? what a pity!
I am a plain jane, to your talents, unmatched
Human nature somehow is indeed complicated
Why o why
Apr 5, 2022
Apr 5, 2022 at 4:58 PM UTC
It makes me sad that I can’t seem to find a way.
The entrance even seems so far a way
Each door a new beginning or an end to one.
I can not help but feel like there’s not a single one
A single one, worth the trek.
Sometimes I just feel like a wreck.
Jul 31, 2021
Jul 31, 2021 at 7:28 PM UTC
I love you.
Since I saw the cracks in your bookshelf,
Your graceful hair intertwined with your shoulders,
The way you throw your head back and laugh.
If you are Juliet, I am death,
And I wonder how the snake felt,
Knowing he allowed Eve the apple.
I should hold my forked tongue,
For I know you would care for no,
Walking nervous breakdown.
Who could?
But this agonized black mass,
Writhing inside me, where my heart should be,
Barely living, barely dying.
Masquerading passion, good will.
I just need you to shoot it.
Apr 7, 2021
Apr 7, 2021 at 3:45 PM UTC
Unworthy-
31/January/2021
1.22Am
That day when you asked if you could tell me a secret
I was so excited,
But to be honest I freaked out.
I was so unworthy of that weight.
My simple heart cannot hold such pressure.
The weight you are carrying.
The knowledge that you've earned.
I felt so unworthy of the words that would spill out of your lips.
That day I felt something different.
I thought I knew knowledge,
I thought I knew how to take life as easily as a floating feather.
I thought I knew how to take my problems and put it down with my fists.
I thought I knew what is love.
But that day your eyes told me a different story.
Your eyes showed me a story of a thousand nights.
A forest of thousand lives.
A Library with thousand books.
A universe of thousand skies.
Your eyes asked for trust that day
It asked for a chamber with a lost key,
Locked away and cannot be found for eternity.
But I am just a human.
Unworthy of the treasury you wanted to give.
Illiterate to the feelings you wanted to share.
And unworthy of your trust.
Feb 23, 2021
Feb 23, 2021 at 4:03 AM UTC
So what of those who aren't sought
Or the ones afflicted with eternal solitude
Where do our hearts go or rather hide
We are the refugees of this so called euphoria
An enigma so potent known as love
We are those not wanted by it
The unchosen and not desired
It chases us away like we're rats
Forcing us to scurry for cover
When all we want is to be fed
We've been shut out of it's presence
Like we are unworthy vagabonds
Sleeping on an empty cold floor
Crying ourselves into slumber
Only to be orphaned again tomorrow
Jan 7, 2021
Jan 7, 2021 at 12:56 PM UTC
I'm tired.
Tired of convincing myself that it was them,
and not me.
Tired of trying to understand their uninterest,
in me.
I'm tired.
Tired of lying to myself,
that one day ill find the one that will,
love me.
Dec 12, 2020
Dec 12, 2020 at 12:07 AM UTC
Just don't think about those people
Who have left you with no choice
But to think the reason of your aloneness.
Just don't hover around,
Those,
Making you feel unworthy,
Shut their door,
And don't worry dear,
It isn't ego,
It's self-respect,
Self-help,
Self esteem and
Self-love.
Just don't be with those,
Bragging about their victory,
By belittling your tiny beginnings,
And don't worry dear,
It isn't that you aren't worthy,
But the person is so unworthy
To witness your
Victory by stepping tiny it's.
Nov 28, 2020
Nov 28, 2020 at 1:18 PM UTC
your eyes and their laughter lines,
your hair and your familiar frame,
your bare feet and clean teeth,
the warmth from our shared time.
the miracles made into memories,
the wonders into wishes,
the triumphs into tragedies,
your patience with my pretending.
untouched i longed to be untethered,
but too long in the mire to change.
how long will you wait
for my hands to be your hands?
a song in a dream and awake we're apart,
my fear my fault and my freedom my fear.
you may not want me anymore,
for i am ragged.
Aug 14, 2019
Aug 14, 2019 at 11:45 PM UTC
Desire to see
How you'd be
Makin my world flee
Dont know how to feel
Cuz lovin u is my need
That i cant stop but feed
Eyes turning with speed
Whenever u proceed
Yet your always accompanied
Afflicting to admit but envied
Makin my heart bleed
For they may mislead
For i am pitied
If only youd forseen
Decree as my queen
By all means an equisite scene
Not a soul step intervene
Abundant love since sixteen
Take you to cuisine
For all is unseen
Have all ur questions
I'd answer with combustion
You may ask am i the right one?
Different from everyone?
Worthy or is there no one?
But this aint done
So listen
You maybe be taken
But i have ur heart won
Give you all for love you more than all
Haunting yet sacrifice my self
in any circumstances given
Always and forever there for u for certain
Stand out as there mistakin
They dare forsaken
Have audacity to Heartbreakin my queen
be ****** heartachein
My undertakin bringin them shakin
Cuz none will stop my wrath for godsakin
I am thier nightmare satan
Deeply awakin like a hawk
I am not all talk
But at least not like them to stalk
Have u in a shock cuz i am destined to rock
Have ur love lock full of stock that none can knock
Dont care if i am mocked
Waiting for all ticks on clock
No need if you let me have u spoken
Take all my action
Never be forgotten
For ill give all my attention
Be your best decision
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Oct 18, 2020
Oct 18, 2020 at 5:18 AM UTC
Uneven
Without substance, void of faith
Unresolved
Seeking facts among the fiction
Untapped
For the price seems too steep
Unfavored
Privilege lost that was never had
This heart is blackstone, hollow within
Day to day, sinking further down
Useless
Fake a smile of sincerity,
For all the world's a stage, and we are but merely actors
Or whatever Shakespeare meant.
Reveal yourself, masked man
Uncover the fear you bring
In a cloak of anxiety and dread
For these lay dormant yet dominant within this vessel
From this side of the mirror, it is all you will ever see
Jun 19, 2020
Jun 19, 2020 at 8:54 PM UTC
Never garnered any attention
From the ones that craved the angst,
For my figure didn’t move across the stage
Swaying flowers petals, blooming hands.
And my dancing never charming
Like the red light of the rose,
For I never rode upon horses,
Gliding swiftly through the snow.
And from my patchy, ashen face
Muddy, sepia eyes gave too much away,
Rivers flowing through emotion, no space,
For chaotic disarray messing your lake.
Never thought to think twice,
Gaze skipping over me like stones
Missing out on all the stories,
That the dreamer once thought of.
Jun 17, 2020
Jun 17, 2020 at 11:15 AM UTC
Yo la quiero, la amo
Y sé que siente lo mismo por mí
Pero hay veces que dudo de ese amor
No porque no lo dice lo suficiente
No porque no lo enseñe todos los días
Pero porque no creo en mi misma
No veo lo que usted ve
No escucho lo que usted escucha
Estoy toda rota
En pedazos
Destrozada
En necesidad de milagros
No me veo capaz de hacer algo bien
Una buena para nada
Una imbécil
Cerrada y callada
Soy incapaz de
Hacer
Hablar
Escuchar
Pelear
Soñar
Jun 14, 2020
Jun 14, 2020 at 12:03 AM UTC
Why wasn't i good enough for anyone?
I did my best
I tried my best
But it wasn't enough to make him stay
Which of my flaws was the trigger?
Was it because I'm not pretty enough?
Because of my weird high-pitched voice?
My short height?
My scars and cellulites?
Could it be my tattoos were too scary for him
Maybe it wasn't a physical flaw.
Was it because of my obsession of him?
My undying love and affections ?
Perhaps because i overthink too much
Or maybe because of how depressed i could be
Maybe everything about me is flawed.
Maybe in his eyes,
I'm not worthy enough
May 21, 2020
May 21, 2020 at 4:42 PM UTC
dark and cold
memories black and old
none can save me
so why would you dare try?
can you not see
how I can never cry?
no blood dripped
when my soul was ripped
to shreds on the floor
as i watched in pain
There's nothing in this life
for a nomad in the shrapnel rain.
Feb 25, 2020
Feb 25, 2020 at 9:11 PM UTC