#unstable
The one I was told requires patience and steadiness
I chose to walk it
But every step turns into something forceful,
uncontrolled
A bumpy path, I suppose
I stumble, I tremble,
but falling never an option
It's always in motion,
but never in rhythm,
never in a straight line
I find myself zigzagging,
juggled,
pulled back and forth
A rollercoaster, I'd say
Then comes a moment of calm,
and you think you've arrived,
that you've made it,
if only for a moment
But it's only a pause,
a period at the end of the sentence,
hoping you understood the meaning
The L you took,
was it a lesson,
a loss,
or life itself?
May 2
May 2, 2026 at 6:44 PM UTC
I’m conscious of your existence here
Voids inside my heart are spreading it clear
I feel an anxious pleasure every second here
Deep in the abyss I cannot recognize fear
No transformation ever did exist
I knew they all were just the same dream persist
How much more time does it still require
Even though it’s already coming close, dire
Apr 17
Apr 17, 2026 at 11:16 AM UTC
You never asked to be
the world or
my ending salvation
But you should have
known the prominent
features I'd built
Granted,
you were a piece of a puzzle
I finished at the end
but you never fit
so I cut surrounding pieces
to finish the end
The picture
never unfolded
the way I knew it should
be, my body never
fit the gaps in the mirror
in my mind, the holes
along my sides
the bulge at my heart
You never chose to be
the world or
a reasoning admiration
But you should have
known the prominent
habits I'd held
Then again
you were a piece of a puzzle
you finished at the end
but you never fit mine
I forgot you weren't mine
Feb 8
Feb 8, 2026 at 11:36 PM UTC
PSYCHOTIC,
INSANE,
DERANGED,
and UNSTABLE,
DELUSIONS,
CONFUSION,
WACKO,
and, A ******
A NUTJOB, and CUCKOO,
WHEN YOU ARE
SO FEARFUL,
AFRAID OF WHAT IS NOT,
GOT US HEARING AN EARFUL,
you thought you
saw something,
cos
OF YOUR OWN THOUGHTS,
seeing SPOOKS, and THE UNNATURAL,
a LITTLE BIT OFF,
You are VERY UNHINGED,
HEARING VOICES IN YOUR HEAD,
up In your OWN MIND,
DON'T LET THE PARONIA WIN,
GET A GRIP, and TOUGH SKIN,
cos
WHATEVER THEY SAY:
tell them
"NO!!!"
YOU'RE NOT REAL
and
GO FAR, FAR AWAY,
GET OUT OF MY CONSCIENCE,
YOU CAN NO LONGER STAY,
YOU ARE CREEPIN US OUT,
WITH SUCH A FIXED STARE
as if SOMETHING is INVISIBLE
STANDING RIGHT THERE,
YOU'RE IN SUCH A FRANTIC,
You are SERIOUSLY LOSING IT,
Having us in a panic,
COS,
of your
SCHIZOPHRENIC,
but that's OK,
Help is on the way,
JUST BE SURE TO TELL THOSE
PSYCHOPATHS
TO STAY FAR AWAY!!!!!
B.R.
Date: 9/26/2025
Sep 26, 2025
Sep 26, 2025 at 8:55 PM UTC
so my parents blabbered about how the enormous love they shared resulted me to existence.
Their faces were covered with brilliant smiles and i saw love radiant in them.
Though i couldn't pinpoint their pastel lies made in paradise.
Those shades of blue hovered through the sky
and drops of hatred made me cry.
Its thunder made my ears bleed,
its lightning made my eyes sore.
I am no child of love.
I am the child of hatred my mother bore.
Sep 20, 2025
Sep 20, 2025 at 9:28 AM UTC
Finally I feel we did grow
day by day
I thought we couldn’t handle the bad ones
but we both stay
Don’t know how this will end
if we will survive
But I know it is with you
I want to live my life.
L.C.
Jul 3, 2025
Jul 3, 2025 at 5:59 AM UTC
I see in your eyes,
Two shallow pools of white with coffee mixed in,
I tremble before them,
You judge me too hard.
I hear it in your words,
The desperation reeks,
Its care you say,
I don’t feel it anyway.
I see the way you are,
Insincere and shapeshifting,
You’ll love conditionally
‘Don’t worry’ you reach your hand out
Each time we touch I die a little more
Its scary out there,
Look in the mirror to feel safe
My mind puts up a fight
So I need you all again
The pity holds me well
Well enough to try again
May 13, 2025
May 13, 2025 at 2:53 PM UTC
I want to go home
where is it?
Where is home?
Is it here
or is it there?
I don't think it's anywhere.
State to state
I want to escape
I want to leave
but where do I go?
I want to leave
I want to leave
I want
to
leave
But where do I go?
Apr 25, 2025
Apr 25, 2025 at 12:34 PM UTC
Your hands have been crafted
by a rare and delicate melody.
One that sweeps me completely and raptures my affection,
Such charming beauty you possess my love.
I bring my disgraceful lips
to your merciless fingers,
that left imprints on my neck earlier.
Your demeanor is that of a white swan
sparkling in an illusory lake.
As I step inside deep water to try
to reach your magnificent being.
It's not the flames of indifference that burn my soul,
rather your casual wit and coy smiles.
Pretentious laughter as if you actually care.
The lake is now suffocating my lungs.
The cool waves strike my weeping skin,
so opposite to your firing touch.
This is what you wanted from the very beginning my love.
Now, don't bestow me your unreachable pity.
In my dying moments, even your shadow did not grace me with its presence.
Now that I am completely lost in your maze,
I want to ask you in this haze.
Are you now joyous my love?
Are you now satisfied?
Are you celebrating the fortune of my perish?
You don't have any blood on your hands,
I have killed myself over this love.
You are still the white swan, mesmerizing all with your innocence.
And I am here at the bottom of the lake,
Drowning in helpless awareness, unaware of the extent of your cruelty.
The warm blue hues silently shut my eyes,
gifting me more peace than you ever could.
The real misfortune is that even in my last breath, I could only take your name.
I have only ever known your love.
I have only ever known your cruelty.
I don't mind the loneliness.
I don't mind the helplessness.
I just craved belongingness.
I just wish that the white swan herself would have drained me of life by kissing my lips.
When the light of life was finally replaced by miserable darkness, all I could do was reach out to hold your hand.
Nov 24, 2024
Nov 24, 2024 at 8:23 AM UTC
My House is locked
My Windows blocked
The Lights are dimming
The Kettle begin screaming
Ness boiling in the darkness
I’m searching for Loc Ness
The Ness is ticking
The Ness growing erratic
Nov 21, 2024
Nov 21, 2024 at 3:16 AM UTC
Your ship,
Is not mine to sail,
I am only damaged goods,
And you're not.
Jun 29, 2024
Jun 29, 2024 at 11:54 AM UTC
Forget her
Don't suffer to remember just to suffer forever, sucker
Lust safer
Rub one out and see if the hunger doesn't expire a little quicker
Cold fire
Flip it 180 and record what's bound to transpire
Loves quagmire
Simple desire will always inspire but ensnare a liar
Shifty empire
Not strange to aspire to be a vicious, succubus, vampire
Almost satire
An enticing lure to offer for sure but unstable as brushfire
Situation's dire
Sooner than later fall victim to the inevitable backfire
Flimsy tightwire
An act in need of fools for hire, speaking to the choir
©2023
Dec 4, 2023
Dec 4, 2023 at 4:40 PM UTC
i can't feel my head
but my heart is oh so
heavy.
unstable, unable
even if i can't get rid of the weight
i hope my head can help my heart carry.
Apr 6, 2021
Apr 6, 2021 at 1:05 AM UTC
A little house
On the hill
White fence
With a garden
People decorating inside
High school sweethearts
Laughing, smiling, kissing
They must be a couple
Husband and wife?
Big wedding
DJ, photographer, friends and family
Moving into their new house
The woman
Has a big belly
Twins?
A girl and a boy
Such blessings
Dogs?
Two
Soon to be parents as well
Watching the man
Old now
Hold his wife's hand
As she takes her last breath
To say...
She was living a dream
Oh, how he was confused
Only to find out
She had left him a note
On their counter in the little house
He unfold the note
All of a sudden
The sun came out
The weather didn't call for this
It looked like....
A dream
And in that very moment
He understood
Mar 31, 2021
Mar 31, 2021 at 4:10 PM UTC
FILLED WITH DARKNESS
IT’S SAD BUT MY MIND IS ENDLESS
I WANT TO ESCAPE
BUT THERE IS NO WAY OUT
NO ONE IS AROUND
YET I DECIDE TO SHOUT
BUT THE QUESTION IS
IS IT REALLY DARKNESS??
OR IS IT MY OWN VERSION OF REALITY??
OR IS IT JUST THE THOUGHTS CAUSED FROM ANXIETY
EITHER WAY I CAN’T ESCAPE MY MIND
I AM LOST UNTIL I CAN GAIN SOME LIGHT
I CAN ONLY HOPE THAT IT’S HAPPINESS
BUT UNTIL THEN I WILL CONTINUE TO FIGHT
FOR I AM LOST
AND I WILL DO WHATEVER IT TAKES NO MATTER THE CAUSE
I DON’T WANT TO BE ALONE ANYMORE
I DON’T WANT TO FEEL THIS PAIN
I DON’T WANT TO GO THROUGH MY WHOLE LIFE LIKE THIS
PLEASE
I WANT IT TO END
I DON’T WANT TO BE LOST
Dec 16, 2020
Dec 16, 2020 at 12:03 PM UTC
Intrusive image invading unstable imagination
Bursting bright bringing bouncing bobbling bits of bubbling illusions into brain
A memory of magical messy minutes moseying and mingling
A menagerie of magnificent moments miraculously marked in my mischievous mind
Coming into chaotic corners of cornea calmly
Cruising without cares
Dec 10, 2020
Dec 10, 2020 at 11:25 AM UTC
I am the lonely boy who loves a lonely girl
When I’m blue, she’s the one I run to
You’d think we go together like two + two
But in fact, we make five and here’s why
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We’re both equally traumatised
With a battlefield going strong in our minds
It tires her out all the time
Whereas I use drugs as a coping vice
We’re both fairly afraid to get close
Because past lovers still have a hold
Not in the sense we keep a torch lit
Just scarred and bruised from the flames within
We’re both so anxious about timing
She thinks she’s too much, I think I’m not enough
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These are the cards we’re dealt with
But having her by my side is a blessing
Nov 18, 2020
Nov 18, 2020 at 4:25 PM UTC
INSECURE GENERATION
The generation of today is living an insecure life.
Life full of comparison
Possession of things without thinking of what may happen
A generation trying to prove others that they are the best
A generation where young and energetic men are trying to prove themselves by destroying others.
A generation where big and high class daddies destroy the young with material things
A confused generation showing their happiness and wealth through photography
A confused generation hard to love people from a broken family
Everything is invalid!
We suffer insecurities we didn't create
Many are becoming insecure
Completely unstable
Trying to compare themselves with our today's models and celebrities of our century
Probably hiding behind makeup
Cause probably without the makeup!
They,themselves are a hot mess!
They pay a ransom to look great!
If beauty is in the eyes of the beholder!
Then,why suffer so much trying to look spectacular?
Why spend to your last coin attracting a whole lot of people?
They say beauty comes from within
Our generation need to stand courageously
And fight against the enemy of self insecurity!
Aug 11, 2020
Aug 11, 2020 at 10:50 AM UTC
I'm twisted inside.
My emotions are unstable;
And just like my emotions, my choices are also unstable.
It keeps going back and forth.
I'm twisted inside;
And don't know what to do.
It is very confusing.
Jul 14, 2020
Jul 14, 2020 at 9:35 PM UTC
At the beginning the love was sweet...
We could check up
on each other every
single time of the day.
The love was real and
I enjoyed everything
I truly loved her yet she. claimed my love wasn't
enough, I showed her
real love coz she also
showed me the love
I've always been
wanting.
She was so supportive
when I needed her, we
enjoyed every beautiful
moments I had with her
To be she was beautiful
and her beauty was so much different it wasn't the way she dressed
But the way she stood for me everywhen i messed
He beauty
wasn't in her thin skin
But the times she forgave me everywhen i sin
Her beauty
Wasn't in one night stand
But the times I ******* and she still gave me a hand.
I didn't see her worth after
spoting the outer
beauty of other campus
girls. She warned me but
I didn't gave her time
She cried the whole day and night and I didn't gave her
the attention.
I jumped from one
relationship to another but
she kept loving me
i didn't see her love and didn't gave her a chance
to explain herself
I lost her just because of
my lust for the women
beauty.
Art from heart
May 11, 2020
May 11, 2020 at 5:37 AM UTC
This entire house feels unstable
My life is shaking
As are my hands
Nothing is certain
Nothing is safe
Why... why doesn’t home ever feel safe?
Apr 25, 2020
Apr 25, 2020 at 1:25 AM UTC
The tears are backed up so much
I wish they’d come
I wish they’d run
And finally get all of my emotions to out of my headspace
A shell that’s almost numb
Run down from the lifelong fight
Often feeling dumb
And always in fight or flight
A father whom is barely home
A mother whom I only know over the phone
Ever since the last one left
I’ve been living in a basically broken home
Night after night
Day after day
I still feel the same pain
And still comes the same rain
Suicidal contemplation's
Consumed by anxious thoughts
Filled with my worst fears
And followed by my vulnerabilities and desperate actions
An emotionally unstable demon
One whom tries to be happy
But is beaten down every time
And left alone in his own minds creation of purgatory
Mar 8, 2020
Mar 8, 2020 at 11:16 PM UTC
A shade of blue
Can plague the mind
A shade of green
Can turn the kind
A shade of red
Can break the stable
And yet...
A shade of yellow
Won't break the many
So many hues
And yet we don't see them all.
Feb 18, 2020
Feb 18, 2020 at 3:58 AM UTC
When my world turned upside down,
And it seemed all forces were against me,
I thought you were the one thing stable,
Something I could cling to blindly.
But instead you are the feet
That have shaken the foundations loose.
You are the winds,
Ripping years of roots from the ground.
I thought you were stable
In my world of instability.
But instead,
You are the world.
Jan 13, 2020
Jan 13, 2020 at 3:03 AM UTC