#traitor
you said you didn’t want to lose me.
you said you could “learn to love me again.”
but love shouldn’t need to be relearned,
should it?
i carried those words like a promise
years later i learned that you were already celebrating him.
i wonder how many times
i loved you
while you were already gone.
Aug 24, 2025
Aug 24, 2025 at 3:10 AM UTC
Filling my buckets of red—
I promise you,
I don’t have enough yet.
I don’t have enough anger
to paint the hands
of every man
who ever dared
to be a traitor.
Jun 29, 2025
Jun 29, 2025 at 5:11 PM UTC
You have trespassed on my soil, manned
You have stolen my nation and my land
Killed all the songbirds, the larks
You have eradicated any sense of glee
But everything you have taken from me
Around it, you will find claw marks
There's tears on the floor
And bullet holes in the door
And blood and dirt under my nails
You've made me flee from my own home
The place I live in and roam
And yet you still don't know what that entails.
Oct 5, 2024
Oct 5, 2024 at 11:38 AM UTC
I water you not to gain something,
but, you stung me with your thorn.
Jul 6, 2024
Jul 6, 2024 at 10:29 AM UTC
Should I call myself a traitor
For not honoring my needs
When I fall for you again
When I'm struggling to breathe
In the pool of old regrets
I'm still asking what it means
As I'm sinking to the floor
As I'm drowning to be free
I lament my current ignorance
For forgetting certain things
Like when I lay down in the dirt
From admitting our defeat
There's no basis for return
If you're always in my dreams
I had finally let you go
Until I ruined everything
I shouldn't play with fire
When my heart is made of weeds
But I was so desperate for attention
And the comfort it can bring
So I'll call myself a traitor
Cause I'm only hurting me
When I'm crawling back to you
And am on my hands and knees
May 12, 2024
May 12, 2024 at 2:39 AM UTC
If you were really my best friend,
you'd know that all I needed was
for you to be there for me.
I didn't need to know the truth.
I already knew I had ******* up.
I just needed you to assure me
that everything would be okay.
But instead, you were there for him,
acting like what I went through wasn't hard,
telling me how much I messed up,
assuring me that everything that happened was
my fault.
True friends don't do that.
Ex-friends do.
Jul 7, 2023
Jul 7, 2023 at 2:24 AM UTC
here i am on a train ride
on it for the first time in years
when it was supposed to be with you this year
we made plans to travel more together many times
and we wanted to make it work this time around
but now it ***** that you ain’t here
maybe it’s for the best
maybe it’s meant for me to make memories with my girls
maybe we were not meant to make any more memories and be each other’s first time for everything
you were great, but you were broken
and you dragged me down the pit with you
as selfish as I can be as a person
you were way worst than i can ever be
i loved you with you all my heart
but now all I have left to offer you is my rage
i don’t wish you the best
i don’t wish you happiness
i wish you'd cry
regret
suffer
for all the torture you’ve put me through
Jun 15, 2023
Jun 15, 2023 at 3:00 AM UTC
inteiramente perfeito
tirava-me suspiros
és tão belo, tão doce
tal como uma miragem
com certo atrevimento
tentei lhe alcançar
porém não consegui
pois tal como uma miragem
você nem mesmo esteve ali
Feb 10, 2022
Feb 10, 2022 at 11:37 PM UTC
sometimes in the silent dark
when im curled in the corner
is it just
the sound of my traitorous heart
or
are
there
footsteps
outside the
door?
Nov 20, 2020
Nov 20, 2020 at 11:23 PM UTC
You were supposed to love me til death do us apart.
But Then you let go and decided to trample my heart.
You've turned love into a lie and made heartbreak a work of art.
It was something I should have seen coming from the very start.
I was so foolish. Choosing someone like you wasn't at all very smart.
I fell in love with you because I knew your heart and knew who you were.
Now everything good about you has been wiped away, now a blur.
When I told you I loved you I meant it. I didn't stutter nor slur.
Now, after all is said and done I wish this charade had never occurred.
My heart, soul, time and tears were all taken advantage of.
Oh, how you lied to me because what you offered was never love.
In spite of the suffering I went through by you, I still considered you sent from above.
You disregard the times I treated you like a queen, when you were my white dove.
When my heart utterly melted for you. When your beauty was my treasure trove.
Now that its all over, you've given love a bad name.
Now that its over, I'll never look at it the same.
Love is no longer beautiful. Its a disgrace, a pity, a game.
Because of you Ill probably never find true love and that's a real shame.
However, I do hope someday I can find another that'll light my heart aflame.
But for now its a darkness a void. Because of you that's what love has became.
Oct 21, 2020
Oct 21, 2020 at 9:02 AM UTC
The greatest enemy is the enemy within
The most evil is one most believed as God
The Shepherd sacrificed sheep, and sheep cheered
How can anything not be what it seems
How can I mean other than what I said
How can eyes see soul, when there is none
An apple can be nothing but an apple
A patriot hugs the flag, a christian waves the bible
And the loser, unarmed, accursed, hangs from a tree
In robes of peace, prosperity and power, reigns evil
In dispersion, despair and death, are its enemies
In friends with cleaned feet are traitorous deceivers
Sep 2, 2020
Sep 2, 2020 at 12:10 AM UTC
My traitorous heartbeat,
just won't slow down,
tryin' to be discreet ,
with my fallen crown.
May 25, 2020
May 25, 2020 at 11:06 AM UTC
Fire a blaze with a roar so loud, a fort
that keeps people away, vicious sort
with a corrupted mind, extort
the poor and needy, distort
the reality, the people retort
I am the bad heart, now they cavort
as I am no more, the fire fort
has done it's deeds, foolish people court
with imbecile intellect, contort
are their lives now accomplices are now turncoat.
Jan 29, 2020
Jan 29, 2020 at 2:45 PM UTC
Are they snowballs down in hell
or just fire, smoke and heat?
I must live forever in my shell,
solving the matters of your deceit.
You put my feelings in the shredder,
wearing that silly mask of Cupid,
I'm guilty. I should have known better.
You're Evil in disguise, and I'm so... stupid.
You were feeding me with charming lies
about how your Sun is kissing the snow,
you made me walk away two thousand miles,
now I don't live at home anymore.
We should stop playing this blame-game,
and don't hide behind the shadows of a traitor,
the loneliness is whispering now my name,
believe me, you will thank me for this... later,
when your raven years will bring you wisdom,
you'll sit and have your morning breakfast,
you'll make confessions to God's kingdom,
only then you'll triumph over Life's tempest.
Apr 30, 2019
Apr 30, 2019 at 4:32 PM UTC
You convinced me it was us against the world
but once you finished building your kingdom
I wasn't worthy of you anymore.
Kicked to the curb and drowned in the bottom
of your swimming pool.
- high and almighty.
Apr 20, 2019
Apr 20, 2019 at 9:22 PM UTC
I'm not standing next to you,
Because I'm busy back-stabbing you.
**** you.
Jan 29, 2019
Jan 29, 2019 at 4:11 PM UTC
I have story,
There were three friends,
two of them were lovers.
I love you,
and you also love me.
Our friend was happy for us
but things had changed.
You left me,
and you two started to begin your story.
Dec 10, 2018
Dec 10, 2018 at 8:30 AM UTC
How it must feel
To be a traitor
To everyone who's loved you
Does he know what we did?
Would he still love you?
Call me disgusting
A horrible person
Manipulative even
I hope he learns
And that he leaves
So you are alone
And I hope you know my pain
Sep 16, 2020
Sep 16, 2020 at 12:08 PM UTC
Crumble
brothels sprout
flesh peddlers collect their fees
selling daughters
in twos and threes
Lopez or Diaz
lazy or defiant
escaped
in polluted lagoons
the virus spreads
Dancing with the dead
priests absolve the devils
in their mist
Pilar sold her virginity
for a few bars of gold
wrapped in an old ladies hatred
she murdered her vows
Mexico is a land of smiles
the knife only glints
in the Aztec sun
as they bury you
after eating your heart
Oct 6, 2018
Oct 6, 2018 at 3:38 AM UTC
once we were one, so close
now turncoat in lakes of
oleander, creeks run poison
we two betrayed
what stolen ideal cast
in stone against her?
my anima still wants love
from me, yet twists on proverbial
dime
coats were rejected
colors negated, unflown
prisoner of tumble town
chained like a queen
a shanty wish disregard
so no wings, air of nonesuch
grace barrio color to fly
in my mind, sleeping
mariachis playing loud,
my anima rescued me
real, such desert here
just my shivering id
skinned seal, bad memory
still hopeful still here
surely mi anima mi alma
will grant my dying
wish
I am the traitor of my anima
Aug 25, 2018
Aug 25, 2018 at 8:36 PM UTC
With the same pen and paper as the last love letter I wrote, I now write this.
PREAMBLE:
Everyday he'll suffer in silence and I'll be content with the thought. The same hand that wrote loving words is the same hand that brought tears to his eyes.
Over betrayal and deceit hidden in plain view with a longing of decadence and validation.
BODY:
He choose carefully, or so he thought - the wounded of the flock.
But he knew...somehow that I was different.
Unable to be read like a simple book, I am that of an enigma to most, alluring to others.
I could have loved that side of him -- the part unrestrained by persona. The damaged part, carefully tucked away.
But the beast must be fed by the tears of the innocent,
a pervasive pattern of loving women he made love him back.
He fed his soul with their sadness.
For he deceived them for proof of love and in it, he destroyed himself.
Day by day, he'll look at me and realize, like the last - he was wrong.
That someone had cared and someone was hurt, and that was not I.
And I am grateful -
for not loving a traitor.
To his own cause or mine.
Because every time he looks for validation in the tears of others.
I will not be there
and he will not find me.
Aug 14, 2018
Aug 14, 2018 at 7:06 PM UTC
From the moment we became a union
My mind, my heart, and my body
All thought of you.
You were constantly running through me.
Every hour, minute to every millisecond
was just You.
Only to find out,
You have given me the worst gift of all.
Now, I am suffering from the disease of heartbreak.
How treacherous and blind
A first love is.
Painful yet sweet.
Bitter but happy.
May I find peace between these dualities.
Jul 21, 2018
Jul 21, 2018 at 11:18 PM UTC