the town i was born in wasn't big enough
to contain the vastness of my dreams
so i moved out
i spent hours upon hours on the bank of river yamuna
looking for a sign
completely forgetting that a dead river can't speak
i misunderstood its silence for an invitation
so i moved in
i traded my inner peace for smoke filled air
and my innocence for the facade of a happy woman
delhi, i spent years of my life trying to fit in
to make sure that i belong
then why do the stares on the streets
tell me that i don't
delhi why have you been so cruel to me
like a failed mother forcing her expectations on her daughter
no matter what i did
i was never good enough
every time i tried to speak
you just didn't want to hear
you're a city trying to hide its deafness from its people
delhi why are you so unfair?
you throw stones at the workers that build you
and bow down at the feet of your destroyers
maybe you're just as confused and tired as me
people have taken more from you than you could give
so you stand exhausted, defeated and short of breath
and i do the same
for both of us have failed miserably
i could never be your daughter
and you could never be my home
Jan 6, 2021
Jan 6, 2021 at 5:18 PM UTC
Roll right to zero, give your tanks a stir
Fixed star to fixed star, running counter clockwise to stability
Beckoned and bewildered: first move, second chance
This incandescent satellite, so large and bright in the window
Like pieces of refracted light, infinite bulbs turning on
Empyrean, enveloped in moonshine, rendering them fit to recognize God
And should destiny be lunar luminosity and agile reason (or a seller of love)
I'll take to orbit and go for burn, peering through a mental kaleidoscope
To see the altered anima of my thoughts free from the pull of gravity
Jan 1, 2021
Jan 1, 2021 at 3:37 PM UTC
One time
You took me horseback riding
With a guide
And rented horses
I focused on how romantic it was
But I couldn't help but notice
How much that horse
You rode
Hated you
Dec 29, 2020
Dec 29, 2020 at 4:04 AM UTC
He's the one I dream about
But won't admit it to myself
Or anyone else
I call out another man's name
When asked who is the best
But my secret
Wish
Is for the one
I never name
I keep him in my heart
And he has the brightest flame
Dec 29, 2020
Dec 29, 2020 at 4:03 AM UTC
{inspired by Krista Dellefemine}
I see you carry a heavy metal soul
It must sound like thunder
When the rain comes
You are visible to some, like me
You must know, we walk a long road
Never to get home, but it's alright
Some paths don't lead nowhere
To go on wandering is no curse
I see you carry a heavy metal
Soul
~
Dec 28, 2020
Dec 28, 2020 at 6:16 PM UTC
My son was losing his mind tonight. He so wanted to know what his gifts where
The excitement was fun, annoying, sweet
He's not too big to sleep deeper in our bed. So we tucked him in so he would sleep, he went out so fast.
He feels safer in our bed. I wonder how many more years he's gonna want to sleep in here at all. I want to remember every minute. Before he really hits hormonal.
I miss him as a baby, but this is maybe better
As he knows his options and still chooses me
His dad, even his sisters.
My wishes have all come true, mostly
If only my own father issues were so easy
But now I must sleep too
Big day when these kids wake up
Dec 25, 2020
Dec 25, 2020 at 5:08 AM UTC
-
i have decided to
meditate on
nothing
by filling a moment
of voids with -
no parks
no dogs to walk
no children out playing
no cars cruising dead end streets
no boats in a river that flows nowhere
no fishermen having fish to fill their boats
no livelihood, no fish on a plate, no plate
to place back on the shelf, no shelf
to fix upon the wall, no wall
to hang photos, no photos
to look at, no faces
to recall,
nil,
just so _maybe_ i can
feel the Universe
pour itself
back into _me..._
s jones
Dec 2020
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Dec 22, 2020
Dec 22, 2020 at 10:51 AM UTC
Nobody is pure.
Everything is broken or simulated.
Who can show me truth
In a handful of dust?
Trust yourself, if you will
But beware the stealth
Of love that finds you
Sleeping
Nothing is real.
The concept of reality
Died a hard death
Several ages past
Time for tea
Now. Now we will take
Tea together and talk
About sapphires, garlic,
Mules.
Tell me about the robot
Mules back home....
On your planet
Dec 21, 2020
Dec 21, 2020 at 12:43 AM UTC
Fall becomes Winter.
Time changes. Time rearranges.
Each season provides its own challenge.
A shaving becomes a beard.
The snow falls. The snow piles.
Snowballs gain momentum and grow.
A scratch becomes an ache.
I can't breathe. I can't swallow.
I won't last long but this will last forever.
The cold becomes pneumonia.
I have coughing fits. I have blockage.
Phlegm builds an island to be marooned upon.
Habitation becomes hibernation.
The animals escape. The animals sleep.
They wait for the light to shine on them once more.
Mitigation becomes migration.
The birds fly away. The birds fly South.
As they flee their wings push cold air down toward us.
Winter becomes Spring.
I have become someone else.
A man who has felt another Winter.
Dec 20, 2020
Dec 20, 2020 at 7:57 PM UTC