#testing
Contentment and contention,
met me where I was musing using
confidence in certain adages, regarding
peace in plentitude,
measured for worth, homeostasis, wise
home, home, at last, the idea, achieved.
Bleibe doch, this is Earth, I can make it here.
And, having made it, I have it made, waiting is
grokking a rock, feeling earthy, ****** otherwise
content as content can seem, solidstate amenable.
Two minds met with opposing force, for right,
in a chirally complex differential power train,
left
real
historic
human revolution ringing shame and blame,
who uses the gold, who uses the lead?
Settle with me for a measure, what I have I spend,
it's only time, I hear, and I am wasting it being me,
happy enough to share haps on occasion, we meet,
my contentment entity and my uncontented wish pit,
where all our selfish prayers rest, at best, all folded up,
and safe as wool in cedar, to be put to use in Heaven,
boy, won't we have ourselves some fun, you betcha.
Son of mankind,
inclined to bet one does have some worth to God,
some worldly worth to life itself, to truth, per se,
free from fear of death,
born again, given a measure of faith,
as the only evidence bearing witness, good
trees fructify while perfectly content, good enough
as the pecans all fall on the same day,
as the katydids crawl out the same night,
as the clouds that warn of hurricanes appear
we can rest
assured, we see
with ***** Crosby,
the best mind state, blind,
faith, the substance of things hoped for,
such as days with nothing needing doing,
days aside realizing peace is possibly easiest
best contest in terms of contention with discontents
who have a legitimate cry before the judge of the world,
we who measure degrees of good or bad, by how well
we work as we use a measure granted generally for nothing,
we balance this and that with the beam in our own eye,
indeed, to accept great gain, as that which is plenty enough
to share, half is better than none, as is some peace,
on a Saturday in November, anywhere, better than none.
Nov 8, 2025
Nov 8, 2025 at 3:40 PM UTC
Skiffle they called 'em Wikipedia says so
Woe Socrates is my memory less active than yourn of yore?
I have had mine augmented you know, to give account for no-account idle words and some
Supposed to be yourn qualify as idle if you don't mind my mentioning how little you knew.
Except I don't believe you ever did breathe one written word
I think that Plato kid he was fearin' he would be kilt
Sure as home or whatever was sure as hell in them days, He cyphered out a way to say more than one thing at a time, and said he heard you say that, just the way he said it, same words, same exasperations and sighs and spit on certain expletives held back. Exactly, I do apologize, but you all knew nothing. Did you even know that old lady with the Aleph was Noah's wife. She tells you know thyself and you say you can't. What kind of man were you? Or what kind of man did Plato say you were. That's all we know, or can with 2018 magi-tech palimpsest restoration apps.
So Plato, the broad-shouldered ox, had you **** your ownself for saying what he said. But only on paper later.
I don't think anybody got the fact that orators
Orated
what people said they said is all we have.
But rumor has it they could all remember anything they wished.
Political careers do not require such memory training any more so such is seldom taught. Thank God for cameras on cellphones, right
Catch that sucker in the act on the Sabbath day
When only lines drawn in sand can be drawn in rest, blame the broad, she did the work.
A congress man accounts on twitter all their idle words in direct confrontation with those of the freshman class president at Mohave County Union High School sixty years or so ago. Who is refusing to tweet for proverbial reasons that trump the lies before.
Like deep spiritual prayers are said to be answered before they are prayed. I answer all the worlds stupid questions,
Writing with the clouds all the water remembers from its journies,
Oh I am a rich man. Have you seen my library. Have you read my mind. Did I make you pay? No way. Freely I have received I must freely give and acknowledge I am, in deed, warmed and filled.
Measure me by me please. Was I true to my DNA and circumstances and zeitgeists and all the outside influencers introducing errors with spare change. I worked for a living.
I was very well paid. I got life and made of it
A mess
Or a mess of things
Or a mess -age, but no complaints, I took the deal set before me for watching.
I watched, I hid and watched as I was told, and now I tell you
Life and death set before me more than once, no lie, I always took life, ever' time for what it's worth, for ever changes all the time. I ain't never gone be bored. Hell, no.
Pony up, rhymes are a dime a dozen, epics cost you a whole life of blood and tears, in dog years that translates to about $13,392,578.17.
Who ever is making use of my money may send it to me with no usury fees, cause I believe using it is better than burying it and
You did not lose my money and your soul? Did you? Would you know?
I mean, if you are that broke.
Would you know if you lost everything I invest my life in, I did the investing, not you. What did you do?
Right, you prayed. Effectually, show me the money wanderer, word wrangler, what is what you made with your mortal minute worth to any…
Flowing questions, churning lies, when the water spreads out in a shallow place where you can see rocks about skull-size making ripples, not white-water, slow-wide-shallow desert-river settled out all the mud and only clear, clear water comes here, even 100 years after the General Crook, Havasu-Pai still drink blue water, clear blue water as our mothers did.
A fording place, the fording place, that was the ford ing place the bible said was the border of the promised land where I have a share
When living there.
A river named "a good place to crossover".
Just above the Topock swamp,
I may have read that
on the rocks, once long a gone
Polysemy, whole new word for me to call what I was doing when I squared my double entendres and called them country songs. I learned that word today. Words mean what men make them say. Many meanings are not wrong. Private meanings, secret meanings, those are not right in public prayers or answers. If all the promises of God in Christ are Yes and Amen, we must look under that promise we stand on to stand under the cleansing flood.
Shelter from the storm she offered, I said no thanks and crawled on in the mud. That or this all happened years ago before I remember being here, for sure, but now that I stop, look and listen as I was trained to do, The messenger who came to me was not wicked, he was broke. He sold his soul, some say, for rock and roll, but I never knew the true meaning of the words.
It could a been a code that everybody knew but me, but I never let 'em know. I lied.
Right up to the offer at the cross-roads, at the junction, in the desert… I remember now, there was a long 6-percenter, Jake brake howling, ****** fool with one them old highway man lanterns, tar-pots they called 'em, he musta been deaf and blind or a deer with just enough sense to stare, there
Was that the wreck at Vidal Junction down on highway 62? (1969, there was hotel… I could not stop… I rolled on by and even now I imagine that is one of those things that never really Happened, y'know, what I mean?
Do you know what I mean/ What lies do you believe. It's out there some where. My old song.
I sang it for supper several times, now I just sing it for rent. Mortal minutes tick away, I need some place to grow that wont drown my roots and make my guard leaves yellow and lose pressure inside and bend to the point of
Rotting in the mud. I had a couple crops failed that way, back in the day. That first crop was all bullheads and tumbleweeds mixed with wild oats and grade school lies. I was glad that one rotted, not then, but later, when I saw
Some people die by their own sown seeds fructifing with a vengeance I did not know, some of their wild oats brought forth 20,40, 100 fold by the time they died, just a mortal minute ago.
In 2023, alone by choice. Finding these times alone
in the past, I have the future's promise, art intuition,
take the test, accept the risk, wake up
in context… appearing in your own confusion using
solar energy to imagine becoming worth enough
to be eligible for whole duty done, patience
perfected,
this is six years later, I am technically deeper in debt,
but that is the discourse agreed to at the guessing
session.
When I guessed it would be good if you could think so.
Nov 1, 2025
Nov 1, 2025 at 9:47 PM UTC
we were testing every limit we could get our hands on....
it was like we could not survive without chaos.
it was always us dancing in burning building,
threatening the lightning,
coasting that gray line between life and death.
you'd push and I'd pull....
we fought like cats and dogs.
we blamed the world for it's shallow trick's it played on us....
but we were already way off the deep end,
crashing through the surface of everything we wanted to be.
Mar 31, 2025
Mar 31, 2025 at 6:48 PM UTC
I built it with wisdom
So that it may survive criticism
I built it with caution
So that it may retain perfection
My love saturated in every action
Every pain , impending completion, erased
Due to this fatal attraction
Every piece Harmoniously placed
And finally I rest
Seeing your immaculate function
Shall I run a test?
To temper your reactions
Mar 27, 2024
Mar 27, 2024 at 5:27 AM UTC
windowless day,
particles of strange salt on his brow,
generator man
on the coil,
double-sided,
a love for radioactive honey:
a storm in a teacup...
but for some reason
could not reciprocate
due to the metallic taste in his mouth,
and so he seemed driven
to build his electrical dream,
and took comfort from his pigeons,
the “lightning machine,”
the hair on his head bristled
as he discovered his purpose
in rings of glory that died
as flags of dust...
Dec 13, 2023
Dec 13, 2023 at 9:15 AM UTC
Entertained.
Contained.
Maintained.
Retaining access to once knowns,
sit still listening, not thinking anything
- calling living winning, then quitting.
Get up and ask the truth to forgive
me as I have forgiven, and correct me
where my functioning is hindering.
Stretching the cord to tie the load…
Become what truth embodied is,
cushion the fall from the stacked
featherbeds for religious businesses-
thumpwhump, takes y'breathaway
Conscienceless conscious necience,
all automated - due souly to luck in
the making of DNA, you see,
discovery is the easy part,
much more inter-
esting testing resting mind mingle,
estimating instants time in transit…
imagining the code used to build
the ladder, up one side, down the other.
Handling, managing manacled hopes,
most substantial, dashed to smithereens,
whither in the rearview I see you not looking,
not noticing the era we lived through, seeing
sublime simplicity unfold before us as we examine
essential, necience, non knowing unrecognizable,
feeling path, finding fortunate occasional fruit sweet,
as a path crossing fruiting bough slaps
sweetness perception from reward schedules,
stinging sensation, signal sending saying, it's okeh,
sudden sinking subtle ******* muddy awareness,
sniff, just agnosis dripping,
thinking life's a trip, travel light.
Oct 16, 2023
Oct 16, 2023 at 1:26 PM UTC
Ai, as it is, in my nature,
my bend in the river, rounding an edge,
drop
off…
question I have ever had, is how's they do it?
Jeffers and Emerson, rich men, to begin with,
eh, what a difference
a childhood makes,
or a pension, I suppose, as good as rich,
growing old and happy, satisfied,
with what the rich man had, had he had
this satisfactory mind,
in my time.
Nov 2, 2022
Nov 2, 2022 at 10:33 PM UTC
now
and then
i like
to turn off
the lights
let the moon
and instinct
guide me
swallowed
by the dark
there is no path
to choose
only chance;
blind luck
balancing upon
the finest of lines
eyes will adapt
to the pitiful offering
of the clouded crescent
but
there is neither
enough silvery light
nor confidence
to be sure
of safety
for long
in the enveloping darkness
anxiety rises
fear overpowers
and faith
in the self
becomes questionable;
headlights
are flicked on again
in panicked haste
as the road
and its obstacles
become clear once more
i am left
wondering
if i truly believed
i could navigate
without the help
being offered
or
if i simply
wanted to
force myself
into failure
Apr 18, 2022
Apr 18, 2022 at 5:08 PM UTC
9 seats
9 brains
9 kids
All kids
Expected to know
To understand
Expected to focus
On a screen with no meaning
No root in reality
A brain being molded
On another’s dime
// EW
Nov 9, 2020
Nov 9, 2020 at 2:15 PM UTC
St. George, Utah, 1953
Look out your window
What do you see?
***** Harry
And winds that mean no harm
Nice big mushroom cloud
Gonna dust your farm
ee-I-ee-I-o
Aug 27, 2020
Aug 27, 2020 at 9:51 PM UTC
A little splinter today
a tiny shiv
to ***** at our resolve
to flatten the curve
buckle in and fatten up
in your locality
so beautiful days
can be unlocked again
Apr 11, 2020
Apr 11, 2020 at 5:38 AM UTC
My neck aches from testing
And staying up all night
To brand numbers on my skin
Calloused from pens held tight
Feb 11, 2019
Feb 11, 2019 at 3:53 PM UTC
I can't wait for winter break,
Too much work and my brain aches,
Could just stop that's all it takes,
But I'm doing this for their sake,
Learn things for tests no mistakes,
Relate fingers to great lakes,
Superior till' I break,
To Michigan that's the stakes,
Get her on to take the cake,
Ontario has the steak,
More eerie than poison snakes,
To remember words and shapes,
That's what's done rewind the tapes.
Nov 1, 2018
Nov 1, 2018 at 8:02 PM UTC
#*Lord Jesus, Plower of my heart,
though the darkness descends around me
and heavy moods fall over me,
though the warm feelings of intimacy begin to fade
and encroaching melancholy threatens to set in
like a cold reversal of the winds,
still I will rejoice in Your presence with me,
for You are causing me to press beyond—
beyond the delightful sense of You
and into the delightful assurance of You.
If I know nothing else, I know that You are here,
You are faithful and You love me.
So I will keep clinging to that
when everything else seems to slip
like dust through my fingers
and all hope of good things
in this life grows dim.
I will cling to the promise
that You are clinging to me,
that You’ve got me no matter what,
that You are never leaving or letting go.
For You are the unchanging I AM
in my ever-changing circumstances,
through my ever-shifting emotions,
over my ever-shaking life
and around my ever-feeble heart.
Here is my hand, Lord Jesus.
I put it safely in Yours and trust You
to lead me through this dark night.
Work Your holy, harrowing fingers
deep into the soil of my heart
until every idol is uprooted,
every stone removed
and every broken place restored.
Thank You, Jesus.
I love You.*#
Aug 1, 2017
Aug 1, 2017 at 5:16 PM UTC
#***In Solidarity
Limited , Not by Limitations
Confined , Not by Conformity***#
Aug 22, 2018
Aug 22, 2018 at 1:49 PM UTC
this is an endless hellscape
housed by demons mocking my torture
blood rains from my fingertips
clotting in the gaping mouths
of the spectators' bellow
my bones snap and mend at crooked angles
set by my captor
injecting formaldehyde to freeze my body
poisoned by exposure
May 10, 2018
May 10, 2018 at 1:09 AM UTC
School was a pleasing dream
a world of wonder
in which I yearned
to get through the door
to the desk
to my graphite, with its #2
That scent of worn paper
and paste upon the wood
my place of reprieve
full of my passions like a
kid in a toy shop
a poor boy in a rich man's world
that was when school was
a neverending treasure trove
with golden coin upon coin
but then was suddenly halted by a hard brick wall
the word testing carved against the stones
3rd grade hit
and then my mind
began to bite their words
turning them to solid stone
as time passed on my thoughts degraded
till all was gray
and uniform
like a blonde child in a **** school
mind wiped and reprogrammed
forced to stay in line
scolded to sit still
throwing culture out the window
till only the standardized colors of a flag remained
Now I’m just a bibliophile
sitting atop a pile
with books and texts throughout the ages
heaped under my feet
but I can not make out their stories
For their pages are blackened
and their words blurred
like a rushing river of soiled ink
caused by cluttered shelves
in the library of my mind
that has been burned by torches
held by men and women in suits and ties
holding badges of authority
like my mind is a criminal
being investigated by the FBI
They tell me I should know
that it’s easy
1, 2, 3 go
but I can’t
they locked my door
once they began to teach their TEKS
my colors hid and got locked beneath
and now my mindsets stuck
with no hope for release
What was a rainbow
with it’s *** of golden words
Now resides a rusting locker
with chipping paint and faded words
The creative concepts once in my head
have been broken by just five letters
that changed my words to dull markings
and erased the color from my thoughts
like the page in a coloring book quickly erased
so the sky would be blue instead of magenta
because the sky can never be anything else but blue
Five letters that I thought defined who I was
that I was always worried to fail
A big red F peeking over my shoulder
Five letters that could destroy
thinking that they controlled my fate
three old ladies threatening with their scissors and thread
to cut a cord made of multiple choice answers
Five letters that could mean success
or doom
like a hazy brained plan to stop a war
that could only continue to grow worse as
each soldier fell while running through the minefield of society
But those five letters are just a tool
To add an extra grade
and a little more rules
Stamping labels upon our IQ
Taking away our peace and serenity
Angling our goals away from our own
Adding stress upon tentative minds
Redirecting our thoughts from right to left
so suddenly trees are plastic and
the alphabet only has letters A-H
and all we know are large cement buildings
instead of fields of flowers
My whole world in a pint sized room
with flowing waterfalls that burst from my imagination
obscured by bland walls and heavy doors
Colorful assemblies with
shushing giants making up a chorus
irony written on every poster of every wall
learn and you’ll pass
go to sleep and you’ll pass
eat healthy and you’ll pass
no need for imagination
no need for outside experience
just sit in that chair
and take that quiz
that test
that exam
that benchmark
We’ll have fun later in the year,
but that better not be your essay topic
and that story better not be fiction
And all the while I scream
I want color
I want the sky to be magenta
I want to use every word and phrase available to me
I want to soar as crane flying across a lake
I want to run like a track star to the the finish
Throw down the pencils
the printed paper
throw away the charts and empty messages on the walls
I want to run down the halls
and dance instead of sit
I want to sing instead of speak
I want to learn instead of being taught
But all I can do is sit
All I can do is write
All I can do is conform
So I won’t be thrown in the trash
like a piece of worthless junk
that still has a purpose
So i won’t be stuck in the same room for more than eighteen years
like a prison sentence for not knowing the laws of this country
So i won’t be left behind
like the homeless in the streets
School was a joy
Education was a treasure
But now is defiled
by one
small
packet of paper
Apr 7, 2018
Apr 7, 2018 at 1:06 PM UTC
The fonterrorists will go elsewhere
The big boy powers always find a small dot far away from their large splodge
To check and wreck havoc to
It’s got to be far far enough away that if you can smell the smoke,
It’s faint enough that you could mistake it for incense
Or your might twitch your nose
Turn your head and say
Is someone smoking?
It smells like someone is smoking?
When the water is more **** than water
When it is only dry, desitutte,
eroded wasted uselessness,
The fonterrorists will go elsewhere
Somewhere with more utility.
Sep 17, 2017
Sep 17, 2017 at 9:11 PM UTC
On the playgrounds of the future
Children will laugh and sing
And we’ll cross the bridge to real peace
Where the bells of sanity shall ring
Until then we’ll play the game
Which will all add up to naught
“It’s your fault, no, it’s theirs…”
Why some fail at what is taught.
We’ve been given new books and bosses
Numerous regs to do the job
But money flows to the burbs
Inner-cities fair game to rob
Touching the future may seem easy
From a point too far away
One could assume it’s all just ditto -
Then lunch - then math - then play
If this is your belief
You could not be further from the fact
That success is measured forward
As we have our students’ back
So forward we will plod
Secretly teaching to the mean
We will test, and test and test
From which all congress shall glean
Information in nice neat form
Of bars and charts sublime
Symbolic of teachers and students
Who have been sentenced to hard time
And the monied districts shall rule
Golden in and out
And the bootstraps will appear
Accusing all who doubt
Good will be the words to spread
And many who will eat them
The failures will be shown the straps
But for pity’s sake, don’t beat them
G. Davis-Feldman
Sep 15, 2016
Sep 15, 2016 at 9:54 AM UTC