#supportive
I just wanted to thank you
for just being you
when we are together
I feel something new.
Something I'd been missing
for a number of years now
the light in my smile
you brought back somehow.
So thank you for being there
when I need to talk
for making me laugh
and smiling alot.
Thank you for never judging me
for the things that I share
when I speak openly
thank you for being there.
Thank you for being here
and emotionally supportive
when my personality disorder
has got me distorted.
For understanding when I don't want to talk
and for listening truly
when my thoughts just can't stop.
Thank you for showing me your soft side to
I feel honored to know it
I know not many do.
Thank you for trying to bring my self-worth back
it's been so long without it
I've long felt the lack.
But with you I feel lighter
I can breath and it's calm
this is the feeling I've craved for so long.
So thank you again from the bottom of my heart
Just just being you
right from the start.
Nov 10, 2024
Nov 10, 2024 at 12:13 PM UTC
How can it be that life should be so sweet
What could I've done to earn this greatest gift
That I should have this rarest chance to meet
A soul so kind, who opens up her heart.
Their arms forever opened to embrace
Their words forever ready to uplift
Even her home, that sanctuaried place
Left open-doored to friends who go adrift.
Their voice they raise to advocate for change
To validate, they spread not hate, but love
She lives her life without a trace of shame
She must have been a gift sent from above.
No words I speak nor write could manifest
A friend like her; she really is the best.
Jun 29, 2022
Jun 29, 2022 at 3:33 PM UTC
Precious seconds fill the void of time
For every second that goes by
One month has passed
And only eleven more
Before the end.
Do you just sit there
Waiting to be consumed,
Or do you feel life
In every second that passes?
Either way your time is limited.
Are you here?
Are you present in this moment,
Or is the passing of time something that happens to you?
What did you eat for breakfast last monday?
Do you even remember this morning?
Don’t let these precious seconds slip by,
Just because they’re not tied to precious memories.
Because the seconds with the people you love,
And the ones passed in the monotony of the day to day,
Are all the same length,
And each is an equal step forward
To the last second you get to spend.
Wilting is in our nature;
It's a part of existence
But the wilting bud left unbloomed
Leaves no greater waste
Of beautiful minds.
Sprout and let your roots
Plant deep
But let your heart show
That what you keep to yourself,
Doesn’t need to be uprooted
To be shown.
Just because the sky breathes
Winter through the clouds,
Doesn’t mean the sun
Isn’t shining behind them’
Don’t let yourself wilt
Just because the sky gives an excuse.
Existential horror.
The dread of being on a conveyor belt,
Taken somewhere you don’t know,
Your destination far away or around the corner,
With no power to slow down or stop.
Now or later,
We all reach the destination we’re bound for,
So why waste another moment,
Staring blankly down,
In attempts to deny you’re going anywhere?
Look up,
And join us as we face the end with hope.
334 more days.
334 more opportunities to live instead of simply not dying.
Feb 1, 2021
Feb 1, 2021 at 11:12 PM UTC
The loudest noise of the brightest room
Can carry away the view from you
But you must be you
To shine brighter..
Than any sound ever could bring you down
A lesson of years
Forged in tears
Gives me the years that remain
My life is my lane..
Tried shifting lanes
I tried shifting gears
I tried hiding from my fears
I grew my own pain..
It took the strength of my lifetime..
To be free of the world's mind..
Become an individual..
And be me..
I feel more free
As if I have unshackled a lock
That I couldn't see never was..
The lock existed..
But it took my heart..
To realize my captor forgot to secure me
I walk left and then right
Left and then right..
Like before..
But now free..
Pain can become fear
Fear can hurt you more than that pain
You exist in this world
By nature are bound to no one
Sometimes.. It just takes a little living
To set yourself free
To know you deserve more..
Life can make you breathe a little heavy..
Slow it down there..
Its ok..
You aren't the only one..
The truth is there is so much good in this world.. Sometimes.. You only need look..
"My darkness came from within me"
My heart was that only
My mind as well..
Or so I thought..
But it was never true..
And you can be you..
Should your will ever wane..
I've lived in hospitals..
Suffered in tears like the rain
But I let it go..
The pain..
Been to death's door and back
It was my own heart I attacked
But hey..
I really did make it back..
And you..
You are not alone.
Aug 4, 2020
Aug 4, 2020 at 6:34 PM UTC
Some write from their heart
Others bare their soul
Some write for the art
Others to feel whole
Some write to inform
Others to get a laugh
Some write as a platform
Others to land a gaff
Some write to rant and lobby
Others to find peace
Some write as a hobby
Others in search of a masterpiece
They each have merit
But with every sort of objective
They just want to share it
With us, the HP collective
Jan 17, 2020
Jan 17, 2020 at 12:48 PM UTC
How can I use my phone less? Should I?
I use it to reach out to my daughter...
I call my mama every day...
I tell my sister, I will call her
And set an alarm to do it...
Oh well...
I can just fly to the opposite coast...
And hug her little one...
And be a perfect auntie... for one week...
Oh! that's so cheating!
Ok, I'm cheating....
But I'm good at it!
Do you know why?
Because when I see your little one...
I see you... and I love her so much!
And I'm sorry I wasn't a good sister...
I wanted to...
I planned on being fair, and caring, and supportive...
When I was 9...
But when I was 10....
I got jealous...
I didn't even know that I was...
But you know what?
I still ironed your little blankets...
And went to get donated milk for you...
Yes!
In the snow!..
For like 20 min walk through the snow...
Because you needed milk to grow...
... and because I love you <3
Jan 7, 2020
Jan 7, 2020 at 7:19 AM UTC
i want to solve Your problems but
my love can only change so much
my support can only validate so much
my humor can only ease so much
my pride can only deliver so much
and my insecurities interfere so much..
Aug 13, 2019
Aug 13, 2019 at 6:19 PM UTC
windows up
walls down
in the backseat of her toyota
staring at the green fluorescent car clock
9:37
he looks over his shoulder in the passenger seat,
the boy who could breathe without inhaling
a mere party trick.
i had always wondered what it felt like to be a teen
stupid as is seems
i was sheltered once,
hidden from night rides
obscured from midnight hikes
asleep instead of the early morning mcdonald trips
my friends were more persistent on making me to eat with them
than making me exhale dancing fumes with them.
i only know the double chin grins on our snapchat stories
the rude jokes, the black ripped jeans, and snapbacks
the lime green socks that matched the stair railings
and pink sliders never looked better.
the “6:30” movies (5:30, shhh, my mom can’t know)
and the crinkling of empty water bottles in the backseat
i felt alive tonight,
even through the tough,
sushi stores and reclining movie theaters never felt more like home.
and boba stores that stay open late with neon open signs
welcome us
9:37
the “oH mY gOsH iTs a DoG” screams
the photoshoots with random men wearing fake Coach hats
the posing by wooden desks
the lights that lounge effortlessly above
encaptures our spirits and brighten them
i don’t drink, but they smoke
but tonight, beer can’t buzz us more than boba
and childish giggles escape from my wide smile.
so this is what the lullabies were about
this is what katy perry sang about
this is what i had been waiting for
to experience moments of pure awe and affection for those around me
to see them smile in slow motion when they understand a joke
or react to something
our collective experiences are understood
no words need to be ushered to empathize
as we dress like the night,
we transform into it
the stars flicker for us
the moon gives us her blessing
and the sleeping sun gives us our space
9:37
was meant for us
the clock stops
and time stretches its arms to infinity and beyond
i could live in the frozen frame of this evening
bomber jackets, jean jackets, and tattooed planets
the inside jokes, the enjoyed hoax, our future hopes
they live inside the car clock that reads, in green, 9:37
Jul 12, 2018
Jul 12, 2018 at 4:26 AM UTC
I cannot say thank you enough
For supporting me all seven days of the week
And not giving up where others would
No matter how hopeless or bleak
I am here physically, but not really there
Trapped in the prison within my head
I know you understand for now
I am sure patience will turn to frustration instead
How much longer until you get tired of me
Not calling your phone enough to check in?
How many tearful episodes will you
Be able to face with a grin?
We co-exist but this sweet utopia
Can only last a limited number of days
Despite how calm and supportive you are
Eventually you will tire of my selfish ways
Apr 16, 2018
Apr 16, 2018 at 5:57 PM UTC
It’s always fascinated me
how every single cell in our bodies
works so hard
to keep us alive
you could say
that they love you
and care about you
but that’s not true
they have no sentience
no will
but they have a mission
a purpose
which is more than some people have
and it’s almost an honor
when you think about
how these trillions of cells
have the same purpose:
to help you
Mar 25, 2018
Mar 25, 2018 at 9:27 PM UTC
Good or bad times, they
always stand behind you, check
your wedding album.
Dec 17, 2017
Dec 17, 2017 at 9:20 AM UTC
A lunar cycle passed in memoriam of them
Who helped paving the road to unity
Yet sought the warmth of the sun
The golden gleam shone brightly on the pass
They marched forward
A staple in the system deemed unmatched
An adhesive bond, firmly grasped
Although double-checked it dissipated
The roadmaker came to a fall
Falling silently, they let out a final cry
As the path cracked in time
The road distorted into contortion
What seemed like a peaceful road
Ended up a jagged pass
The falling abruptly ended
The hands that reached out to them
Embraced them in a livid bloom
Of effervescent warmth
I stood amongst the occasion
To guide the roadmaker, creator of the stars
To guide them to their ultimate path
Dec 10, 2017
Dec 10, 2017 at 11:33 AM UTC
I want to believe in a world
Where ashes do not go back to ashes,
Where dust will not go back to dust,
Or into the bones
Of oblivion.
I want to believe in a world
Where hats would drop off
When the artist speaks,
Or sows together pieces
Of melancholy and precision.
Yes, I want to believe in this perfect world
Where a thought can be bought
For more than a penny,
But for a whole
Golden mine.
This world is both yours and mine,
So please believe in it,
So we can stop beating around the bush
When it comes to you and me
And art.
May 6, 2017
May 6, 2017 at 7:43 PM UTC
Daig ko pa yata ang mga supporting roles sa mga pelikula. Kayo ang bida, at ang ako itong sumusuporta sa inyo na walang katapusan. Walang katapusang pagbulagbulagan. Walang katapusang sakit ang nararamdaman ko. Palaging pinipilit ang sarili na hindi mahulog para sayo. Palaging pinipilit sa isipan na ikaw ay para sa kaniya at siya ay para sayo.
Ngunit kahit anong pilit kahit anong pigil sa damdaming ito, bakit nahulog parin? Bakit di ko mapasokpasok sa loob ko na hindi tayo. Na ako ay ang supporting role lamang. At kayo ang binda. Siya ang leading lady at ikaw ang leading man.
Mabuti pa nga sa mga pelikula, at least merong ka partner ang female supporting role. Pero ako? Ikaw lang ang nasa paningin. Ikaw lang ang gustong yakapin. Ikaw. Ang kaisaisang bagay na di ko kayang makuha. Isang bagay na di para sa akin.
Apr 19, 2017
Apr 19, 2017 at 4:38 AM UTC
This year:
(for those with brave hearts)
I hope you find the strength to make your choices and fight for the life that you want.
I hope you look up from all your hard work and realize how much you've grown.
I hope you find yourself saved sometimes.
I hope you find time to get lost, in your head, in the wilderness, to explore forests, and gaze into rivers.
I hope you find your best self looking back at you. I hope you know you're always growing.
I hope you feel challenged.
I hope you never stop believing in the view from the top of the mountain.
I hope you get there. I hope you find it was worth it.
(for the softhearted)
I hope you find more time to laugh.
With your friends, at yourself, or at the world for ever thinking it could hurt you.
I hope you can take the pain and say "thank you."
i hope you realize it has only made you all the more good, all the more beautiful.
I hope you start looking less at the mirror, start believing more in who you are in other people's eyes, what you know you are in your heart.
I hope life gets sweeter, hope you wake up with your head in the clouds, your soul flying.
I hope you finally find what you're looking for.
I hope you find yourself smiling.
(for those with big hearts)
i hope you realize how important you are, how you make people feel appreciated and loved.
i hope you realize that the world wouldn't be the same if you weren't trying so hard to make it a better place.
i hope the world tucks you into bed, proud of its little soldier.
i hope you appreciate yourself for your efforts.
i hope you never get tired of being a champion of the things people say no longer exist - so much kindness, goodness, love, peace.
i hope that you find fulfillment in the little things because sometimes, that's all we get.
little things like knowing you made someone smile, or that the people you love are doing fine, doing better.
i hope you realize that's all you need.
i hope your heart is proud of itself.
i hope the love that burns in you always keeps you warm.
(for the fainthearted)
I hope you realize there's so much more to your life than you thought there was.
I hope you find moments that make your breath catch, a million things to marvel at.
I hope life surprises you. I hope you surprise yourself.
I hope you find your horizons expanding, and see that it's not as bad as you thought.
I hope your dreams take you places; I hope you travel paths that you never knew existed, but where you feel you belong.
I hope you discover your longings, what your heart would sing for, what you didn't know you wanted all along.
I hope you get up and chase it.
Dec 28, 2016
Dec 28, 2016 at 10:28 AM UTC
When you feel like the walls are closing in, don't be scared
When you feel like the waters are about to take you under, don't panic
When you feel the road you're on is coming to an end, don't worry
Just remember this, I promise to always be there, no matter what
When things get the better part of you, call my name
When you're feeling like you can't go on, I'll be there to help you along
Don't feel embarrassed, never feel ashamed
I'll always be there, and respect you just the same
Take my hand, I promise I'll never let you go
If I hold on too tight, please let me know
Your pretty smile brightens my day, it helps my heart heal
I want you to know my words are true and sincere
May 5, 2016
May 5, 2016 at 10:54 PM UTC
Why have you stopped writing
little nothings that hold such big
meanings?
I long to read your words and
hear your whimsical voice and
the sounds that escape your
mouth when you laugh.. Just
tell me what I need to say to
bring everything back..
I know right now you're surrounded
by the darkness; lost within your mind
and what's around you that makes you
want to (maybe) cry?
I'm trying to be supportive and stick to
your side- I'm sorry that I'm at a loss
for words; and that I'm not sure why.
I'm supposed to know what to say, aren't I?
Nov 1, 2015
Nov 1, 2015 at 3:02 AM UTC
One man in my life
Who would never leave,
He has stayed around
Protecting me.
One man in my life
Who is always supportive
Giving advice from his experience
Wanting us to follow his lead.
One man in my life
Who has thousand ideas daily,
And is striving for
Turning them into reality.
One man in my life
Who is willing to give
Everything and even more
To his daughters and his family.
Don't be sad,
That we are growing up so fast,
We'll still be there and Your little girls
Thanking You for being our Dad.
Jun 5, 2015
Jun 5, 2015 at 7:26 AM UTC
What would it take to get on that level?
I've done so much.
Been there.
I'd do anything.
And all I want in return is to be thought of,
To be on that level, too.
And to not be taken for granted, ever.
Jan 28, 2015
Jan 28, 2015 at 10:48 PM UTC
My love for you was holy
and like a new dawn pure.
Like a green leaf on the vine,
promising to grow secure.
My love for you was instilled
by God to carry you
on the hands of His providence
certain and strong and sure.
Nov 22, 2014
Nov 22, 2014 at 6:28 PM UTC