#notoveryou
"it’s been months.
get over it.
just ignore the fact he’s there."
but how could i tell them that looking at you makes me,
sick.
it makes me cold, like the winter finally showed,
it makes the tears gather, the chills run through my body.
but how could i tell them that hearing your laugh makes me,
hurt.
it makes me reminisce on nights when i heard it endlessly,
sweaty palms in the fear that you'll hold them,
the thought of caressing your face.
it makes me,
think.
possibly, this is not the time to be doing this
but how could i tell them im not over it.
it makes me,
realize.
im not over you.
Apr 17, 2019
Apr 17, 2019 at 10:32 AM UTC
If I told you I love you,
would that be enough.
If I told you, you are the only thing I think about,
would you give us another chance.
If I learned how to communicate,
would you take me back.
If I told you I loved you
would you say it back?
Nov 17, 2018
Nov 17, 2018 at 1:34 AM UTC
A friend once gave me
A paper flower,
An orange one, a dahlia
And it reminded me of you...
I know she just made it
Out of thin sheets of crepe paper
But I just can smell fresh daisies
Whenever I hold it close.
Just like how I could smell you
Thousands of miles away---
I fell in love with the dahlia
As quickly as I fell for you
Believing the make believe flower
Won't fade away like you'd do...
Hoping I don't have to
Shower it with as much time
Nor do I have to be with it
As much as I could have been for you---
I know it's my fault
We didn't last before
Yet for this one time I tried...
But how could I have known
That the sad reality is
Even paper flowers would wilt too?
Apr 20, 2018
Apr 20, 2018 at 1:05 PM UTC
it's just that sometimes when your name shows up on my phone
i get too excited
and whenever i think of the word blue
i think of your eyes
and whenever i read those dumb paragraphs on instagram
i firstly think of you
and so i guess i'm over you in a way that means
i'm so
totally
not.
Jan 20, 2018
Jan 20, 2018 at 9:48 PM UTC
And I'm so god **** stupid to lose a girl like you. What was I thinking? Being a **** boy and then growing up without you here with me?
Nov 30, 2017
Nov 30, 2017 at 6:29 AM UTC
*I used to know every soft crack in her hand
and how I loved coating each one
with the skin from mine.
I would rest on her warmth
and think about how I never wanted to leave that vacation.
As the suns turned to moons, summer turned to winter
and winter couldn’t look back.
It dried her skin and calloused mine.
I would reach for her hand but
it gripped like a stranger with a hidden agenda.
Winter eventually turned back to summer but
summer was someone else.
I’m with a new hand now
who’s soft cracks attempt to fill my gaps. But
instead of giving her my skin,
I leave sand in between us
from last year’s vacation I never wanted to leave.*
Dec 15, 2013
Dec 15, 2013 at 5:32 AM UTC
*I see you,
you smiled,
I smiled;
You walked closer -- to her
and hugged her tight,
I hugged my arms tighter,
trying to hold back the tears
I walked away
still eyeing on you--
and t'was when I realized,
I wasn't completely over you.*
Jan 23, 2016
Jan 23, 2016 at 6:37 PM UTC
The touch of your lips remain in my memory
The soft sound of your whispers
The sensation of your hands
The feeling I get when you walk into the room
Its funny
The way I felt for you
Its hilarious
Then you let go of the unbreakable grip we held
Inseparable
And now I realize
It wasn't long
Until we were both alone
But this is the reason
You are something
About my life
I will never forget
May 30, 2015
May 30, 2015 at 4:48 PM UTC
I am unaware of what my heart wants.
I was certain that I had put the fantasy of us to rest, but then I saw you and all your glory.
Your dogmatic charisma engulfed the room and I was captivated once again.
Tense with expectation, you shattered my frail composure
I thought I was over you, but I was only deceiving myself.
Apr 20, 2014
Apr 20, 2014 at 12:23 AM UTC