all it takes is a match
just your touch,
and i’m up in flames.
all it takes is your smile,
just your laugh,
and the house catches fire.
to distracted by the sound of your voice,
to put out the fire you started in my home.
to in love to see the flames building from your lies,
to leave or to stay,
will the burns be worth it?
May 7, 2019
May 7, 2019 at 3:04 PM UTC
you’ve stolen so much of my soul,
i’m still trying to remember who i was
May 7, 2019
May 7, 2019 at 2:56 PM UTC
grab my hair
and touch my skin
breathe my air
and let me in
whisper softly in my ear
that I have nothing left to fear
cause time has left
and so has place
just you and me
floating through space
May 7, 2019
May 7, 2019 at 2:54 PM UTC
the words used to flow like silk through my fingertips
i used to know exactly how to weave them
make them fall into tapestries, hang them from walls
emblazoned with unadulterated innocence.
it wasn't until you asked to look at my creations
that i realised sunlight could be so damaging
my words felt frivolous under your scathing gaze
and they stuttered, crumbled. my tapestries fell.
now they're dust and i'm on my knees, crawling
grasping fistfuls that seep through my hands
you can't write about something you can't feel
and now i can't feel anything.
this is the last poem i'll write about you.
May 3, 2019
May 3, 2019 at 2:57 PM UTC
if you are going to fall in love with me,
you must know that i cry. a lot.
i cry during rainy days, sunny days, or on a monday morning.
i cry everytime i watch a happy movie and everytime i cut onions,
but do know that i cry harder every time i talk about the things that have hurt me, even if they don’t hurt anymore.
i need constant reassurance.
for i am afraid of being left behind, of being unloved.
i will probably tell you all the things i hate about myself
while you disagree with each one of them
but i still won’t believe every single word you’ll say.
i got used to shutting down the people who care about me.
it will be so hard for me to open up,
but all i’m asking you is to stay patient, and give me time to adjust.
you might think i’m rejecting your company,
but don’t blame yourself, i appreciate you.
so listen, if you are going to fall in love with me
understand that i’ve been through the worst
but still, i’ll love every inch of your skin unconditionally
May 3, 2019
May 3, 2019 at 2:54 PM UTC
i dread the day you learn
for the first time that
you can't just love all
the darkness in me away
and no matter how much
you care i will still toss
and turn at night and scars
might still appear on my skin
i dread the day you realize
that you can't cure me
and sometimes all you can do
is stand next to me and
hold my hand through fog
pouring out of my ears so black
and thick we can't even see
each other's faces
i dread the days i can't
get out of bed
the days you want to
take me out and all
i can manage is a prettified
shell of myself
i dread the day you learn
that sometimes no matter
how hard i try i still can't
pull myself together
the day you learn that
there isn't an answer
you can give that will
save me from my fears
you aren't the first person
who has tried to love the
darkness inside away
my family and friends
have given it their all
but someday you too will learn
that if love could
cure mental illness
the world would be
a much better place
May 1, 2019
May 1, 2019 at 10:06 AM UTC
your selfish hands,
always expecting more.
your one night stands,
beating the women to the door.
you promise to stay,
to hold her at night,
she cries and she pleads,
telling you things just don’t feel right.
so you lay, beside her your imprint is subtle
she falls to deep breaths,
as you leave in her slumber.
you tell your friends you got her in bed,
as she cries herself to sleep,
wondering if she would rather be dead.
you see her months later,
she died her hair red,
you tell her she looks even greater.
as you take her hand in yours,
apologize for that night,
she gives you that smile,
and walks towards the door.
Apr 18, 2019
Apr 18, 2019 at 2:35 PM UTC